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*Please note* This page is written strictly for the purpose of poetry and works of art. The words expressed on this page come straight from the heart and although may mean jack shit to you, mean the world to me. Thank you.

And as I promised...Here are the works, some of them are older...so I will put dates on the ones that have been around a while:

One look at love and you will see, it weaves a web of mystery...
All raveled threads can end apart, for Hope has a place in the lovers' heart...
Whispering world, a sigh of sighs, the crest and flow of the ocean's tides...
One breath...One word...May end or start, A hope in a place of the lover's heart...
Look to love and you may dream, and if it should leave then give it wings...
But if such a love is meant to be, Hope is home...and the heart will be free...
Under the heavens we journey far, On the road of Life we're wanderers...
So let Love rise...So let Love depart...
Let my LOVE for You...forever give HOPE to my Heart.

***This work is dedicated to someone whom I hope loves me as much as I love her.***

Now I know that I have done the impossible...
I've showed you my true feelings and yet...
It seems that there is nothing left to work with...
But as someone wrote...True love never dies...
And I know...In my heart...that my love for you is true...pure.
All I want right now is to know that my undying love for you is not all in vain...
That even though we are not together as of right now...
That one day, hopefully, we can be back in each others arms...
And know...for sure...that we will ALWAYS be there...
Until that time comes...I sit here...waiting...and hoping...

I stared your way as you walked away...
Not quite knowing just how to say...
Say how I felt, how much by leaving I left unsaid...
And left these unspoken words in my head.
I wanted to kiss you, hold you near my heart...
To keep you near me...we'd never be apart.
But as I sat there, cold and alone...
I realized, for once, that I had to come home.
Home to my friends, my family, my school...
Although I know that not a damn part of it is cool.
I wanted to stay with you, together forever...
But as you walked away, my heart seemed to say 'never'.
I wanted off this ride home...I wanted to try...
But I knew I could not...I truly wanted to cry.
And so I came back, to a lot of stuff I dread...
With all these thoughts running rampant through my head.
I don't know...maybe coming home was a message sent from above...
All I know...is that I again, left behind the one I love.

I stared intently at the computer screen...
Not wanting to see what I've just seen...
I quickly typed in a response...trying to get a certain reply...
All I got back was "I wish that I had died."
My mind went blank then, as I sat there kind of null...
Thinking how I'd feel if she wasn't in my life...how it would be so sad and dull.
You see, this woman I love is nothing like the rest...
In my heart, mind, and soul...I know she is the best...
I love her more than you could ever know, and more than I could ever tell...
I tell you here, for her, if I needed to, I'd go through hell.
I love her so dear, I so miss her touch...
I only wish we were together right now...I miss you that much.
Lacey, you are so dear to me and I love you so...
Please my dear, my hunny, my one and only...please...don't go.

I know this isn't much of a way to say,
How much I care for you each and every day.
To see your eyes, your face, and your smile,
I would walk to be with you every single mile.
I miss your voice, your presence, your touch,
At times I can't sleep, I miss you that much.
Lacey, I love you more than words can express,
And it would make me so very happy to hear you say yes...
Will you spend eternity with me?

Now I know this is NOT one of my works...but due to many things that have been happening in the past week, I think this sums up everything I'm feeling.

"I cant remember anything
Cant tell if this is true or dream
Deep down inside I feel to scream
This terrible silence stops me

Now that the war is through with me
Im waking up, I cannot see
That theres not much left of me
Nothing is real but pain now

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God wake me

Back in the womb Its much too real
In pumps life that I must feel
But cant look forward to reveal
look to the time when I'll live

Fed through the tube that sticks in me
Just like a wartime novelty
Tied to machines that make me be
Cut this life off from me

Hold my breath as I wish for death
Oh please God wake me

Now the world is gone I'm just one
Oh God, Help me hold my breath as I wish for death.
Oh please God, Help me

Darkness Imprisoning me
All that I see
Absolute horror
I cannot live
I cannot die
Trapped in myself
Body my holding cell

Landmine Has taken my sight
Taken my speech
Taken my hearing
Taken my arms
Taken my legs
Taken my Soul
Left me with life in Hell."
-Metallica, One

There's so much I can't say when I look into your eyes.
I'm worried you'll reject me and hurt my foolish pride.
Each day this love grows stronger,
But I could never let you know.
There's so much behind my smile that I could never show.
I'd hold you for a lifetime, if you would let me in.
I'd love you like no other, but you don't understand.
So I'll dream of us together, of just how it could be
And all that you are,
Will remain a silent part of me.

*Now I know this is not really poetry, but this is something I sat down and wrote...I think it holds some relavence to what is going through my head at this time. **NOTE** Most of this is actual fact...only the ending and some other breaks are fictional, although it was contemplated.

The Final Teardrop

There he sat, alone at last....a lone tear building in his eye...a tear he vowed to himself and all those who ever knew him, yet no longer associated with him, would never fall complete. He thought to himself, very quiet for this once very outspoken person, not even the normal Metallica or Insane Clown Posse cheered him up...so he turned it all off. He flipped on his computer and saw a picture that made the tear grow larger, yet he would not allow it's fall from his eye. "When this tear falls," he thought out loud, "then it will be all over." He quickly changed his background away from the picture which had caused this pain in his body, yet before had caused such immese pleasure and happiness to him.

He remembered back to when he first saw her, with an older boyfriend at the time. She still looked as gorgeous as ever, yet he knew better not to tread where he was not wanted. In school, he and her became good friends, quickly becoming the best of friends, being able to share some rather intimant moments together...neather knowing that this budding friendship would become one for the better.Then one day, while out on a walk through a small park, they were joking around and being playful, being able to be themselves away from the hastles of school and work, he knocked her to the ground, and for the first time, was able to look into her beautiful blue eyes. Had he have known that she wanted him to do so, he would have kissed her right there...but he held back, not knowing...unsure. Instead, he gently picked her off the ground, cleaned her off and wrapped his arms around her in a warm embrace. They sat there, in that park, for what seemed like only a short amount of time, yet in his heart felt like an eternal bliss. They walked back to the hustle of town where many emotions burst through like a raging river bursting it's banks. After the rage of emotions settled, they went for a moonlight walk by a small lake. With her in his arms, he looked into the eyes he adored so much, and without another thought, pressed his lips against hers in a loving and heartfelt kiss. These lips were so very warm and inviting, undescribable. When their lips parted, all he could do was smile at the beautiful face he had come to know and very much love. They kissed again and he wrapped his arms around her, and held her until they knew they were late. They had sealed a bond that night....a bond of truthfulness, love, and utter devotion.....or so it had seemed.

He blinked slowly, not knowing how long he had been thinking to himself..... "Why did this happen to me" he asks himself. Not quite knowing the answer to his own question, he sighs and fights back the lone tear starting to dribble out of his eye. He leans back and closes his eyes, remembering back...

In his bedroom, where he and the love of his life had just made love. He looks down at her naked body, exhausted, yet pleased. He smiles as he kisses her forehead. She looks up at him with a warm and inviting smile...for she has just given him her virginity...and he feels humbled. She smiles at him and kisses his lips, then his nose...he smiles back and hugs her tight to him, feeling her warm naked body next to his....he feels whole, completed. Then she lays her head down on his chest and falls asleep. But he cannot sleep. He stares at the one he loves resting on his body and wonders to himself, "How can I be so lucky as to have someone here who loves me so much?" He quickly answers his own question. "I don't care. I do." Then he closes his eyes and falls asleep with the one he loves.

His head comes up from all the thinking, worn, tired, beaten. Physically and emotionally drained, he sits back in his chair and feels cold metal in his right hand. It is about 10:30, and he sits alone in his room, totally dark except for the four foot black light shining on his face and the small piece of metal in his right hand. The house is silent, except for his breathing, labored by hours upon hours of internal suffering. He teeters on the brink of total hysteria, but never shows it. On the outside, he looks like your normal, everyday eighteen year old. But on the inside, he is totally torn apart. He thinks back....

He gives her a hug and she seems too cold. Something is troubling her as he drives past. He then decides to go talk to her. He pulls up where she is and steps out of his car....slowly walking to see her. He asks to talk to her and she agrees....they go to talk and his worst fears are realized. Everything after that becomes a blur...everything seems sureal as he leaves, car tireds blazing around corners...he feels desolate....totally alone.

He leans back in his chair....promising himself not to let this tear hit his cheak. It has swelled to an immense size and has started out of his eye. He holds back, remembering still more....

He calls, then shows up to talk to her one more time. She still turns him away, never talking to him, nor showing any affection that a friend should give. Inside, he has given up. The one person who he has loved with all his heart has deserted him. He cries where he sits, but gets up to tell her goodbye and to take care of herself. He hugs her, knowing full well that it would be the last hug he gives her.

As the man sits there, remembering his past month, he feels his right hand, still cold with the steel in it raise to his temple. His left hand wipes away the ice cold tear trail that has just fallen down his face. He closes his eyes and shouts his love for her, then opens his eyes just in time to see a bright light flash by his eyes and he faintly hears a pop in his right ear....then all is silent.

No one knows this pain I feel deep inside, no one can
You see, this pain comes straight from the heart, the worst of all pains
This pain cannot be healed, for it is caused by a loss...
A loss that hurts more than anything that can be described...
A re-shattered heart. Once broken, I thought it had healed...
Then I found, due to circumstance, it hadn't...it had only begun to heal...
Then when I least expected...anger and hurt tore what mends had been
There...and now, it simply bleeds...an endless stream of my blood...my tears.
Every thought, feeling, emotion, everything I felt for her just pours out like a flood...
For now they mean nothing, every memory created now ceases to exist.
This pain shall not subside easily...Harsh reality keeps this wound gaping
Open...Let me bleed...for it is my ignorance and stupidity that has done this to me.

I know this isnt one of my personal works but this deserves a place on the net.

With all the love in this world it is hard to imagine that there
are those of us who dont care for the holiday. I, being born on this
day know this feeling all too well. I have cared for many people in
this life, and I have truly loved a select few...you know who you are.
But once again, as it seems that fate has dealt me shit
and I am left out in the cold alone.
I know there are those who care about me, as you have let me know this.
But alas, it means little, unfortunately, when the one you know you care about,
the one you have given your heart to in the past,
she who threw it back torn...doesnt care about you anymore.
I wait on...living in my personal hell.....alone.

Think I'm going for a walk now ...................................................................... I feel a little unsteady.
I don't want nobody to follow me ........................................................................ 'Cept maybe you.
I could make you happy you know ............................................................... If you weren't already.
I could do a lot of things .................................................................................................. And I do.
Tell you the truth, I prefer........................... The worst in you. Too bad you had to have a better half.
She's not really my type .................................................................. But I think you two are forever.
And I hate to say it, but .............................................................................. You're perfect together.
So Fuck You ....................................................................................... And your untouchable face.
And Fuck You ................................................................................... For existing in the first place.
And who am I ....................................................................... That I should by vying for your touch.
And who am I ...................................................................... I bet you can't even tell me that much.

A lover is a special gift that you cherish forever,
It's a special bond that crosses the boundarys of time and distance;
Time passes, but a lover is a constant in a world of changes...
Like a fine wine, or a vintage car, our love only gets better with age.
Like life, we have our ups and downs, but our shared dreams continue.
I know I didn't tell you ' enough,
I don't know where I'd be today without my lover...........
............and my best friend.

I only want to hold you now. We've both been hurt, yet I still offer myself; heart, and soul to you.
I want to feel your gentile caress again, the tender touch of your fingers across my cheek, your eyes,
deep and blue, unlimited, staring into mine, eternally loving me as I love you. I want to show you that
even if we are seperated, my love for you will never die , and I would traverse any distance just to
show you what you mean to me...Just to have you in my arms once again, to frolic in the rain without
a care in the world. But most of all I would travel and distances to be able to tell you that you are my world...
and that I love you.

I still remember your sweet touch, the first caress I was able to give.
I still remember the warm burn inside when I pressed my lips to yours,
and then feeling yours back to mine.
I still remember the burn I felt when I opened myself up to you,
hoping that this time, for you, it would not be in vain.
I still remember lifting you gently into my arms and carrying you to bed.
I still remember the way you snuggled up so close to me that night,
almost as if you were trying to become one with me.
I still remember the smile on your face as you dreamt,
yet that's the same smile you had when you slipped into slumber.
I wonder if that smile was perpetual, or reoccuring.
I still remember the warmness inside me as I finally fell to sleep.
And best of all...
I still remember that as long as I have you,
I shall always remember the joy of having someone to care about.

In light of the tragedy that happened in New York and The Pentagon,
I want to add my condolances and thoughts for those killed in these
senseless and cowardly acts. I'm sure that those involved will never
again rest easily. And I hope they rot in hell.

You think your so damn powerful, all because you swong when we had
no idea the blow was coming.
You think your so damn smart, because you used trickery and treachery,
to get through our defenses.
You think your so damn untouchable, because you have your sanctity across
many miles of ocean and foreign land.
You think your completely fucking invincible. Think again.
You've hurt us dearly...but not mortally. Where you had hoped to destroy
our AMERICAN spirit, you've only succeeded
in bringing a loosely knit nation together in mourning, hatrid,
and a bloodthirsty quest for vengance for those of you who hurt us.
The People of New York City, The People in The Pentagon, The People of
New York State, The People of Washington, Indeed...
THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA WILL NOT REST UNTIL YOU HAVE BEEN
DEALT A BLOW TO WHICH YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO RECOVER FROM.
And we will live on.

This is dedicated to a special woman, who doesn't quite know how special she really is.
Unfortunately, due to specific circumstances beyond my control, I am unable to let her know just
how special she is....to many I'm sure, but especially to me.

So many things in this world go unsaid that many consider what is said doesn't matter as much as the things that go said. Others believe that actions speak louder than any words ever could. I believe that many words are said, but not through direct verbal communication, but through indirect word association. At one point and time, you asked me why you could not find someone who can make you happy. I believe you may have, but will not allow it to be. I know that you have had problems with people in the past, and I can not change that. But, I wish you would allow me the chance to make you happy...but I can not and will not force things upon those who do not wish them, and I will not do this with you. I like you, and want to get to know you better than I do already...but if you do not wish a personal relationship with me, I have no choice but to sit back and let you go. I can tell you this though, no matter what happens from here on out, I will be waiting if you decide otherwise.
Dedicated to a special woman in Winona/Mankato, MN. MH