A Familiar Heart Chapter Two Outside Salt Lake City, Utah December 22, 1945 The snow was going to delay her arrival in Maryland, she just knew it. And her mother was likely to be furious, though not in any overt way. No, Christmas - if she made it there by midnight mass - was probably going to be a stilted affair, with her father's silent drinking punctuated by her mother's disapproving stares and sniffles of disappointment. That she was spending the holiday with them was usual, yes. But this trip was doubly necessary, when all she really felt like doing was letting the holidays pass without notice. New Year's nuptials demanded that she spend the week at her parents' house, with final preparations occupying most of her time. Thank goodness, she thought. Instead of avoiding personal differences, they could at least talk of the wedding. Scrambling around on details like guest lists and last-minute adjustments to music and clothing tended to leave little room for conversation. It wasn't like she'd never been able to enjoy her family's company, because she had. Before. In the time before she was reduced to eating rice mush and rats, before she chopped her own hair off because of head lice. Before she woke every night in the grip of a nightmare that ended with the sacrifice of an angel. Outside her window, she watched the pinkening, heavy clouds with wide eyes, blinking rapidly to dispel the sudden rush of tears. It would do no good to think of him - her savior. But it continued to dismay her to this day, almost a year later. She'd seen so much death in the three years she'd been imprisoned, first at Santo Tomas, then at Los Banos. Others had slipped away under her touch in the hospital; actually, given their horrid living conditions, most of them, she was certain, went on to a much better place. Why did his death make her feel as if the world had been pulled out from under her feet? Because it didn't have to be. If she'd only been more alert, more willing to believe that rescue was possible, then she'd have ceased her struggles and he would still be alive. She'd heard of only two deaths among the Allied troops and Filipino guerrillas that stormed the camp that day, and she knew he'd been one of them. MacArthur had praised the operation as one of the smoothest ever carried out by paratroopers and amphibious infantry - a model that would be studied by military students for decades to come. That they'd freed over two thousand internees with such minute losses was amazing. And if she'd hadn't been such a coward, such a timid, Japanese-speaking coward, he wouldn't have been one of the unlucky two. With a sigh, she touched the frost-bitten glass, wiping away the clouds from her mind and from the scenery. It was no use thinking of things she couldn't change. Pragmatic, like her father, she'd moved on from the war. Like him, she'd embraced the stateside Navy life upon her return from overseas. Life in the rigid confines of the military suited her. Her mother thought that the military was a means to an end; to find a husband, raise a family under the protection of the US government. Men like Bill Scully and his sons were allowed to make careers out of it, but it wasn't for women. But Dana had discovered in her time in Los Banos that there was more to living than waiting for the right man to come along. Medicine still held intrigue, and she'd taken a post at Oak Knoll Hospital in San Francisco, treating patients who were former POW's, like herself. She found that dealing with their traumatic recoveries helped ease her own anxieties about returning to normalcy. Only there a few months, it wasn't long before the doctors recognized her ability to spread the more efficient methods to dealing with the wounded learned firsthand in the internment camp. Using her vast experience in trauma and triage, she was tapped to teach others younger and more eager to learn. Not that she was that old, by any means. But at barely twenty-seven, she was considered an old maid by many of her peers. And the experiences she'd lived through had only added to her years. Still, she'd never had the time to walk through a different fire... the one called love. Fresh out of college, she'd joined up. A matter of months, and she was assigned to Corregidor in the Pacific. A matter of weeks, and she was captured along with most of her Nurse Corps Unit, living under the shadow of the Red Sun. Going home for this wedding brought home to her the emptiness she felt. She'd have to smile and tell everyone she was fine, when she wasn't. For the first time, she felt lost. Her life wasn't supposed to turn out this way, according to her mother. By now, she should have married - a military man, of course. A hero, like the one who'd shielded her body with his in Los Banos. And she was beginning to wonder if maybe her mother was right... there had to be more to life than seeking self-satisfaction in a job, albeit a very challenging one. A self-deprecating sigh trickled from her lips. She wasn't being fair to herself, or to the men who'd offered her companionship since returning to the States in June. Good-looking, capable men who were decorated and bumped up the ranks because of heroism... men who wanted nothing more than to settle down and raise a family. It wasn't fair of her to compare them to a dead man. She was being ridiculous; she'd seen him for what - maybe a minute or two? And suddenly,, he was the epitome of her dreams? The dry beriberi she was brought out of that camp with must have dulled her brain. She was healthy now, and it was time to put those dreams aside. Get through Charlie's wedding, then, when she got back to San Francisco, accept the first invitation to dinner she received from a man. Time to live again. The snow had gotten heavier, and she had to slow her car to a crawl, cursing herself for her inattention to the matter of travel until what amounted to the last minute. Commercial travel, she found out yesterday, was booked solid. Trains, planes, even buses were overloaded with soldiers making their way home for the holidays. So she requested a few extra days leave and set out in her car. At the time, it seemed a good idea - if she could survive what she'd been through, surely a little cross-country trip was a piece of cake? Even in the winter. They had to keep major roads open; she'd put on the snow chains before hitting Salt Lake, and had made good time, thanks to the snowplow she'd followed for a couple of hours. But now, with darkness rapidly approaching, she knew she'd have to call it quits for the night before long. According to her map, there was a town about ten miles ahead. Piedmont. She could make it. Or not. A sudden lurch made the Buick twist and turn; she fought for control, but it was no use. A loud *pop* and she skidded to a halt half off the road, her head whipping into the glass of her window with a crack. By the time she woke up, her head was against the steering wheel and the smell of blood filled her nostrils. Not to mention the gigantic headache that made her moan when she moved. Quickly, she did a quick assessment of her body, thankful she could still move her arms and legs. The scrape on her forehead was wicked, but she didn't think she'd done any real damage. After pressing her handkerchief to it for a minute or so, the bleeding stopped altogether. Great. She killed the motor and tried to see where she was, but the windows were caked with ice. It felt like she was on level ground, but she couldn't tell. She buttoned her coat and shoved open the door. One foot, then two, and she stood beside the car, making her way to the trunk, where she retrieved her flashlight. When she saw where she was, she stifled a curse. From where she stood, she could barely make out the road ahead and behind. The car, while not suffering major damage, had a flat tire. It sat at an angle, half in what looked like a ditch. But when she heard the sound of water just beyond, she knew that ditch was no ordinary ditch. She thanked her lucky stars she hadn't rolled into whatever stream laid in that dark void below. Shining the light on the damage, she saw it was just a small puncture, easily fixed. But the angle of the car made it impossible to attempt; jacking it up could very well send it down the ravine below. It would take a tow truck to pull it out to level ground. And it was damned cold. Shivering, she decided to set out immediately for the nearest town. Grabbing her purse, she started up the road, tugging on her knit cap and pulling her scarf close, stifling the urge to loosen it. The trek up was more difficult than she'd thought. Rocks laid in wait under the blanket of snow, and she hadn't gone more than a few feet when her right ankle gave out and she dropped like a stone, flat on her face. Sputtering, she grimaced at the sharp pain. It wasn't broken, but it was a bad sprain. Hopefully, the added stability of her calf-high boots would see her through her hike along the road. Maybe a vehicle would pass, and she could flag it down. The situation wasn't hopeless, but she felt like crying, anyway. No, that wouldn't do, she told herself. She would crawl if she had to. She'd survived far worse. After a few torturous minutes, she made it to the road. Not a car in sight. The realization threatened to send her into a pity party, but she killed the urge to whine. She wasn't her father's daughter for nothing. A Scully, through and through. She hummed "Anchors Aweigh" as she began to walk, her head pounding in time with the imagined music. Before long, her gloved hands were feeling the pinch of the seeping cold. Keep going, she ordered herself. Don't give up. But her slight trepidation began to grow into worry, then fear. Even though only a few miles separated her from warmth and safety, she knew that hypothermia was a real possibility. She had to get warm, and fast. Now, instead of keeping her flashlight trained on the road in front of her, she swept the beam into the trees on either side, hoping for some sign of a dwelling. Inhabited or not, it didn't matter. She had to get out of the cold for the night; tomorrow was soon enough to try to make it the rest of the way. A meager light pierced the darkness to her right. She stopped, wincing at the weight on her ankle. It was a cabin, set upon the top of a hill above the tree line. A slim line of smoke trickled from its chimney, and in the dusk, she could make out lights in the windows. Sitting as it was atop the hill, the snow hadn't totally obscured it from her vision. If it had been nestled in the trees, she certainly would have missed it altogether. There had to be some sort of access road; a few limping steps more, and she found a parting in the trees. The snow-covered gravel crunched under her boots and she knew she was on the right path. The road was relatively smooth, recently graded. Someone lived up there, and took great pains to keep the road clear. Of course, after a while, she began to wonder if she'd even make it *that* far. The cabin, which had looked so close from the main highway, was, in fact, several hundred yards up. What once looked accessible turned out to be isolated by design. She crossed a wooden bridge, pausing to look at the rush of water below, shuddering to think how close she came to an ice-cold bath a half-hour ago. Almost there, almost there. She was beginning to feel a bit woozy as she trudged to the front door. It took every bit of strength she had left to raise her hand and knock. The pounding of her fist sounded pitifully weak to her own ears, and she wondered if whoever was inside even heard her. "Hello!" Damn, even her voice had given up the ghost, croaking out the plea, "I need some help!" No answer. Was anyone at home? She spied the boxy hulk of a Jeep peeking out from around the corner of a cabin, and decided this person was being mighty unsociable. Again, she knocked, using the last of her strength to beat with both fists. "Help me!" she cried, then swayed as a rush of heat warmed her face. The tall form silhouetted in the light beyond didn't look too happy, quickly confirmed by his growling, "This is private property. Beat it." The rifle in his hand only punctuated his displeasure at her standing on his doorstep. But she had nowhere else to go. Swallowing, she tried to explain. "My - my car. I have a flat. At the end of your road. Can I -" "No." "P-please," she stuttered, her teeth shaking with cold. "I can - I can pay you." "I said no." The door began to swing closed and she put out a hand, feeling herself falling forward. Sure she was about to make a fool of herself by fainting, she was brought up short by a pair of strong arms. Her eyes closed at the feel of his warmth, and she heard him mutter, "Damned woman." Lifting her frosty lashes, she found his face inches from her own, his jaw clenched with anger. A sharp tingle of recognition shot through her and she gasped. The high cheekbones, the full mouth, the days old stubble... but most of all, the eyes. She'd never forgotten those eyes. She knew he was bound to think her an escaped mental patient, but she said it anyway, forcing a shivering smile. "How about those Yankees?" His eyebrows drew together; it was the last thing she saw before she gave in to her exhaustion. End Chapter Two