8 de enero del 2001
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Recap 2000:
I was so obsessively in love I made myself sick.
I was so determined to be someone I wasn't I made myself sick.
I became so sick I wanted to die.
I didn't really want to die so I asked for help.
The help came in various forms including therapy, friendship and writing.
During the healing I found the real me.
The real me was hiding behind a wall of obedience, conformity and fear.
Fear of not being good enough to be loved by the people that I care about the most.
I overcame that fear when I learned I'm not a bad person.
I have a heart. I feel. I hurt. I love. I care.
My opinion matters.
I know what I want.
I know what I don't want.
I'm willing to lose certain things to get what I want.
I know what I believe.
I have faith.
I learned that being true to myself meant facing the people who wanted me to be someone else head on.
I did it.
I survived.
As of 01/08/01 I'm officially not sick anymore.
I look back on 2000 and say it was a year of self-realization, knowledge, and making friends.
I met my friend Betty when she came to visit me from California.
We've become closer than sisters, if that's possible.
She inspired me to become me. (Love you!)
I traveled to New York!
I met three of my long-time online friends, Ralph, Vivian, Margaret.
They're part of my familia and I love them.
I made new friends at work, one of whom I hang out with regularly.
I consider him a brother now. He's cool like that.
I took/am taking web design classes.
I am loving them!
I've made a couple of web pages for local Chicago bands and one for a writer from the knowledge I've acquired.
I met Edward James Olmos.
Betty and I continued talks of our documentary.
I met a guy who writes stories. Cool stories. We've become great friends.
I inhaled.
I also exhaled.
I met people who have the same ideas and dreams as I do.
I had the best *** I've had in my life.
Figure it out.
I only went to McDonald's twice during the whole year.
2000 was definitely the strangest ride of my life.
