So you wanna submit? click hereSecond Submission. 05-21. Category: Religion

wow. today got me thinking, a lot. the kind of things that little kids think about, y'know, like is the world real and stuff. well, i was sitting on the bus and my eyes were closed, and i was just thinking, just thinking. i thought about angelina joele, and i was wondering what she was doing at that given moment. now, i have no idea who angelina is, but i was just thinking. and i was thinking how many other people out there were thinking the same thing as me. also, who is to say that life is not a dream? that this entire life that i am living was just tailored to me to see if i could handle it, and the people that i knew werent really real, and that i will wake up ten years from now and not remember what happened or that i went through any of this. that freaked me out, becasue i dont know how many times thats happened to me, if at all. theres no way to tell. This cute guy walked past me when i was waiting in the cafeteria for mackenzie, and i realized that i dont know him. i dont know what his life is like, and i dont know what anyones life is like except my own, and somtimes i dont even realize that im living my own life, i just think that im somwhere else because i dont want to deal with reality. well, when i realized this, i thought about how niave we are to envy other people, because we dont kno what their life is like, so therefore we have no right to do that. when i was gathering my thoughts, i thought about an analogy that i learned from a book that i read earlier this year. that when a child is walking down the street with its mom, and sees a dog, it naturally gets excited. and the boy exclains "mommy, looky look look, its a dog!" now, this may happen over and over hundreds of times until the kid learns that its just a dog, well, this never wears off with philosophers, they continue to marvel at the wonders of the world. i think that everything that we see here, right now, is just the shadow of it all. like in platos cave, the cavepeople only saw the shadows of the figures being held up behind the flame, but the philosopher broke free and found the wonders of the world behind it. but the people in the cave got pissed and killed him because they were ruining their peace. now, how do you make a hundred identical cookies? with a cookie cutter! and thats what everything on earth is, a cut out of the real thing, and once we die, and our souls get released, we are finally able to see the tru beauty of things. its like a magician, the people bury themselves deep within the rabits fur, and they think that they are nice and cozy among the world, and they dont dare think of leaving because they are so secure. well, the philosopher would climb to topmost hairs of the rabits ears just to get a glimpse of the real world around them, and those hairs are so fine and brittle that they may break with the slightest touch. the philosophers are so amazed at what they see, that they climb back down to tell the others of their discoveries. the others refuse to believe him and kill him for disrupting the minds of the young. now, thats not fair, but it happened to socrates, and many more great minds. this sounds really weird coming from a 12 year old, i kno, but a lot of it is just what ive gathered from books, and by the way, im writing my own. im in the exelerated program, and i love to read college level and up books just to spite the stereotypes adults put on kids. me, im just an ordinary girl, with ordinary likes and dislikes. my IQ isnt much higher then the rest of the kids i go to school with, a mere 120, and but my lexile score is 1444 (lexile is my reading level) which means i should be able to fully comprehend adult genre books. right now im reading By the Light of the Moon, by Dean Koontz, but im not that far into it. im not trying to brag or anything, but i just wanted to get my opinion out there, im a little new at the myspace thing. And onto machinary, when will it overpower us? honestly, well be teaching computers to think for themselves in no time. its sad really, so is the progression of technology going too far? i think it sure is

ok well my current bf when we had been on break he slept with this girl named becca!! then when he was like laura ive been a bad bf i dont diserve u!! i said no dont be silly ur a good bf i love u and trust u!! hes like when we were on break i slept with becca!! i was like......oh!! i had thaught to myself i knew it i f*g knew it!!! so i was like ookaaay!!! then hes like our breaks over ill take u back now i was like heh heh ok!! *thinks y me all the time* hes like laura dont worry about her she hates me now anyway!! shes not worth my time!! i love u and i am really sorry but, i didnt cheat on u!! *i guess he thinks since we were on break him sleeping with her is nothing i guess* i was mad but more disoriented then anything!! anyway then i was like all sick and depressed and paranodic!!!!! as i was leaving hes like wats wrong?? i am like nothing why would something be wrong?? then hes like ok lets talk! im like well, i have been thinking about wat u said earlier! hes like laura dont be worried about something that isnt gonna happen again i love u and only u i mean i am with u?? i mean i trusted him!! why does it bother me soo much!! i mean true he liked her for years but god i am soo confused!! this is the only place i can write wat i feel without him seeing!? i know sounds stupid right?? i just dont know wats wrong with me lately?? ive been such a bitch too him and cruel too!! i really need some heart felt advice i mean im glad he told me i am but how do i get rid of this feeling i have!!! ppl tell me i shouldnt be upset i mean its not like we were together at the time!! i know u all think i should leave him right?? well, i just cant do that he means so much too me!! i guess wat got me mad was becca didnt say no and he was hitting on her!! i think shes a whore *myspace pics* pics say alot about someone!! but dont get me wrong i blame paul *bf* as much as i do her!! and it will take him a loooong time to get all my trust back!! i just wish i didnt feel this way ya know!! i mean when we were at the con he was hitting on 13 yr olds and such!!! i was like ok 2 can play this game!! *went for guys my age obviously* but even thou i did all that i still felt horrible like i was doing something wrong ya know!! i know that time will heal me and only time can heal me!! but cuz of this i am starting to question if i really love paul as much as i used to?? can someone really fall out of love?? i am starting to wonder if maybe i have or if i am just emotionally that scared!!! i know u must think i am a pathetic loser huh?? i mean all i want is for us to work out this time i mean i love him soo much i....if i lost him again i don't know wat i'd do?? i mean i beleave becca took advantage of him this i beleave!! because a pic says alot about somebody alot!! also she got him when he was still hurt from his previous relationship!! i mean a break isnt cheating right?? i mean sure i thaught the whole break thing was wierd sure!! but i guess wat gets me is those pics and the comments he wrote to her on them!! she took advantage of that...and so when he made a comment on this guy she liked she got all pissey!!! and now she hates him for it and wants nothing to do with him!! also hes like it just happened i am really sorry laura i am! i was like.....yea i know paul i know!!! hes like i was hitting on her like before as a joke i said ive always wanted to know wat it would be like to be with u?? shes like yea ya know me too!! she so callingly thaught of him as a brother too!! insested anyone!! she was all like i am soo alone so she took advantage of his kindness!! grrrr it makes me so f*g mad seriously!!! but maybe i am making something out of nothing but i am just sooo sooo scared!! i dont wanna lose him i really dont!!