Disclaimer: Beyblade isn’t mine.

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Bloodstained

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Roses are red

(His hair and blood too)

Violets are blue

(His eyes are too)

Honey is sweet

(His blood would be too)

But not as sweet as you

(That’s true)

 

 Did you ever feel like killing someone right there on the spot? I do quite often – every day more or less. Funny it doesn’t show. I actually ‘like’ it… Because when I’m not angry there’s nothing else left. Just an empty shell with nothing inside.

 

 I don’t remember all the feelings you talk so often about. Love, joy, sadness – it doesn’t exist. I’m not sure if I ever felt them. Maybe when I was a kid, but how should I know? I don’t know those feelings anymore, so how could I recognize them?

 

 Are they real? Maybe they’re just an illusion? If they could make me not feel them, than how come others still do? They’re probably a lie. A pathetic excuse for weaklings to keep being puny little creatures. Life isn’t for the weak – you have to strike first or someone else will hurt you.

 

 That’s another good reason not to love or care – the people you care for always leave you. There’s always betrayal. I’ve never seen a relationship without quarrels. But since quarrels are bad and love is good, shouldn’t they exclude each other? Doesn’t it mean that if you quarrel, you don’t love? And since all couples quarrel – love can’t exist.

 

 I wish, I could kill him. He’s so annoying, so self-confident… So foolish and vulnerable. He acts tough, he attracts others, but I’d do him a favour if killed him. He wouldn’t suffer and he eventually will. Wrinkles will appear on that pretty face of his. Somebody will try to hurt him – they already did, didn’t they?

 

 But… They said they were showing us how life is, that life is pain and suffering. So maybe they didn’t hurt us? It’s even more of a reason to kill him then – he hasn’t suffered yet, but he will in the future unless I kill him.

 

 It would be a good death – slow and painful, so we could both enjoy it. He’d be screaming – they always do. There’d be blood – beautiful and red, like his hair. He’s strong and I’d give him a fitting death. A quick and painless death is for the weak.

 

 But they won’t let me. They say I can’t kill anyone – that’s not what they trained me for. I should wait and let them decide to find a fitting victim. They won’t let me do it on my own.

 The last time they did wasn’t so bad. That Rei was strong… and he won. How, I still don’t understand, but he did. But if I were to choose, I’d start with that little blue-haired boy – Kinomiya Takao. He seems almost unbreakable – but there aren’t any unbreakable people. I’d find his limit, so he would beg for death. I wouldn’t use Falborg – after all death is not a game. I’d do it with my hands.

 

 Unfortunately, that would also break all his friends and I’d have to look for others. Maybe then they’d let me kill my pretty little redhead? I want to do it now. He’s so annoying. Knows nothing and continues to act as if he cared. Like he doesn’t know it’s all false. People don’t care for others, people don’t love – the only true feelings are hate and anger.

 

 Would he grovel? I hope not – I hope he would stay unbroken to the end. He’s the only person I don’t wish to see broken. I want to see him strong. But I want to kill him.

 

 Maybe I wouldn’t want to if I could keep him all for myself? Have his body, his soul – everything? But it’s impossible – he needs attention to much. And I could never give him the one he desires.  

 

 

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