| Slave Journal May 18th |
| Slave Journal May 19th |
| Journal for Mistress Control |
| Opened my post from Mistress Control this morning, Friday 18th of May, to find that my journal was fine, and she cut my stroking sessions back to three, hoping I would not have to do any at all, but if Mistress Control instructs me, I am hear to please my Mistress, so please her I shall. My Mistress also told me that because my cock was sore, I could use KY Jelly today, my Mistress also said that the jelly would make my cock very sensitive, and warned me I would be very severely punished. Therefore, when I went out to buy the jelly, I was really looking forward to what was in store for me, until I came back home and put the jelly on my cock. My Mistress is as cunning as ever. Got back from my shopping and went up to my computer, stripped naked and at 11-30am, put some of the jelly onto my cock, did not really know how to apply it so I pulled back the foreskin as far as I could and applied the jelly, also put some on my hand and starting stroking saying "I am doing this to please Mistress Control". After about twenty strokes, I knew what my Mistress was talking about, the excitement in my cock was fantastic, and if I carried on, I would have cum there and then. Mistress forgive me but I just could not wait for precum to seep out, because I knew if I did that would have been that, That was pure torture, and Mistress must be having the time of her life, knowing what I am going through and having to obey her commands, or else. It could not have lasted more than one minute, and another denial I had to obey to from my Mistress With only three sessions to do today, and a little bit more time I can give myself a bit of breathing space, to try and control myself, I waited for four hours before I started my second session, but within them four hours my cock was so excited, I stripped off, and started rubbing my cock up against the wall, not being able to touch it, it was so humiliating pushing my arse up against the wall trying to get some relief but not being able to cum. When I decided to do the second session, I was wondering about, should I put the jelly on again or put up with a sore cock, but I was worried that if I did not bother my Mistress would be displeased, and I would be punished. So once again at 3-30pm kneeling there naked, and after applying the jelly to my cock, I starting stroking and saying "I am doing this to please Mistress Control". This time I knew what to expect and it was not such a shock, but still electrifying my cock and making me want to cum, but still I kept stroking and after about four minutes, some precum seeped out, and boy was I pleased, another session without cumming, and a little bit of my precum to lick up. My fantasies were now unthinkable, because I could think of nothing else but pleasing Mistress Control. Started my third session at 5-30 could not wait any longer, my cock was aching so much, so I stripped off which I always do when I am worshiping Mistress Control, just can not forget about her. My cock always swells when I think of her name and puts me in an embarrassing position, so I have to hide it the best possible way that I can. I started by putting the jelly on my cock and stroked saying, "I am doing this to please Mistress Control", which I am always pleased when I am making my Mistress happy. How soothing this jelly feels, it has stopped the soreness of my cock, but puts the excitement in. Kept stroking for about six minutes before I had to stop due to pleasing Mistress and not cumming. Again no precum, finding this a disappointment now, because with licking my fingers for so many times this week, it has become a ritual. Thank you Mistress for letting me use the KY Jelly for today, it has really cooled down my cock, but could not believe the sensations it gave me, but still another day over and still never cum, so it must have pleased you, and give you so much pleasure of stopping me cumming in such demanding circumstances. If I have pleased you today Mistress, please give another task tomorrow, which will please you again and torment me. After I send this journal in, I will have to start my assignment, which you have instructed me to do. I will write this to the best of my ability, and include everything you asked me to report, I am waiting so much to cum. I have punished myself so much to please you this week Mistress, that there must be no more room in my balls to hold all that cum, and I am looking so much forward to licking it all up, and humiliating myself again, so that I can show you that I am your devoted slave. Also, unsubscribe from all lists, so I can give all my attention to you Mistress Control. Thank you once again for putting me at your mercy and I am down on my knees in surrender to you. Mistress Control is going to be extra mad with me, because I have not got this journal through on time. Sorry Mistress Control but my Service Provider is down and I can not get onto the Internet, I have been trying since 7pm Friday night, and it is still not working at 8am Saturday morning. Have not slept very much worrying that you will be very displeased, when I cannot sleep, I usual get some comfort by stroking my cock and making myself cum, but I have had my three daily sessions, and I am not allowed to cum, so I could not get any comfort there. Just had to rub my cock on the mattress again to try to cool it down, so I am still being punished, even through the night. Mistress Control I will keep trying all day to get through, to see if there are any new instructions, if not I will carry on with my stroking sessions, but will not use any KY Jelly. Mistress Control I hope this pleases you, and you still let me cum on Sunday. |