As the heading says, Welcome. All are welcome here, though many may choose to leave. I'll not condemn for that. It is every individual's option to choose to take the next step, or to back away. If you feel yourself prepared, then by all means, proceed. Take that next unwary step, the one that could lead you into either darkness or light. But if the decision is not an easy one for you, then perhaps you are not yet ready. Perhaps the unknown frightens you, as it does so many of us.
On the following pages I have made an attempt to lay down, for those willing to view it, a small piece of my soul. Through poetry, I have conveyed some of my deeper emotions, ones that I will not allow to leave me unless they are scrawled on a sheet of notebook paper. The poems are there for your entertainment, so that you might get to know me, or even so that you may learn from me. I write because I must. I do not choose to. Words enter my mind and I must write them down. Otherwise, I tempt insanity. And once these thoughts are written, I see no reason to hide them.
You will find love and hatred, friendship and romance, life and death. If you look hard enough, you will find a documentation of my life, or at least that of the past few years. You will see my fears, my passions, my doubts, and my beliefs. You will discover that the theme of vampirism is indeed dominant in my writing. It can be seen as a metaphor for humanity, for life itself. In these monsters, I see a very human power, a beauty that surpasses anything to which human eyes can bear witness, and a dominance over life to be envied by the gods. Vampires are the vessels for my life after death, my heaven and hell (what is one without the other?), and the undying love that is in us all (or at least in those willing to seek it out). How better for love to be eternal, than for it to reside in an eternal body?
I think that is enough for now. This is, after all, merely an introduction. The rest lies inside. And again, it is your choice whether you wish to proceed or not. It matters not to me. I cannot force you to enter. Who am I to make the choices in your life?
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All material contained in these pages, unless otherwise noted, is � 1997 - 2001 Matt Bedrosian
Quote on the preceeding page taken from the graphics insert of Type O Negative's "October Rust" CD.