though not all of what this one writes makes sense.. the ones she has written comes from within.. she puts them here.. so that she may realize where she has been.. and to see where she is going.. and perhaps what she needs to get there.. please enjoy or at least understand her writings.. just don't try to judge them.. ~eyes lowered..~ thank You..



a girl rises from the warmth of her bed.. her body tingling with the sweet delight of her dreams.. moving to the kitchen, she puts water onto boil, to make some tea..

Once made, she opens the door and steps out onto the porch.. the darkness of the night broken only by the persistant glow of the moon as it pushes through the clouds..

The cool wind gently moves the length of her robe.. and cools the heat of her dream warmed body.. her eyes search the familiar area.. and settles upon the water.. watching as it gently flows with the tug of the tide out under the bridge.

Sighing.. she sits down upon the couch.. and pulls her feet up under her and allows herself time to remember.. sipping at her tea.. and closing her eyes.. she remembers the nights spent sitting here and talking.. trying to stay dry.

She remembers the nights the laughter rang out.. as she enjoyed the company of You.. the gentle teasing.. she remembers the night You wait for her on the porch.. and release what is Yours from under the work clothes.. and the fact she offers no resistance..

She remembers the times in Your bed.. listening to the rain as it beats down like the heart beating beside her.. rolling and placing a hand against Your chest.. feeling it rise and fall under her hand.. a smile passes her lips as she realizes how happy she is just to lay beside You.

So deep in her thoughts.. she does not feel the cold moving quickly to engulf her as did the flames of desire when she was with You.. she does not feel the wind as it picks up and moves the length of her hair.. she does not feel the rain as it starts to fall once more.. but she does feel the emptyness of her arms.. as she realizes You are no longer in them..

Sighing again.. she rises and moves to the door.. looking out once more.. to the water as it flows.. hurrying out to sea with a purpose.. a tear falls silently.. as she turns from her memories once more.. until she has another time to remember.

by dara



This one heard this song on the radio and it truly tells my feelings for Master..this one does not know who wrote it.. but it is sung by Sarah Evans.. truly beautiful

I can't imagine,
any greater fear,
then waking up
without you here.

and though the sun,
will still shine on
my whole world would all be gone.
but not for long

if i had to run,
if i had to crawl,
if i had to swim a 100 rivers,
just to climb a 1000 walls

always know that i would find a way to get to where you are..
there's no place that far

It wouldn't matter, why we're apart
lonely nights, two severed hearts,
nothing short of God above
could turn me away from Your love
i need you that much

if i had to run
if i had to crawl
if i had to swim a 100 river
just to climb a 1000 walls
always know that i would find a way to get to where you are
there's no place that far


Dreams??

closing my eyes, i see Your face
You haunt my dreams,
have i wished so hard for so long,
that i finally made you come true?
opening my eyes, i see Your face

feeling your arms around me..
is a dream i've dreamt for so long..
to finally feel them again makes my body ache instantly

please pinch me so that i will know
that this is not a dream, it is reality
moaning and rising to meet Your touch
closing my eyes, i see Your face..

by dara



Sitting here in the dark.. my face bathed in the bluish light from the screen going from room to room.. page to page.. site to site.. not really sure of what she looks for.. but knowing that it's out there somewhere..

hearing the music playing.. a hauntingly eerie sound.. no words.. just the music.. providing the perfect accompaniment to her melancholy emotions. Silently a tear rolls down her cheek.. though not quite sure where it came from.. hearing the uhh oh's knowing there are poeple out there that care for her.. but realizing though their feelings might be real.. there is no way for them to come to life..

Sitting here.. silently typing away.. telling others of her emotions.. though never making a sound.. hearing only the music.. a creak from her chair..a nd the pounding of her fingers on the keys.. Searching.. always searching.. never quite sure what she'll find.. nor what she looks for...
by dara




Sitting here before the screen..
Realizing that her soul is lost..
hearing the phone ring, waiting for Him to finish talking.. Seeing him walk towards her..
Saying she's come a day early.. feeling her heart break into two..
He's pulling her to him.. holding her close..
she clings to Him.. knowing this will be the last time she feels His arms..
Closing her eyes.. and feeling his lips touch her softly.. a single tear glides down her cheek..
Whispering I Love You.. He says I know..
her heart collapsing.. as He turns and walks away..
and the tears start to fall freely.. she turns comes into the house..

and Sits before the screen..
by dara



Tiptoeing down the stairs, and into the shadows..
looking for my soul, seeing him here with another..
my heart aches for what might have been..

feeling the sorrow that for so long has been dealt
wondering when it will be her chance for happiness,
when it will be her turn..

wanting so much to say how she feels,
to yell from the highest mountain,
yet so afraid of a lost friendship,

so instead she hides in the shadows..
Still the secret is safe..
by dara





She kept the secret..
She kept her bargin..
she still lost her soul..

She didn't scream from the highest mountian..
She didn't tell the secret..
yet she lost her friendship anyway..

so she sits alone in her sorrow..
afraid to speak for fear of silence..
afraid to cry for fear of pain..

she wonders how to go on..
wonders how to live without Him..
she hopes she will survive..

She kept the secret..she lost all
by dara




Sometimes in the Future

Far and away
In a world all alone
A girl quietly waits
To be taken home

She sits in silence
And looks up at the sky
Waiting, hoping
And wondering why

A hand reaches out
And pulls at her hair
She turns and she hopes
To serve one who cares

She kneels at his feet
She aches and she burns
And yet this one
Is not the one she yearns

He teaches, he molds
She learns and she grows
But deep in her heart
She already knows

There was someone else
Who knew her so well
Who knew all her secrets
And never would tell

She tries hard to please
The one she is with
But she wants to turn back
To the one with the gift

For each person alive
There is one who cares
To serve or to Master
But a life yet to share

The girl turns away
From the hand in her hair
To look towards one
Who has always been there

Found sometimes in the future
Sometimes in the past
Your one is out there
The one that will last

by ~katy~1999




~We may never learn
All there is to know
About Love...
But every day together
Will teach us
A little more about
Ourselves....
And the special kind
Of happiness
We can bring
To each other.
I'm glad I'm learning
About Love with You
by anonymous



Once in a lifetime A love comes along that reaches beyond any ever reached before.
Once in a lifetime A soul touches a soul and imparts joy forevermore.
Once in a lifetime Two lives merge and come together as one.
Once in a liftime Two shadows can emerge from the darkness to the sun.
Once in a lifetime You can finally reach up and touch the sky.
Once in a lifetime A true love can finally soar and fly.


The Invitation - by Oriah Mountain Dreamer (a Native American Elder)
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ectasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, be realistic, or to remember the limitations of being human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you're telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul. I want to know if you can be faithful and therefore be trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your life from God's presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes"!
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done for the children.
It doesn't interest me who you are, how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself, and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.






PLEASE.. DO NOT COPY THIS GRAPHIC, FOR IT WAS MADE FOR MY SISTER AND THIS ONE.. FOR WHAT WE HAVE BEEN THROUGH.. TIS ONLY TRUST THAT HAS BROUGHT US THROUGH AND CLOSER.. THANK YOU

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