falling

And that is when I knew
It had been sinking in all along
Then
Out of nowhere
He looked into my eyes
It pierced my very soul
Painfully
It was an invasion I never asked for
One I did not want, not could I fight
If only I could have closed my eyes
But at that moment
Kicking and screaming on the inside
Tears clouding my vision
I knew I could never go back
And that is when I knew
I would have to feel again
Allow him into my life
Because I was no longer falling
I had fallen

Felicia Diane Larson