An Unchanged Soul Chapter Two Disclaimer, etc. in Headers At last, he was stable. Doctor Belden had him on fluids and between her and the orderlies, they'd cleaned him up and put a gown on him. Emma had averted her eyes several times, sure she shouldn't be seeing what this man had in the way of... God, she couldn't even think it! How was it she could look any man up and down naked as the day he was born, but this man's looks unnerved her? It was like looking at her own brother, he was so close kin. By marriage, yes, but kin still the same. He was sleeping comfortably now, thanks to the sedative the doctor administered after they'd ascertained his injuries were minor. Minor? Almost nonexistent, Emma thought with a chuckle, as she closed the door on him to walk back to the desk. After being chased into a brick wall by a policeman, then doing the mamba with a car windshield, he was unscathed. Not even a bruise, though she suspected those would appear by the next day. He was a little dehydrated and hypothermic, but that was easily taken care of by their prompt care. The small smile of relief at the patient's good fortune faded, as she realized she had some bad news to depart. Not horrible, thank goodness, but troubling just the same. He shouldn't have been anywhere near the hospital at this time of night. Of course, in the last few months, she'd heard vague ramblings among her brothers about his new assignment for the government. Covert, spy-type things that they obviously envied even while they approached him with big smiles and easy handshakes. But they weren't easy around him, knowing his past through family rumors, some of which weren't very kind. Her father stated that anyone could think as they liked, despite how their new cousin-by-marriage played it close to the vest. He liked the man and made no bones of it. Emma stood firmly at her father's side on the issue, simply because she agreed. He was intelligent and kind; no matter what direction he chose to follow, he'd never slighted her cousin and never would. First and foremost, he loved his wife. Still, the phone call would be difficult. Emma knew the news would most likely upset all involved, one in particular. And her cousin had no business being upset these days. She had enough to worry about. Though he wasn't hurt all that badly, she still dreaded making the call. What to say? Just do it, she scolded herself. The policeman still hovered in the hallway, waiting for her patient to awaken so he could question him. No ID anywhere in the alley he'd shot from, and Emma wasn't about to offer even a hint of information to the officer. Despite his most unusual, *naked*, appearance, the man was a government agent of some sort. He could have been on assignment, something really secretive the police had no business knowing about. Emma's cousin needed to know first, the police be damned. She cracked open the room door and saw the man in blue bend over a flame at the end of the hall; his cigarette would keep him busy for a few moments, and she slipped off in the other direction, seeking the peace of the doctor's lounge to make the call. A drowsy voice answered on the fourth ring. "Hello?" "Dana?" "Yes?" A pause and then, more alert, she added, "Who is this?" "It's Emma. Dana, I'm sorry to wake you -" Emma heard shuffling noises in the background, sheets rustling with definite movement. "Emma? What's wrong?" Dana knew her so well. She'd always been one of Emma's favorite cousins; they'd practically grown up together and while similar in looks, they shared an even greater bond of love. Dana was her idol. Emma had stayed the course in her studies because she'd heard the stories of Dana's bravery and compassion for others. She could only hope to be half the person Dana was. It was the shadow of Dana's strength she drew on to find the words to continue. "Dana, I have something to tell you." The voice on the other end of the line became frantic. "Emma, is it Dad? Mom? Charlie? Tell me!" Dana knew that Emma worked the night shift at St. Joseph's, and had automatically assumed the news was bad. So much for emulating Dana's courage. Emma swallowed, taking a deep breath as she struggled with words. Suddenly, Dana's hitching breath was replaced by a stern, yet calm voice. "Emma, you're upsetting Dana. What is it?" Startled, Emma's fingers gripped the phone even tighter, sure she was hallucinating. "Fox?" "Yes, Emma. Take a deep breath and tell me what's going on." This wasn't supposed to be. Of course, the person lying in that bed beyond those doors wasn't supposed to be who she thought he was, either. It was all so confusing, and she felt as if she was in way over her head. "Emma!" Mulder was perturbed at her silence, and she stammered through an explanation. "F-fox, we admitted a patient tonight." "I gathered that," he pressed, his voice terse. "Just spit it out, Emma." She could hear Dana's soft, worried queries behind him. "He - it's not one of the family, Fox," she hastened to assure him, though with his looks, he most certainly belonged to the Mulders somewhere along the line. "He looks like you. I thought it *was* you." There. She'd said it, foolish though it sounded. Sighing, she realized her bored mind must have conjured up a bit of excitement, knowing the next time she went into the ward, she was likely to find some differences and laugh at her mistake. "Sorry about this, Fox -" "Emma, are you sure?" His breathless question took her by surprise. "Fox, it *can't* be you, you know that. I think I'm just tired, that's all." "Emma, I'll be right there. Don't let him leave, okay?" "He couldn't if he wanted to - wait a minute! What did you say?" "I said I'm on my way." With that, he was gone. Emma stared at the receiver in her hand, confused at Mulder's abrupt decision. What was going on? The man in the ward was most probably a vagrant; a clean one, yes, but a bum just the same. Why would Mulder associate with such a person? One who looked a helluva lot like him, granted. And his frantic question lent suspicion that he might just have a connection to the John Doe down the hall. Either that, or those stories her brothers passed around, their suggestions that old Fox may have a screw loose... maybe they weren't so wrong, after all. ********** "Could it be him, Scully? I mean, really, the odds against are tremendous, but..." "Mulder, please slow down." Scully relaxed a bit at his deceleration, but worry at his high hopes still gnawed at her nerves. Emma's phone call had sparked flame to an interest of his that until recently had just been a slow smolder. Mulder was passionate about most things, she'd learned in the two years she'd known him. Though in the early days, he'd tamped down his eagerness to explore for fear of scaring her off, these days he had no such qualms with her. Due to her reticence to have his new theories publicly known - mainly for fear of his job - he never spoke them aloud except to her. And this night proved to upset their tidy world even further. "You know as well as I do, Mulder - it can't be him." "But they never found a body, Scully," he insisted, taking the turns a bit too fast for her liking. "And don't say it again - I've heard it all before." She bit her lip, gathering her coat closer to her body. Mulder, having been exposed to realities the majority of Americans never dreamed of, had good reason to suspect anything thrown in his path. But he also had the best reason to hope for miracles - a gaping hole in his life and the unceasing need for closure. Whether by logical or ridiculous means, he wanted answers. She hated to see him waste his energy on a false promise, but she hadn't the heart to deny his boundless capacity for hope by telling him the story once again. "I wasn't going to say a thing. Except that you missed the turn back there." With a small smile, she grabbed his free hand, watching him slow the car to a stop at the curb. "Take it easy, Mulder. He'll still be there when we get to the hospital." Squeezing her hand in return, he drew a deep breath, meeting her gaze in the confines of the shadowed car. "I'm an idiot, aren't I?" he murmured, shaking his head. "No, you're a just a man who believes in the impossible. That's one of the reasons I love you so much." "One of the reasons?" His attempt at a grin and his sidelong glance eased the tension of the ride as he ground the gearshift into reverse, ignoring the roll of her eyes. "Do I want to know the others?" "Oh, just your manly physique and killer smile." Beneath the fur of her rolled-up coat collar, she gave him an answering smile. "And your way with women." He snorted at the last, watching for traffic as he made the turn from the parking lane onto the right street. "Yeah, I have a way with women, all right. It involves the Chinese Mafia, a cabin in the mountains, and a knot on the head." His wink was self-deprecating. "Smooth." "Maybe not smooth, but original," she replied, pointing out the hospital parking lot with a gloved hand before turning to face him. "Worked for me, Loverboy." She waited for his answering quip, but found him staring at the Emergency Room doors, his face pale. His lips were chapped from the cold, and his fingers curled around the car keys in a white-knuckled grip. Without facing her, he whispered, "Scully, what if it -" "Isn't him?" she finished, taking up his dwindling words as her own. "Then we'll deal with it, Mulder." He sighed, turning to look at her with haunted eyes. "I meant... what if it is?" Leaning closer, she pressed a light kiss to his mouth, soothing away the lines deepening his cheeks. "Then we'll deal with that, too. We beat Chang, didn't we? Piece of cake." Mulder chuckled, opening his car door. He helped her out on his side, gently grasping her by the waist to steady her. Now grinning, he said, "Hate to remind you, Scully... but we never found *his* body, either." "Were you born this paranoid or is it an acquired taste?" she said softly, linking her arm in his. Gently steering her toward the double doors, he carefully sidestepped patches of snow and ice as he chuckled, "Me? Paranoid? Please." Glancing up at his profile, she saw his face harden as they got closer to the hospital, and knew he was bracing himself for disappointment. When they reached the brightly-lit overhang, she stilled his progress, making him look down at her with a sure touch of his chin. "Don't worry so," she murmured. "It'll be okay." Nodding, he seemed to relax, opening the door. She walked past him, praying for an easy resolution to the night. But an inner voice told her it wasn't in the cards; she felt as if their world was about to be turned upside down. ********** He really was beautiful, Emma thought as she sat by his bedside. And though he had Fox's strong jaw and distinctive cheekbones, his nose wasn't quite so unique and his lips were just a bit thinner. In a face that looked as if it were untainted by years of war and stress, it made a pretty picture, indeed. She wished for him to awaken, so she could have a good look at his eyes. They were what ultimately urged her to phone Dana - their liquid depths had seemed to be pulled straight from Fox's face. Even in the shadows of the street, she'd seen the uncanny similarity. What was keeping them? She fidgeted in her seat, wanting them to arrive and prove her wrong. Or prove her right - whatever. But they had to hurry; soon, he would wake up. Once deemed fit by Doctor Belden, he could leave, never to be seen again. Or worse, he could be pronounced unfit because of his nakedness on the street, and shipped to the psych ward with undue haste. No one in the Emergency Room relished the idea of dealing with a crazy man. She'd seen many bums committed before they knew what was happening; it was the county's way of dealing with most vagrants. A deep breath from the bed drew her attention from her clasped, tight hands. With eagerness, and a little bit of dread, she looked up, words of comfort already on her lips. "It's okay," she murmured, bringing a hand to his jerking arm. "You're all right." His eyes flew open and he gasped, tensing under her touch. Almost wild with fright, the glassy gaze whipped about the room, as if he expected all of it to collapse beneath him into dust. "The light!" he cried, squeezing his eyes shut. Emma quickly switched off the lamp, casting the room into shadows, the only light a ghostly cast of the moon over the bed from the window. "It's okay," she said again, sitting back beside him. A trickle of apprehension fluttered in her chest; Dr. Belden had performed the usual examination, and had said nothing about vision problems. But maybe this was the onset of something they hadn't anticipated. "I'll get the doctor." At last, he seemed to get his bearings, grabbing her hand. "No! I'm fine." He hesitated, cracking open his eyes to look up at her. "The light hurts my eyes, that's all. Where am I?" he croaked, squinting as he tried to get his bearings. "The hospital," Emma supplied softly, lowering herself back into the chair. He really was handsome, she thought. And now that he was awake and talking, she found herself trembling with reaction, which wasn't good at all. She had to stay professional. Slowly pulling her hand from his, she created a bit of distance, saying with what she hoped was the usual medical concern, "Do you remember how you got here?" His fingers curled into the sheet, becoming white-knuckled as he struggled to reply. After a few moments, he sighed with frustration. "No." "Easy," she crooned, tucking his hand under the blanket. "You had a little run-in with the pavement - but you're fine. You were very lucky." His tongue darted out to lick his lips, and Emma reached for the glass of water by the bedside, curling a hand behind his head to help him drink. "Thank you," he whispered, seeming to become more aware as he blinked away the cobwebs. As she pulled away, he suddenly took hold of her hand, his eyes widening. "Red?" She thanked the dimness for hiding her furious blush. His fascinated, hopeful gaze made her heart trip, and she gave him a small smile. "Yes, it's red," she replied, speaking of her hair. "Not the most flattering -" "You made it out okay." His heavy whisper tugged at her chest. "You're okay." "Of course I am." Something about his emotional face, his husky voice, told her he may still be a bit rattled. "Why wouldn't I be?" "The Nips... all around us. But if I'm in the hospital and you're here, too, then I'm not dead, am I?" "The Nips?" Good grief, he was talking out of his head. A flash of warning made her take a step back, but he held on, coming up to one elbow as he pressed forward with his explanation. "The Japanese. Where the hell are we, anyway? Manila?" He closed his eyes, lying back as a wave of dizziness hit him. "Where's my uniform? I have to get back to my unit." She eased her voice into a cajoling murmur. His war talk was distressing, but not all that unusual, given the knock he'd taken. "Sir, you're at St. Catherine's Hospital in Annapolis. You were hit by a car a couple of hours ago in front of this hospital. Can you tell me your name?" "Maryland?" Those eyes snapped open once again, nearly taking her breath away with their intensity. "What the hell am I doing in Maryland?" "Sir, if you'd just tell me your name, maybe I could find out -" "Sam?" Emma snatched her hand away at the hoarse interruption, glancing at the man silhouetted in the doorway with a relieved upturn of her lips. Before she could greet Mulder, the man in the bed came up on one elbow, his gaze pinpointed past her to Dana's husband. "Fox? What the hell am I doing -" "Sam!" With a broad smile, Mulder brushed past a stunned Emma to grab the man he called Sam into a hug. "Whoa, Fox. I'm okay, I'm okay." Cautiously, Sam's arms came up to return the enthusiastic hello, his face hidden in Mulder's coat. Emma caught sight of Dana's slight form in the door, and moved out of the room in response to her wordless beckoning. As Emma gave the reunion one last look, she whispered, "What is this?" to Dana, who pulled the door closed behind them with an equally shocked lift of her eyebrow. "Let's leave them alone for a while, okay?" Dana said, pulling off her gloves. "Anywhere we can sit and talk?" Emma took in Dana's fatigue in a glance and curled her arm through her cousin's. "Sure. The doctor's lounge has awful coffee, but maybe I can scrounge up some tea." "Tea would be wonderful, Emma. Lead the way." ********** "So you see Emma, your call took us quite by surprise." "I'll say," she muttered, still not sure if she could believe the fantastic tale she'd stumbled into. Dana being rescued by Mulder's brother, who took a bullet meant for her... then being presumed lost in Laguna Bay when the transport carrying him sank unexpectedly. It was spooky enough to be featured on "Lights Out". Sipping at her coffee, she met Dana's equally dumbfounded look, the questions pouring from her. "But if he was presumed dead, where has he been all this time? Why didn't he try to let anyone know where he was? Is this man even Mulder's brother? He could be an axe murderer for all we know." "You're asking me? Emma, I'm as much in the dark as you are. Hopefully Mulder will be able to find out what's going on." Dana sighed, leaning back in the lumpy couch, one hand sliding against the faded leather to disappear at her back. "You okay?" A small, tired smile curled her cousin's lips. "I'm fine. Just not used to midnight runs to the hospital. Good practice though, isn't it?" As she scanned Dana's face, Emma noticed the shadows of fatigue on her cheeks, along with the concerned dart of her eyes to and from the lounge door. She hated to make Dana worry so, especially in light of her advanced pregnancy. It hadn't been easy for her at all. A miscarriage in the early days of her marriage had almost devastated them both, as had the next she'd suffered a mere nine months into the union. On doctor's orders, they'd waited a while to try again. And even then, the risk remained that Dana wouldn't carry to term. Her slight stature, coupled with the physical trauma she'd suffered in the internment camp, had left her body an unwelcome vessel for a growing baby. Emma prayed every Sunday morning in mass for the child, as well as for Dana. She stood, taking Dana's cup of now cold tea. "Maybe Fox Junior here will go easy on his Mom and make his appearance on my normal shift." She normally worked three to eleven; it gave her time to see to her Dad's needs during the day, and enough sleep at night to still function during those hectic hours. "That way you can be asleep by midnight." "Fox Junior?" One slim eyebrow arched; Emma had spent many an hour in front of her bedroom mirror trying to imitate the gesture that was more like movie star than nurse. When she'd said as much to Dana one time in a longing sigh, Dana had laughed and said she was far from being Bette Davis or Joan Crawford. Emma thought she put those two to shame. "Mulder would divorce me, Emma." "I doubt that. He tells Dad all the time you're the best thing that ever happened to him." Dana scooted to the edge of the couch, giving Emma a wry grin. "Well, he wouldn't think so if I named his son Fox. Believe me." Emma helped her to stand. "So, you two picked out any names yet?" "Christina if it's a girl," Dana said softly, giving Emma a solemn glance. Mulder's parents had died in a tragic car accident earlier in the year; Emma nodded at the homage they'd decided upon, even if it was common knowledge Fox's parents were anything but loving toward their oldest son. "And William if it's a boy?" Emma prompted, thinking Mulder's father would have the same respect and remembrance. Dana's eyes filled with tears. "Sam. We were going to name him Sam." Oh, dear, Emma thought. She'd done it now. In Dana's face she could see hesitant happiness, with a good measure of concern. Mulder had embraced the man in the room down the hall with certainty, but Dana wasn't so sure. After all, she'd never met the man. Emma herself had been skeptical even in the face of Mulder's hearty acceptance. If 'Sam' turned out to be just an uncanny look-a-like, Mulder would be crushed. And in turn, Dana would bear the weight of his grief like it was her own. No way would she fail to share in his pain. "God, Dana. I didn't mean to make you cry. It's him, it has to be. Mulder wouldn't take to him like that unless -" "Mulder sometimes wants to believe too much, Emma." Dana took Emma's hastily produced handkerchief and sniffled into it. "God, I can't let him see me like this." "Why not? You're pregnant, for Pete's sake!" "He has enough to worry about besides having to hover over me like a nurse. He does that too damned much already." "Dana!" The Scully men weren't known for their tolerant attitudes toward female independence of any sort, and cursing was strictly forbidden. Emma had known that at the tender age of six, when she'd found herself with a mouth full of Lifebuoy after mimicking her father's "Hellfire and save the matches!" "Oh come on, Emma. You might fool Uncle Mike with that good little angel stuff, but it's me, remember? How many dirty words did we find in the dictionary at summer camp? Thirty-eight?" "Fifty-two. We counted even the ones that sounded dirty." Together, they began to chuckle, Emma leaning close to whisper conspiratorially, "Farkleberry." "Uvula," Dana supplied, just as covertly. "Sexton." "And your favorite, Dana - pussywillow." They dissolved into laughter, Dana hanging on to Emma's hand as she cradled her belly. It took several moments before either was sober enough to stand upright, their eyes twinkling with mirth and remembrance. Sniffling together now, they quieted slowly, Dana pulling back to say, "Great. Now I have to pee." "Peony?" Warning flashed in Dana's face, though her lips trembled with the need to suppress more laughter. "Don't start." "Sorry," Emma said, taking a deep breath. "Ladies restroom is the third door on the left down the hall. If Mulder comes out, I'll come get you, okay?" She watched Dana leave, her smile waning. Dana was strong, but inside she was soft as a kitten. The trick was to get past that tough outer shell; but once pierced, it released a flood of emotion. Emma knew she hated to show just how vulnerable she was. The only person besides Emma who had enjoyed the true measure of Dana's depth and sensitivity was Charlie. And now Mulder, she supposed. But Emma knew Dana needed a more feminine ear now and then, and she vowed to make more time to visit her cousin in the future. The shuffle of feet to her right brought her head around; Mulder met her inquisitive look with a wry shake of his head. "He says he wants to leave. He hates hospitals, you know." "Don't we all?" Emma said softly. "Dana's in the restroom. Let me tell her you're back." She paused on her way out, adding, "I don't think Doctor Belden will let him go just yet, Fox." She was practically bursting with curiosity, but good manners forbade poking into Mulder's family business. Not that it ever stopped *her* family from prying, but she vowed to show more respect for one's privacy than her father and brothers ever did. She nodded at the policeman still hovering at the end of the hall. "Besides, I don't know if the officer will let him go that easily." "Just leave that to me. I'll tell him it's a matter of national security." Mulder grinned, and she had no doubt he had the pull to make the accident disappear in the eyes of local law enforcement. "Emma?" She turned, arms crossed over her waist. Mulder always made her slightly nervous, as if he was always looking underneath her skin for what laid beneath. He did that to everyone, she knew. She'd recognized it from the moment she met him, so had her father. In his case, however, he gave as good as he got. Mike Scully was born with pure Irish grit flowing through his veins. Emma felt the same within herself at times, but realized the need for temperance. Still, it didn't mean she allowed others to get the better of her. Just meant she exercised her brain more than her brawn, what little she had of that. At her silence, Mulder continued. "I'd appreciate it if you keep this to yourself for a while. Sam doesn't know how he got here, and he's confused, to say the least." "I wouldn't tell anyone, Mulder. That's not my place." "Thanks." His sheepish grin relaxed her a bit. "Sorry if I implied the opposite." "That's okay. It's been quite an evening, hasn't it?" "Sure has," came the reply behind her. Mulder covered the distance between him and his wife in two steps. "Scully - it's him. It's Sam." Dana put a soothing hand on Mulder's arm. "Are you sure?" "As sure as I can be. He knows me, Scully. He knows Mom and - damn. How do I tell him about Mom and Dad?" "There's lots of time for that," she said, her look calm yet guarded. "We need to be sure, Mulder. Is there any way we can be sure?" Mulder faced Emma. "Did you take x-rays?" "A few. Mostly of the chest. He showed no symptoms of broken bones so we didn't -" "Take a few more. Sam broke his left collarbone when he was eight. Should show up on an x-ray." "Mulder." Dana's tone spoke of the need for more proof. To his credit, Mulder didn't argue. "I know, I know. I'll get his fingerprints from the Department of Defense. Might take a day or two more with the holiday, but that will settle this once and for all." "Okay." Dana started buttoning up her coat. "I guess it's no use asking if you're going home tonight?" "Umm..." He was suddenly at a loss, glancing from Sam's room to Dana with guilt. Still, it was obvious he didn't want Dana driving home alone. It was the perfect time to butt in. "Take Dana home, Fox. I'll make sure Sam doesn't go anywhere while you're gone, okay?" For a second, he let relief soften his face. Then he looked at Dana once more. "Scully, I don't want to leave you alone, but I can't let Sam -" "I understand," his wife broke in gently, laying a hand on his fidgeting arm. "Take me to Missy's. I can bunk there for as long as I have to, she won't mind." Dana had given up school a month ago, on doctor's orders. Since then, Mulder had practically driven her nuts with his constant hovering, never leaving her side except to work during the day. Emma knew the time would eventually come when he insisted she have a full-time babysitter. She couldn't wait to see the fireworks that would cause; Dana hadn't yet had enough of his smothering concern. But when she did, look out. "Go on," Emma said, already making her way to Sam's room. "It's so slow here tonight, I was about to fall asleep, anyway. Take your time. I can sit with him until you get back." Like that would be any hardship. Already, the man intrigued her to no end. A little voice told her this was just the beginning of an adventure of a lifetime. End Chapter Two