Gabriel Chapter Twenty-Five En route to Helena September 25, 2001 2:18 p.m. He left her sleeping, the pregnancy demanding an afternoon nap, she'd explained. All morning long, he'd itched to see Spencer one last time, to warn the old man not to pull a fast one. Despite Spencer's assurances and Kurtzweil's faith in his motives, Gabriel couldn't rest easy. Julia had been a pawn in the Project's games too long for trust in anyone to take hold. They'd watched the snow-covered plateaus of Montana give way to rolling hills as the train lumbered ever closer to their destination. Julia spoke of the future, drawing from him the admission that their days ahead would most likely be spent in Canada with the Colonel and his friends. She'd smiled at that and her cheeks had bloomed with color as she'd remarked, "This may sound crazy... but I think the Colonel has a little thing for me." Rolling his eyes, he'd refrained from saying that Frohike worshiped the ground she walked on, instead remarking playfully, "You always had a thing for military men and he knows it." One day, she'd be able to embrace the memory of her father without reservation. Just another reason she needed to be Scully; their child deserved the untainted ancestry she could provide. With a pucker of her lips, her brow raised as she hinted around. "Oh really? Were you ever in the military?" Chuckling, he replied, "Does being an Indian Guide count?" Without missing a beat she snapped back, "Did you ever wear a loincloth?" Shifting beside her on the couch, he answered her with a tentative, "Yes," his mind filled with the image of himself clad in that awful fringed vest, feathers sticking up from his Brylcreemed hair. "Then I'd say it definitely counts." Dropping his chin, he gave her a sidelong glance. "I was eight." "Hmm... well, one of these days we'll have to test my theory." Dread filled his chest as he slowly asked, "What theory?" "That besides being attracted to military men, I'm also turned on by men in loincloths. Something tells me there's a correlation. After all, a uniform is a uniform." She dissolved into laughter at his groan. It had been a blissful, carefree morning, harkening him back to days and nights spent discussing everything from baseball to the nuances of subatomic particles. Cramped quarters, eating day-old doughnuts and drinking stale coffee as they sat in a Bureau sedan, or in the dive across the street from the center of their latest case. Taking care not to let her delve too deep into their past, he let her explore, only giving her a cautionary glance when she tiptoed into a potential minefield. They spoke of light, airy things... how she never let herself laugh at his lame jokes, though he knew all along she wanted to. How her apartment was her haven, filled with scents and overstuffed furniture; how he considered it more of a home than his own sparse living quarters. Not fully explaining what they did before, he told her they traveled quite a bit on business. Government work, he said with a downplaying grimace, as if they lived with boredom every minute of the day. At that, she'd not pursued it any further, buying into the old 'deadhead grunt' scenario with ease, though her eyes had told him she knew he wasn't being completely truthful. He knew she'd get around to digging more eventually - she wasn't one to let an issue slide, not even as Julia. It hadn't taken him long to find that out, as he recalled the first day in the cabin. Time had flown that morning; before long they'd found themselves eyeing each other over a light lunch of chicken soup and crackers. All that was safe to say had been said, at least in his mind. Seeing her drooping eyelids and suppressed yawn, he'd made her climb into bed, gently extricating himself from her efforts to entice him into the soft cocoon. With a promise to linger while she slept, he gave her a kiss and watched her breathing become deep as she gave in to her fatigue. Now, as he walked the corridor to Spencer's room, he noticed the snow outside had stopped, though the day was still dismal, with no hope of clearing just yet. The sight of Jesse blocking the corridor gave him pause momentarily, but he forged ahead, resolution steeling his jaw. "I need to speak to him." Jesse crossed his arms. "He's not in there." Gabriel felt anger flood him. "Like hell he isn't." Jesse grabbed his arm, preventing him from barreling through the door. "He's in the boy's room, Gabe," he said softly. "The kid took a turn for the worse last night." He saw the truth in Jesse's eyes, but felt nothing other than slight sympathy. The days had long gone where he let the innocent alter his goals. Visions of the Lucy Householders, the Marty Glens, the Richie Lupones... he squashed them in an instant, knowing Matthew had the power to sway him. To sway *her* as well. All that mattered was her safety. Turning from Jesse's solemn stare and stifled curse, he made his way back to Matthew's room. Shrugging off Jesse's grip he entered the shadowy, hot quarters, immediately assaulted by the same smell of sickness he'd sensed last night out in the corridor. The room was lit only by a lamp beside the bed, and Spencer sat by it, his wrinkled hand clasping the boy's limp fingers. A shadow appeared at Gabriel's side and he stiffened at the low warning. "Raise your voice even a hair and you die right here. I don't care if we have to sedate her the rest of the way, you understand?" Gabriel shifted slowly, lifting his gaze to Krycek. His long-time adversary stood firm, the shadows under his bloodshot eyes speaking of hours, possibly even days since he last slept. But other than his haggard face, there was nothing about him that betrayed a lack of alertness. The hand that held the gun was steady, his jaw clenching as he bored Gabriel with his strong, daring gaze. Over the years, he'd seen Krycek present him with many faces, depending on which side of the fence he stood at that particular moment in time. Intimidation courtesy of a handgun, calm deception with purred, cool lies. Hell, he'd even seen squirming fear quite a few times when Krycek was caught straddling that same fence, with nowhere to turn but to his old friends in the FBI. But this - this quiet, unflinching desperation - this was different. Yes, he was armed. And from his stance, definitely ready to blow a hole in Gabriel's chest in a second, despite their company. It wasn't the threat that surprised Gabriel, it was the motive behind it. Concern. Gabriel had missed it when he first confronted Krycek last night. But then again, Krycek's face hadn't been hollowed and haunted by lack of rest as it was now. Try as he might with his icy voice, his eyes gave him away. For an instant, the dark pupils darted to the bed as if to check on the grandfather and grandson, then they slammed back to Gabriel as he repeated, "Do you understand?" With a nod, Gabriel answered, "How's Matthew?", making a silent promise to himself to get to the bottom of the unspoken undercurrents in the room. Then again, maybe he wouldn't. Mentally, he shook off his curiosity, remembering the purpose for this trip - and his own personal goal of getting her out of the web of deceit once and for all. "Leave us, Alex." Spencer didn't even turn around, didn't hesitate in his vigil by the bed. If possible, he looked older this morning than he did last night. Hunched over the boy like an ancient stone statue, the only sign of life the slow arch of his back as he drew in breath. Krycek was just as stunned as Gabriel, maybe even more so, as he stepped forward. "I don't think -" Spencer cut him off with a brusque, "Do as I say, boy. Go get some rest. You're no good to me if you can't see straight." Stiffening, Krycek pulled up short, pocketing the gun with a short sigh. As he turned, he gave Gabriel one last glance, his eyes narrowing with silent threat. Hands in pockets, Gabriel gave him a defiant stare in return, though he took a step back in an effort to show he wasn't after a confrontation. Not yet, anyway. That depended upon Spencer's believability in the next few minutes. After Krycek left the room, Gabriel let things quiet down for a few moments. The only sound besides the roll of the wheels beneath them was the rhythmic beep of Matthew's heart monitor. The kid was either asleep or unconscious; Gabriel figured it was the latter. He laid still as death in the bed, his face pale and almost yellowish with ill humor. A twinge of sympathy for the boy rose in Gabriel and he asked again, "How is he?" Though he didn't face Spencer fully, he could feel the man's lips purse with annoyance. "I don't see how you could possibly care, but he's not doing well. Not well at all." Old, familiar guilt clouded Gabriel's face. The hard edge he'd honed over the last year had devoured any semblance of compassion left in him and he didn't like it at all. It seemed as though Mulder had truly died when he melted into the Oregon forest and a new, selfish man was born. Though still wary, he decided to let a smattering of concern surface, if for nothing more than to pander to the old man's temporary hold over them. "Julia's worried about him," he said, which was true. She'd wanted to visit Matthew, but Kurtzweil deemed it unwise, given the boy's compromised immune system. Gabriel had agreed earlier this morning, telling her he'd check on the boy. He neglected to mention he had another agenda; she didn't need to know everything. Spencer finally turned, releasing Matthew's hand to raise disgusted eyes to Gabriel. "And you are obviously not. It's not the first time you've used a child for personal gain and it probably won't be the last, will it?" "What the hell are you talking about?" "Gibson Praise. Ring a bell, Mulder?" Gabriel felt himself pale just a bit but he stood firm. "I wasn't the one who sliced his head open like a watermelon." "No, but you knew what he could do. How he could communicate with them, just as we - just as my former associates did. Though no longer a part of their evil agenda, I was kept informed." "By Krycek." Of course, it made sense. If Spencer's tale was to be believed. He still didn't trust the man not to lie to him. Spencer nodded slowly. "Alex told me how Agent Scully had a soft spot for the boy. And how you wanted nothing from him but your proof. So spare me your feigned concern - it's insulting." He let the words hang in the air a moment then added with a sigh, "What do you want, Mr. Mulder? I know you're not here to check on my grandson." True. And, as much as he longed to deny his single-minded treatment of Gibson, he knew he couldn't. If not for Scully's intervention at the motel, he would have dragged the boy back to the nuclear facility with him. But it ended badly, anyway. It was no use rehashing the past. He took a step forward, face hardening. "We have unfinished business." "What? Afraid I'll hand Julia over and not look back?" "Forgive me if I still don't quite believe you'll let us go." "This from a man who once believed in everything but God." Spencer's face sagged. "There is a God, Mr. Mulder, believe me. He's taking great pleasure in making me pay for the sins of my past." Impatience flared, dispelling Gabriel's lingering sympathy. "I don't think God cares enough about you to make you suffer." A philosophical discussion wasn't something he was prepared to enter into, especially with a man he held just as responsible for the world's demise as his father. "It's beside the point. You're just like the others... just like my father. Just like Krycek. God gave up on you long ago." "You're right. I am just like your father. In more ways than one." Narrowed eyes stabbed at Gabriel with swift surety. Spencer's soft words grabbed him in a fearful grip. "I knew it," he breathed, slowly approaching the bed. "You don't mean to give me Julia." "You'll get your Julia, Gabriel. As soon as we get what we want." "We?" It was the first time Spencer had spoken in the collective, and it set off instant alarms. "What do you mean - *we*?" "I told you I was like your father, didn't I? In many ways." He stood, teetering on his cane as he added, "You take great pleasure in questioning the motives of everyone you deal with, Mulder. But you never get past your hatred long enough to see that we're all human. Me, Matthew... Alex. Just like you." The emphasis on the last statement was deliberate. What the hell did Krycek have to do with any of this? It was a question he'd asked Julia long ago, and she had no answers either. Yet he kept turning up like a bad penny. Insinuating himself into their lives, helping one second, creating havoc the next. Always disappearing and surfacing with convenient ease. But why? The Consortium had been a tight-knit group - a family, almost. Men who prided themselves on their unity. Men who were willing to protect Nazis to ensure their children survived the coming holocaust. A runt like Alex Krycek had no place in the fold... or did he? "Think, Mulder." Spencer cut into his confused thoughts. "Why would Alex go to the lengths he's gone to help me? Money? What use is money these days?" Sudden clarity chased away the clouds of confusion. "Julia told me back in the bunker that Krycek said he wanted to find himself. And he has... he's yours. But you told me Matthew was your only living relative." "Alex prefers to keep his distance from me." Spencer dropped his chin and Gabriel marveled at the small display of regret. "We share blood, but not much else." "Like me and my father." Mouth falling open with surprise, he added, ""Born of the Project, just as I was." Nodding, Spencer sighed. "In his case, he was not raised in the safe confines of stoic New England, protected from that which created him. No - Alex is the result of a joint Russian- American effort to produce a child of superior ability. Much like yourself." Gabriel snorted, picturing a young Alex Krycek pampered by this man. Taught to sip tea while he practiced kill shots. "What went wrong?" he asked, his snide implication making the old man bristle. "What went wrong - as you so nastily put it - is that he was never mine. Bartered away by your father in a futile effort to appease a hostile government. Raised by Russian parents who fled their country when they realized they couldn't protect him." Anger flushed Spencer's cheeks. "I had no idea where he was until your father produced him for indoctrination into the Project. Even then, I didn't know *who* he was. It wasn't until I ran into Kurtzweil again that we put the pieces together. Sadly, it was too late for Alex." Disbelief edged Gabriel's, "Yeah, right. Raised by you he would have been a Nobel Prize winner." Spencer's jaw tightened, but he kept his fury to a simmer. "And you're the Messiah, is that it?" Gabriel's snide grin faded. He always thought himself better than Krycek, better than the men who played with the world like tinker toys. Before, when his existence revolved around finding the truth. Now, with millions dead and no redemption in sight other than her love and trust, he wondered if he'd ever feel clean. Spencer was right. He wasn't without blame. Nor would he ever be. "No one is who they were... *Gabriel*. They will never be so again." Spencer turned, leaning on his cane as he looked sadly at his grandson. "The innocent pay for our transgressions. And we atone in any way we can. Alex knows this. Like me, like you... he's trying." Silence settled over them as Gabriel took the words in. Could it be they really were tired of the machinations and manipulations? Possibly, though Spencer had admitted to keeping him away from Julia until they had no choice but to bring him close. That still rankled; it smacked of conspiracy, despite Spencer's golden words of remorse and restitution. "Look, this little family reunion means nothing to me," he stated, searching out Spencer's gaze with flinty eyes. "I'm here to tell you not to cross me. Once this is over, Julia leaves with me, understand?" "I have no desire to *cross* you, Mulder. Though you're really in no position to make demands, you realize." "I think you underestimate my resources." A bluff, to be sure. But delivered with a low growl that made Spencer stiffen; Gabriel saw the memory of his attack on the old man last night bloom in his eyes. He moved in, one final demand issued in a deadly voice. "I want to be there when the trade goes down." "No, you can't -" "I can. Canyon Ferry Dam. One way or another, I'm going to be there." Spencer wilted. "Stupid Jesse." Gabriel ignored the angry words. "I'm no fool - I know better than to show my face to my father. But don't stand in my way if - *when* - things sour. Don't ask me to stand by and do nothing." "Fair enough." His host straightened with a warning of his own. "All I want is Matthew's cure. You screw that up, Mulder, and you'll not walk away with Julia. You won't walk away at all." He had no doubt they both were willing to kill to get what they wanted. Two warriors needing the one thing that made their lives worthwhile, they would fight to the bitter end. Nodding, he turned for the door. "Then we understand each other." Reaching for the door knob, he gave Spencer a parting shot. "I'd like to say it's been a pleasure doing business with you. But my good manners will extend only so far. My father taught me well." ******* Near Helena, Montana September 25, 2001 5:24 p.m. "I get off before we get to the depot." He shrugged into the coat Kurtzweil had given him earlier in the afternoon; he could pass for one of Spencer's guards now, but he didn't want to take the chance one of his father's spies would recognize him at the Helena station. And he knew damn well the spies would be out in force. "How? By jumping off?" Julia asked, with incredulous eyes. "How do you think I got on the train?" At her sudden white-faced surprise, he chuckled, "I'd have given myself a ten, but the belly-flop kind of ruined my graceful form." She closed her mouth with a gulp. "Jesus, Gabriel," she whispered, moving to the window. Wrong time to be flippant, he realized. "I have to meet the Colonel, Julia. Make a few arrangements for our eventual departure. And you know I can't take the chance one of the company guards will spot me." The train was slowing with every second that passed. Though it had long since stopped snowing, the overcast skies hastened nightfall and the scenery outside the windows before them faded fast. Julia stood with crossed arms, her face pinched with anxiety as she watched them crawl ever closer to Helena. She wasn't pleased that he was leaving her on the train; she knew he'd been discovered by Spencer, and didn't understand why they couldn't just leave together once they reached their destination. But she still believed he was a wanted man, not knowing Spencer *was* the company. It was best that she continue thinking him in danger; it made his early exit from the train imperative without any further explanation. "Take me with you. I can walk, you know. I'm fully rested and ready." She'd slept almost four hours, waking with a start a half-hour ago, her frantic gaze settling down when she spied him on the couch. Noticing the time, she'd immediately gotten up and dressed, mild censure in her voice as she chastised him for not giving her more time to prepare. God, how he'd hated to tell her she wasn't coming with him. Not yet, anyway. Placing his hands on her shoulders, he felt the tense ridges of fragile bone beneath and sighed, softly kneading her anger away. Her fragrant hair beckoned and he dropped a kiss into its silky mass, murmuring, "I won't be long, I promise. I'll come back for you." The lie of omission pained him and he squeezed his eyes shut, railing inwardly at the tantalizing picture her words created. It would be so easy to just step off the train, the two of them. Disappear into the wilderness and never look back. Then a month from now, maybe two, he'd watch her die in his arms. No. It had to be done this way, even if it meant steeling himself against her pleas. "You're not coming back, are you?" Soft, sad words that pierced him, forcing his arms to encircle her. She knew something was afoot, intuitively sensing his inner fear and anguish with the situation. He should have known she'd catch on just like she did this morning - her quick mind demanded answers. With a small shake of her he insisted, "I am." His hands spread over hers and together they cradled the child. "I came this far for you, Julia. No one is going to stop me from leaving with you." "Then why not take me with you now?" "I already told you -" "No, Gabriel." She moved from his embrace to stand before the next window, bringing her hand up to the glass. The meager lights of Helena shone in the near distance and she spread her fingers, resting her cheek against her outstretched arm. "You're not telling me everything. I know you said you couldn't, which I understand. But this separation... I don't like it. Something tells me we shouldn't be apart anymore." If what she was feeling was anything like the dread gnawing at his stomach, then he understood perfectly. There was *nothing* he liked about this plan of Spencer's. But there wasn't a God damned thing he could do about it. Except be there and hope for the best - while prepared for the worst. Stepping around her, he gently took her icy hand from the window and warmed it between his, giving her a small smile as he brought it to his lips. From under lowered lashes, he gave her what he hoped was a light-hearted, reassuring look. "Can't stand to do without my charm for even a little while, eh?" Julia didn't bite, instead pulling her hand away to flash him an angry look, hands on hips. "I'm in no condition to hare off after you. Not this time. Especially not if you end up in Alaska again." Even with the slow hum of the train, Gabriel knew they could have heard a pin drop onto the carpet. Wide-eyed and slack-jawed, they stared at one another for a few seconds, until Julia began to sputter. "Gabriel - Alaska... I followed you to -" "So you did," he said slowly, feeling his smile light up the dim room. He took her flushed cheeks in his hands and bent down to give her a lingering kiss, directing the conversation onto an easier path. After several moments, he reluctantly left her mouth, drawing her close to breath into her neck, "We have followed one another to the ends of the earth, Julia. One last little detour won't make any difference, believe me." Her arms wrapped around him as she tucked her head under his chin. "It better not. This..." Spreading her fingers across his back she pulled him close, the human basketball between them pushing into his stomach with subtle emphasis. "This is the best reason to come back for me." His breath hitched as he replied huskily, "Only because it runs a close second to its mother." The blare of the train whistle startled them both. "No," she whispered, her embrace almost frantic. "Don't go just yet." Gabriel's chest ached with sorrow at the truth he couldn't yet tell her. She knew, could *feel* that though the train ride was at an end, the journey wasn't yet over. He never was good at hiding his feelings from her. Only his love had remained hidden for years, cloaked in the idealistic give and take of true friendship. And now, it seemed it was all he could show, though he felt like letting a wail of anguish loose as he slowly pulled himself from her grasping hands. Head lowered, he quickly kissed the fretful crease of her brow, then her damp cheek. "Don't cry," he murmured, his forehead meeting hers as he silently transmitted a plea for control. *His* as well as hers. "I can't stand to see you cry." Sniffling, she pulled herself together. "I'm not crying," she said, her voice a wavering thing that touched his lips. "I'm smiling, see?" But her lips refused to cooperate, and she bit down on her lower lip as she turned back to the window, wiping at her face. "Go on. I know you're anxious to meet with the Colonel." And she knew as well as he did that it was best he didn't exit the train with the others in her party. Though she believed it was because he was still wanted by the company. He didn't dare tell her it was because it was very likely his father had spies at the depot. One last time, he moved closer, his hands hovering above her shoulders with the need to touch her. But he resisted, knowing it would make his leaving almost impossible should he upset her again. "I'll come back for you, Julia." She didn't say a word, just stood straight as she gazed at the snow-lined trees beyond the window. Without another word, he turned up the collar on the coat Kurtzweil had produced for him earlier in the afternoon, and quickly left her room. Thinking it best not to disturb the guard at the end of the train, he walked through the cars until he reached the junction of her car and Matthew's. The biting wind hit him in the face and he leaned over, seeing the bustle of the depot several hundred yards ahead. The train had slowed considerably and with a deep breath, he jumped to the snowbank below, rolling to a stop. On his knees, he looked up just in time to see Julia's face float by. Smiling through her tears, her hands came up. Palm against the glass, her smile faded as she disappeared from his sight. Shrugging off his sudden emptiness, he stood and began to walk. Maybe a hundred yards of trudging in knee-deep drifts, and he came upon the depot, telling himself she'd be okay. She had to be; he wouldn't allow his disquiet to take hold. A clear head was his best ally at the moment, and he shoved the vision of her worried face into a corner of his brain, fully settling into stealth mode as he crept up. He watched the train pull in the station from a shadowed outside corner of the building. The platform was built much like the one in Denver; the company had wasted no time rebuilding the necessary facilities. Many of the wooden structures in the cities had been looted and eventually torn down by the survivors, mostly for firewood during the last harsh winter after colonization. But the stations between company sites had sprung up almost immediately out of the rubble last spring; even under the snowdrifts he could smell fresh-cut pine. And standing on that pine were maybe a dozen men. Milling about, some obviously station workers, their hand signals bringing the train to a slow stop. Others walking about in rags, their haunted, hollow cheeks speaking of near starvation. Still others, dressed warmly in work gear, puffing on cigarettes as they laughed with each other. It was those men who grabbed Gabriel's attention. He'd bet his last dollar one or two of them worked for his father. As soon as the train came to a halt, he saw Krycek and Jesse step down from the club car, their eyes shifting about the platform quickly. Gabriel heard the muffled thud of a door slamming, and noticed the huge truck at the far end, flanked by two dark SUV's. A man approached Krycek, signaling to the vehicles. As he greeted Krycek, a stream of company guards surrounded the train on both sides, their guns poised and ready. He couldn't hear what was being said, but he breathed a sigh of relief when Krycek and Jesse took the captain aboard with them. It looked like Spencer was not taking any chances. He knew the best place to wait until the exchange was the train. It was secure and a vehicle virtually unstoppable by anything but a derailment. And Gabriel knew his father wanted Julia badly enough not to storm the depot and risk harming her baby. A few hours more and they'd be free. All he had to do was find Frohike... "Don't move." Gabriel froze at the feel of the gun in his back; he knew that voice, but it had been so long he thought he was imagining it. "Now, if you're who I think you are, you'll be able to tell me something I'm itching to know." A grin accompanied Gabriel's, "And what's that?" "That red little mouth - tell me it's good for something else besides arguing." In an instant, Gabriel whirled, knocking the gun away as his fist connected with what felt like Mount Rushmore. Wincing at his sore knuckles, he eyed the man sprawled on his back in the snow, his fury melting as he caught sight of the lopsided smile cupped in nursing fingers. A frosty chuckle accompanied the man's, "I knew it was you, Mulder." "You perverted son-of-a-bitch." Gabriel held out one hand to help the laughing man to his feet. "You're one man I never would have pegged as having a dirty mind. Hanging around Frohike a bit too much, eh?" His erstwhile attacker took the offered assistance, reaching for his gun as he stood, shaking the snow from his jacket. "Please," he drawled. "All those years... don't tell me you never wondered the same thing." Falling into step beside his greeting committee of one, Gabriel replied, "Guilty. What surprises me is that *you* were thinking the same thing." "What surprises me is that *you* never took the time to find out... until recently, from what I've been told." Snorting, the hulking, bundled-up man directed him to an alley across the street. "I always thought you were brilliant, Mulder. Now I realize just how fucking stupid you really were." Yeah, Gabriel thought. I was stupid then and I'm crazy now. He flashed a smile, happy to have this man by his side. He could use all the help he could get. "Nice to see you too, Walter." End Chapter Twenty-Five