The Language Or The Kiss--Indigo Girls (SWAMP OPHELIA -- 1994)

I don't know if it was real or in a dream
Lately waking up I'm not sure where I've been
There was a table set for six and five were there
I stood outside and kept my eyes upon that empty chair

And there was steam on the windows from the kitchen
Laughter like a language I once spoke with ease
But I'm made mute by the virtue of decision
And I chose most of your life goes on without me

(Chorus)
Oh, the fear I've known
That I might reap the praise of strangers
And end up on my own
All I've sown was a song but maybe I was wrong

I said to you the one gift I'd adore
The package of the next ten years unfolding
But you told me if I had my way I'd be bored
Right then I knew I loved you best born of your scolding

When we last talked we were lying on our backs
Looking at the sky through the ceiling
I asked to lie like that alone out on the driveway
Trying to read the Greek upon the stars, the alphabet of feeling

(Chorus)
Oh I knew back then
It was a calling that said if joy, then pain
The sound of the voice
These years later is still the same

I am alone in a hotel room tonight
I squeeze the sky out but there's not a star appears
Megin my studies with this paper and this pencil
And I'm working through the grammar of my fears

(Chorus)
Oh, mercy, what I wouldn't give
To have the things that mean the most
Not to mean the things I miss
Unforgiving the choice still is...

The language or the kiss