October 25, 2000
Desire
I have known Her for a while now, She is not mine, but I long to be Hers. My heart skips a beat, my breathing increases, and my pulse quickens whenever She is near. Never have I felt so alive or complete until I met Her.
The first time She asked me to serve Her I thought I would faint; my hands were shaking, my voice was but a whisper, �yes Ma�am,� I did as She asked because I wanted to please Her, I longed to please Her. Never before had I been so aware of myself; my every movement, every curve and muscle, was being watched by Her. I did my best to please Her and knew that I had when I was rewarded with a smile and a gentle stroking of my hair. She asked me to sit at Her feet; my legs would not allow me to walk; so I crawled to Her chair and kneeled by Her side. Her eyes were warm and smiling when She lifted my chin so that I could look at Her. From that moment on She had my heart in Her hands.
I served Her many times, and in many ways, after that. Each one different than the one before. I would do anything that She asked, and surprised Her by doing things that She did not ask, but that I knew She would enjoy. W/we grew closer with each passing day and my unspoken desire to please Her grew as well. All I could think of was how much I want to be Owned by Her, She is the only One I desire to serve. Then one day She looked at me, a look that I had not seen before, the words that She spoke to me pierced my heart, soul, mind, and body.
�I wish to make you Mine, you have shown Me a true desire to serve and please that I have not seen in one for a long time. Do you wish to be Mine?� I had a lump in my throat and could not breathe for a few moments, when I realized this was not a dream I looked to Her with tears in my eyes; �yes Ma�am, I would be honoured to be Yours.� A smile crossed Her lips, Her eyes danced like fire; I could see that She was pleased with my answer. �Good, I am very pleased with how you have served Me, and I will do all that I can to help you grow in your submission and thus improving yourself.�
�Now, remove your clothes, fold them neatly, and come to Me.� I hurried to do as I was told, removing my dress, bra, and panties; I could feel Her eyes watching me as I undressed, my body quickly covered with goose bumps from the cool air and from knowing that She was watching; I folded my clothes as I undressed, not once raising my head to look at Her, and crossed the room to kneel at Her feet. The carpet was soft beneath my knees, the cool air chilled against my naked skin. Again I was aware of my being, my existence, and my desire to be Hers.
Smiling as She looked down to me, �you will always be naked unless I give you something to wear; you are to be exposed before Me for My pleasure at all times.�
She had me bend my head forward, She placed Her collar around my neck, and my heart skipped a beat when I heard the �click� of the lock. She lifted my chin, looked into my eyes and smiled.
�Stand� was all that She said, and I did as I was told. My back straight and my eyes lowered in deepest respect to Her. I could hear Her footsteps as She circled me, inspecting what was now Hers. She placed wrist and ankle cuffs on me that matched Her collar. She stood back, smiled and said, �very nice�this is what you will wear at all times. Do you understand?� �yes Mistress.� She nods, moves back to Her chair and sits down.
I stand there, in the center of the room, Her eyes looking at my exposed nakedness, all my imperfections for Her to see, and yet She loves me for who I am. I raise my eyes from the floor to look at Her, the smile no longer on Her lips. She raises an eyebrow, immediately I move to kneel at Her feet; my back straight, eyes lowered, and thighs parted painfully wide for Her pleasure; � How may I serve You Mistress?�
�Be still, I want to look at My beautiful slave.� �yes Mistress.� She smiles and whispers, �That�s My good girl.�