Unconscious Divorce

What the hell are you doing to me?
You don't understand, you don't want to know
It seems to me that you're constricting me
I can't speak up, I just want you to go

It's no longer easy, now absence of joy
Give it up, quite it a long time ago
I stopped listening, but you treat me as your toy
But here we are, still stuck here, why, I don't know

You loved me, I followed suit, you still continue
But I am tired out
Long ago, last time I wanted to know you
I can't understand, why you win with a pout

For some time now, I have wondered
I never knew, but now I think I'm gay
I realised this when I showered
Cold was the water, and there I wished to stay

But really, I'm not actually gay
The reason is one and only, and that is you
You cling to me and dance around all day
This might seem strange, but I'd wish you'd hate me too

Why won't you hear me?
I shouted it out, loud enough
What do you want me to be?
But you sit there and laugh

Boredom easily sets in
I drown my times with bottles of whiskey
While you watch me and try to breathe me in
Slowly, slowly does it now, I slur, but now I really see

You are just like I am
But you just can't give up
You would wish to control me, by pushing me in a pram
But while you inhale me, I sink further into the cup

My vision is blurred now
And now I don't understand
Why you take me in like this, and wrap me like a bow
Your tenderness as you held my hand

It seems strange how I repel of my own
But you attract with rivers of will
I want to live with you know, but first I must atone
For at stages, I wanted to kill

But as I finally drift into slumber
I realise our mutual love
My feelings no longer lumber
And our life, is now a dove
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