Wednesday Morning, 12.24.03: I walked into the huge lecture room. There must have been about 400 people in there, and just 1 teacher?! He reminded me a lot of Coach Glover. Walkin around, joking about how he already knew everyone was gonna cheat anyway. I got there late as usual and took a copy of the test. I tried to find an isolated seat so that no one would cheat off of me, but it was hopeless. "Hey what'd you get on the back sheet?" "I just got here ok?!! Geez, you don't even give me time to sit down and you're already asking me for answers!" He backed off, his friend sitting next to him laughed. I was kind of harsh to that Indian guy. Then the girl sitting in my row asked the guy behind us to stop tapping his pencil, and so he started doing it more frequently and louder. I stopped him with my hand "Be nice," I said in a gentle voice. I was so much softer with this guy, probably because he was much better looking. Then he did something else annoying and I told him "Be nice" again, later realizing that I had just said it and he most likely thought I was weird. After class I was talking to the girl who sat in my row, and she asked how long I had been there. It was my first time showing up to class, but the semester had only started a week earlier. "Well, technically I have my physics lab which overlaps this class, which is why I didn't sign up for it to begin with, but I think we'll get out early all the time" I was looking foward to making new friends this semester as I grasped the bars on the door. The hallway was dim and resembled the inside of a sewer, minus the sewage Music: Patricia Coelho - Nunca Mais
Tuesday Afternoon, 12.23.03: The police were after me. Sharmila and Siham drove off fast to throw them off and I walked along a path in a field at night. It was cold and dark. I started to run all of a sudden, I made it to the street and took a turn on Disney street. I hid in a shack and talked to Sharmila on the phone, telling me that Caitlin had nearly turned me in, twisting the whole story. I was appalled "well I was thinking of going to the police station anyway and telling them" I looked down and saw blood on my white sweatshirt, but I really didn't remember having done anything
Music: Fiona Apple - Paper Bag
Tuesday Morning, 12.23.03: I was sitting on the cement with Kristan and Jessica and they started showing something on the big screen. Velha Inf�ncia played, I was singing along as the song gets me emotional. Jessica was too, but she didn't know the words so it was funny. "Da da sammbaa" We laughed. I continued to sing along "this song is so pretty"
- Al Pacino could see something suspicious was going on in the fog. He was talking with his boss when he sensed something; it was the guy who had stolen his identity. He went to the kitchen, took a large metal bowl as a shield, and started shooting up the place demanding they turn him over. No one did so he went on a killing rampage in the restaurant
/I was getting punked by Aston Kutcher and didn't even realize it, even though it was he who was punking me (meaning I was a celebrity?) He was giving me my delivery at the back of his UPS truck and the shipping was a lot more than it should have been. I started getting into an argument with him until he started laughing and I realized what was happening. Reese Witherspoon got in the truck with me and as we were driving down Kirby I saw Rob Zombie in the back of a truck, looking as scary as ever
/ Anabell was with me in the computer lab in my living room, facing the window outside. We were on computers next to each other and she asked if I was sure I had to go visit my brother again. "What?" "Yeah you told me online" It turns out someone else had been using my account and told her that, but who? I figured it might have been Val. Siham, sitting in a chair behind us, asked why she was on my account. "Yeah she's from NY too, but a few years ago she created an an account for me and let me use it"
/ Dead bodies were lying there, and as Reese Witherspoon and an older lady, maybe her mom, were going up the stairs, Reese on her cell phone, somebody (perhaps I?) told her not to move. When she refused she was shot dead with a gun on the silencer, the old lady as well. I felt like I had blacked out, but when I regained consciousness I noticed the dead bodies all over the townhouse. I wondered why I was the only one left standing.. I had a gun in my hand, but I went to the back entrance of the townhomes to get rid of it. That's when I saw my aunt Sandra pull up in a white car, with a smile on her face. "What happened?" "I dunno, my mom just couldn't take it anymore. She killed Tony's new girlfriend that he sent to live with us and her mom, and some random black woman (I pointed to her cadaver)" Then my mom was pulling up so my aunt drove off in her red car. I could hear the police pounding at the front door. My mom asked me something but I think I said that everything was ok "Actually, mom, do you think I could stay somewhere for tonight?" She was moving to Seattle so she didn't feel like helping me out, as she was anxious to leave town. I was practically in hysterics as I heard the police pounding some more. "There's just a lot of bodies here" and I looked around; the place was practically covered in them. "They need to come in and clean the place up," insinuating that I should let the police in. "Do you think I could stay at Tia Blanca's?" She laughed, "Oh, now that would just be ridiculous" Music: Tribalistas - Velha Inf�ncia
Monday Afternoon, 12.22.03: I heard of the storm coming so I took Marlene's turkey and hid her in the barn. I wrapped my comforter around her, making sure she was safe. The weather channel was on briefly, mentioning the extremes in temperatures throughout South America, with the middle of Brazil and Peru reaching record lows, a strange occurance during this time of year. And there was some talk of the storm. Later, as I was in my bed, Michael came by and laughed about what I had done with the turkey. Soon after she came into my room, the comforter still on her, and jumped into bed with me as I hugged her and was happy she was safe. Music: Tribalistas - Velha Inf�ncia
Sunday Afternoon, 12.21.03:
I got off the metro stop to get to Jennelle's place but decided to go through the Corte Ingles instead of walking outside, maybe because it was so cold. It was all decked out for Christmas
- He was waiting for me to get out of the bathroom, and when I got out I couldn't wait for us to be alone Music: Bebel Gilberto - Samba e Amor (cover)
Sunday Morning, 12.21.03: My mom had the idea of setting fire to the green fence in the back entrance of our townhomes. She was explaining it to me, saying that if we started it at 1am it would be done by 6am, but if we waited any longer the rest of the house would start to catch on fire. At 6 the fence did finish burning, but when I tried to turn on my computer and other electronics I found that the firewall prevented me from doing anything. Then I realized it was a stupid idea to burn the fence in the first place.
- We were new immigrants coming to America, going up the river. I got off on a street that was familiar to me, but it was deserted on Sunday. I went inside the shopping center and found that the only place that was open was the coffee shop, and the people looked like zombies. I went outside, bored, and found a place I had never seen before that sold children's record players and records circa the 1980s. I looked through them and recognized the ones that I used to own. The Koreans were selling the record players for $30, which included a free record. I thought about buying one, the owner was going on about how you could buy an old nintendo for that price but it would total $500 with the games and such. After that blasphemous remark I decided not to get the record player, but I still thought it was cute. I really liked that part of town and I was glad it was walking distance from my house
- I took my special stall in the back corner of the bathroom, I even had to go through another stall to get to it. It was so fun and exciting, the virtual reality toilet. It vibrated and everything, and the best part was that not many people knew about it. Although afterwards there was a girl waiting to get in. So I went to the outside of GC and met up with Sinbad, where he showed me his new setup. With the push of a button the GC square turned into a jungley place full of vines where you fell under and had to dodge swords that would stab at you from above. It was scary, but getting out of there was a good feeling. Music: Fiona Apple - Get Gone
Saturday Afternoon, 12.20.03: Adrienne was in the dark room with me, ripping apart something to put on the sides of the bunk beds
Tuesday Afternoon, 12.16.03: I told the two old Cuban ladies that we could get the papers from the table, but when we drove by (the area where Taco Cabana on Richmond is) that windy night they were gone. I guessed the wind had blown them off; I apologized. Back in my house I was petting Mimi on the bathroom counter Music: Adriano Celentano - Piu Diun Sogno
Monday Afternoon, 12.15.03: I figured the bus could take 9 photographers including myself, even though I only had a digital camera. Then I decided the variety would be nice. We were about to leave when I looked up at the sky and saw my 2 AMIGOS partners and Marlene in a hot air balloon. It really pissed me off because they had already been once before without me, and true, I was waking up really late recently, but they still could have asked if I wanted to go with them. I got out of the van and slammed the old metal door, marched over to their helicopter as they were about to get out and said "Thanks for seeing if I wanted to go with you guys!" and then tried walking quickly back to the van, even though it was hard doing so in the soft white sand.
- I had a meal plan this semester, but the food in the cafeteria sucked. I was waiting in line just to get some cookies that weren't even fully cooked. Then I saw some crunchy shell tacos and went back to get some. Someone was asking why there weren't any clean glasses there, and the cook told me to get them from the bottom of the cart. Then I started talking to this boy from Brazil who was poor. He spoke some broken English and I talked with him a little in Portuguese. I think we were going to eat together once I got my drink Music: Macy Gray - I Try
Wednesday Morning, 12.10.03: We were on our way to freedom, my baby and I. We went through swampy waters, my tattered clothes were even worse, but I saw the sign "Welcome to Atlanta" and I felt so happy. True, it was still a long way til we reached the North, but we had made it quite a ways. I decided we should take our much needed rest, and I layed her little brown head on the pillow. Then it was Claudio and I didn't feel like waking him up because I was still very tired, too
- But I had never been to this museum, and when we got in and saw the dust and the spiral staircase I thought it was pretty cool. I went to the top floor which had a glass door that opened to the roof. I went on it and started putting some of the used books in my duffle bag. Learn Greek, Learn German, Italian, and Latin; I took them all but left the Latin ones there. Kristan's parents were there to pick us up, it was already getting dark. They offered me a Happy Meal since we were in the drive thru but I said I wasn't hungry. "You sure? We aren't stopping for a while"; "yeah... well ok maybe a chicken nugget one. Thanks"
Saturday Morning, 11.22.03: She was blind and had no head. No one else could see her but her own children. She found her daughter and held her tight, and did the same with her son later. When they were with her they became headless as well, and invisible to everyone else for that moment.
Saturday Morning, 11.22.03: It was nighttime but siesta was over and I sat down at a table with some Spanish guys that I didn't know. They were cute and friendly, there were a few girls there, we were all chill. I liked the way the lights looked amidst the dark of the night; I liked that I had no place to be and nothing to do.
Saturday Morning, 11.15.03: Mikey and I were outside eating Wendys at night when 3 Mexican men started getting rowdy and we decided to leave (run). That's when we got to the big semi-abandoned house-turned-university. It was dusk, Islamic architecture, dog peeing by a small tree. I liked the way the sunlight traveled through the cracks, and when I got to the edge and saw the white door, chipped paint, it was frightening in an exhilarating way Music: U2 - With or Without You
Friday Morning, 11.14.03: The lights were dim the whole way though. I was outside of my room with Kristan and her guy friends, but it seemed a lot higher up than the 4th floor. The phone rang so I went inside to answer it. It was Claudio. He wanted me to come over; he only lived a minute away. His mom was out. I wanted to go, but fell asleep. When I woke up it was too late, but he called again. I felt bad for letting him down, then I really woke up and tried to go back to sleep to go to his house Music: Faith No More - Falling to Pieces
Tuesday Early Morning, 11.11.03: Everyone wanted a copy of my Barry White tape, which had a track remixed by none other than Missy Elliot. Even Tim wanted a copy, and was kinda mad when I didn't make one for him. When I played them the tape some other song came on, it was the end of the tape and I had taped something random. So I reround and the Missy track came on. But we were far in suburbs, and could see the overhead Greenland view Music: Dream Barry White song remixed by Missy Elliot
Saturday Morning, 10.25.03: So I attended my grandmother's funeral afterall [10.7.03]. I had made a turn on the underpass of the freeway and found myself there. The first person I saw was my aunt, she was standing beside my uncle and her sons; we were all younger. I wondered why she was dressed in spring attire, only to look down and find myself in a white dress. The whole family was happy to see that I had shown up
- I was told to go to the lower level to tell the man there what they told me about myself. There was a feeling of uncertainty as I went down the stairs in the underground warehouse setting, even the yellow and blue didn't really calm me. I pretty much blanked out when I met the man, but I told him what I remembered that they said, including thta I had telepathic powers. He put me in my assigned room that looked like a hospital room. I went in the bathroom and something shook me up a bit when I came out.
Monday Morning, 10.13.03: I was on the toilet and spilled something on the floor so I was trying to clean it up as the shower was running and pink mushy bars of soap started flowing out of the vent, which had been broken by them. Then Caitlin opened the door and I got mad because so much stuff was going wrong and when I got out of the bathroom I asked her if those were her bars of soap. My room was where Sharmila's is, and Caitlin's was where mine is, where the tv was showing minnie mouse. My door was slightly open, so she stood by it and said "that's such a weird picture of me", pointing to the picture I had on my door that she had given to me. She was about 70 lbs heavier and had something between stubble and a beard, and a double chin. "Weell..."; I couldn't say anything to make her feel better, "so does he" as I pointed to the picture of Mike I had next to hers. He was doing the whole girly Glamour Shots pose, looking up and to his left Music: Adriano Celentano - Respiri di Vita
Thursday Morning, 10.9.03: I don't remember why we were all pissed at Eduardo, but later I was alone in that suburban house at night, waiting for the Frenchman to come and fuck me
- It was a lot like Super Mario Bros. 3, but a little better. I didn't know where I was flying, but I found some 1ups before the wind blew me away from them Music: Adriano Celentano - Confessa
Wednesday Morning, 10.8.03: As we went down the hall and outside at night she was telling us in detail about the little girl who got raped. We both found it informative and funny in parts. I saw bugaboo in the revolving door; "oh but she's cool now", "oh yeah I forgot." It was Jessica and she made us laugh as we entered the reception area.
Tuesday Afternoon (?), 10.7.03: We walked from the parking lot into the movie theatre. It was dark and I wanted him, but he was resisting it as he doesn't like to display much affection in public (and I?) When it was over I had him help me carry all my CDs and videos back down. He was complaining about how many I had (he should talk!) and then we were standing in the lobby together. I touched his arm and the sensation lingered as I awoke.
Tuesday Morning, 10.7.03: It had become apparent to me that my grandmother was getting seriously ill. My aunt and I were going to go to her funeral, but decided against it and stayed at my house. Then they were talking about her on the news and it still didn't really matter to me
R.I.P Mima
Sunday Morning, 10.5.03: It felt weird being on stage with the other girls, after all it had been so long since we were together. Actually there were only 3 of us, and after I took my top off it was just me and Scary.. where the fuck did everyone go? It as stupid being up there. I remember being in the subway station after that
- My mom had gotten lonely since I left, and when I came home to visit I saw that she had 2 pet cockroaches. They were both small. One was lighter (more reddish) than the other one; that was the troublemaker. I tried to keep an open mind but couldn't help but feel superior and rub it in their faces. I threatened them if they didn't get good grades, but it's not like I even cared how they (and the other bug, a male of some sort) did in school
Tuesday Afternoon, 9.16.03: It was my last (or 2nd to last) night in Brazil and I hadn't spent any time with Chiquinho. I sat under the window and began to cry, but then realized that maybe he could spend the next day with me in Natal. Music: Tori Amos - Hotel
Monday Afternoon, 9.15.03: Sharmila was right about the spiders; they were all over campus. And they were black widows, as she had said. I saw them jumping about. I wasn't really frightened by them, but rather by their large numbers. I could see part of the Everglades burning, but luckily the firefighters came in time. McKenna seemed pretty shook up by it, but I went into the DM building in my school to try to resolve my Portuguese class problem. When I got off the elevator I was offered mashed potatos. They were like Sharmila said they would be; a nasty mixture between real and instant. They had shredded carrot bits which made them at least look nice. Between the old man and the grandchild I could see more spiders.
Monday Afternoon, 9.8.03: We left the cafeteria and I was walking down the corridor outside of a pretty white building which was really mostly glass. I saw Joshiepoo and some annoying j-crew friends and we glared at each other as he walked down a few small stairs. Then we met up with May Ann and Crystal Lu, who was showing us and the other Asian girls things she had bought in Korea. Everything was so adorable; I was glad I decided on going to UT
Sunday Afternoon, 9.7.03: It felt good to be with my mom again. We walked up the long flight of stairs to get into the dark, futuristic restaurant. Although something felt different, perhaps we were in Mexico.
- After driving for too long we finally got to the junkyard. My dad insisted on changing his shirt before we went into the house, and I don't know why it annoyed me
Saturday Afternoon, 9.6.03: I think we were looking for the pool, but either way we ended up at the elevator
- As I was driving down the freeway (in the slower lane), he called my cell phone from his. He sounded fine, we talked shortly, and he committed suicide shortly after he got off the phone with me. I had no idea it happened
I can't drive and I don't have a cell phone
Sunday Morning, 8.24.03: I was told to fill out a feedback sheet about a select AMIGOS postcard whose number matched that on the sheet I had, so I went to the freezer section in the grocery store to look for it. I gave up after a while (there were so many) and since I found Sandra's and it made me laugh, I picked up that one.
- I was given a tour by the Japanese man in charge of that sector, and I was really amazed. His voice was hypnotic, so I thought, and that was why the people and animals he had trained would listen to him and do as he said. Until it wasn't working and I repeated what he said and they were listening to me. When he said "pee" (and later when I said it) I thought the girl was going to kill the duck by squatting on it, because her 2 friends were edging her on anyway. I was going to stop him from saying it, but I saw her get a small net out and put it over the duck before sitting on it, which relieved me a little. Music: Hootie and the Blowfish - Hold my Hand (blame it on MTV2)
Saturday Morning, 8.23.03: Chiquinho took me into the store in the city and kept trying to kiss me or even just caress me and I kept turning him away. After a few times I felt bad about it, so I took him with me to the forest so we could be alone, but the phone rang and woke me up before we could do anything
Monday Morning, 8.18.03: We left the opera and were traveling in burnt orange. It was thrilling, I didn't want to stop. It soon became clear that I was in the mouth of the creature which could best be described as resembling the lochness monster. Katy from AMIGOS was there. Fun
Wednesday Morning, 8.13.03: My mom was mad and started driving in Brazil in the rain. I told her we couldave gone to my community but we had already passed it
/ I was sitting in the waiting area with my dream friends and Amanda, who was gazing into space and being surprisingly quiet. We were in a Brazilian airport
/ I saw Ms. Garcia in the bookstore and said hi; I was pretty happy to see her.
I could see more liver spots on her. I told her that I made a mix cd for her from Brazil and she was being a little rude to me, but apologized saying that she was in a rush and that she had to buy some books for a person.
Tuesday Morning, 7.23.03(?): Tim gave me a ride home from Westheimer and Voss because it had started to rain and I happened to see him in the parking lot. When I was walking down my street I saw a giraffe and other zoo animals, among which a monkey that I gave 5 to. I was annoyed by the animals that always followed me home. I usually had to outrun them. Sometimes they got aggressive
Tuesday Morning, 7.22.03: Then I went down the white stairs and saw that on the white bookshelf there was a set of old biographies of (dream) important people in history
Monday Morning, 7.21.03: We were all in the cabin and I, oddly enough, had a top bunk. Somebody mentioned Jessica's acting role in a school play a while ago and I wanted to see her act. She found my Jesus shirt in my stack of clothes and I was glad she did because I kept wearing the same shirts as I had forgotten about that one. Someone put a UT shirt in my stack, so I asked who it really belonged to. It was Travis's (AMIGOS)
Travis is going to Trinity
- The sound that had kept me up between 2 to 5 AM was 2 turtles having sex
Saturday Morning, 7.19.03: A bunch of us were waiting in the hotel (for Prom perhaps), so I asked where something was and I was told it was on the 999th floor. I happily pressed that button on the elevator and could feel my body being pushed fown as we went up. Surprisingly the building went a little higher, but I got off and met Henry there. We walked outside arm in arm, which was just to be silly because we were just friends. I met up with Wylie and Cristina and Cristina said something funny. The setting was pretty, there were rocks and plants and a small fake waterfall Music: Radiohead - Myxomatosis
Friday Morning, 7.18.03: I looked at my school from the street and thought about how I had to go up the stairs, etc., until I realized I was looking at my elementary school and not my high school. It had been renovated and painted white. I walked down the street and saw Jennelle talking with the Red headed Jew, so I thought for a moment that she might have been Jewish, but then decided she wasn't. We were in some plaza that looked really modern and nice
- Liz from AMIGOS (and River Oaks) was going to Agnes Scott for college and was bragging about it as we were rolling on a wooden box in the warehouse to the campus.
Thursday Morning, 7.17.03: I was with some AMIGOS in the Park Shops in Houston. They said Binz closed and I was pissed off because that was the only cheap store there. When we went downstairs and into the ship, Kristan and I spun around. My English-Portuguese dictionary fell into the puddle of water below us, but it was ok because it had already gotten wet and I didn't really care. My head was still a little dizzy from spinning so fast and suddenly
Wednesday Morning, 7.16.03: I saw that Kristan had written to me on the same colored magenta paper that I brought with me to Brazil. The letter was sitting on the desk by the window. I thought it was nice of her to write me and I started on my letter to her, realizing that she was the 1 person I hadn't written to yet.
Tuesday Morning, 7.15.03: I was in a dark room, not the lighting, but the furniture, then my dad called saying he was "in his way" as he usually does before he picks me up. This time he was bringing Abir, his friend's daughter whom I haven't seen in years. This was all after I went to a stranger part of Harwin that I had been to once before in a dream.
- I showed up to take my finals in shorts and my Brazilian bikini top. When I left I thought it was strange that no one had said anything, but since it was so close to the end of school I guess they didn't care. I walked down a street similar to Harwin/Richmond and as I was waking up the cars that were turning on the median were signaling for me.
Sunday Afternoon, 6.15.03: My mom dropped me off at the bookstore where I didn't expect to really find anything I was looking for, but I found one book that was small and brown and I saw a guy who looked about my age get really excited because he got the last copy of Holes. Then I thought that maybe he was really a 5th grader who looked older than he was. I looked in the magazine section and saw a lot of magazines with OV7 on the cover. I really wanted to buy all of them.. some of them were even in English. They were on the cover of Rolling Stone, but then I saw that it was just the Houston edition and was in Spanish. I was still happy though, and wondered why they were on so many covers since they had already broken up. My mom came in the store and we were leaving when I realized that it would be hard to start all over again. When I was with Fauzeya and Yousef, I found out that Fauzeya was going to have a baby, but we mustave been older because it didn't strike me as odd at all. I was really happy for them. We had to jump a wooden fence and I was reading the directions, but they didn't apply to us apparently. Fauzeya's sister Sureya went first. Yousef showed me his collection of CDs and wanted to know if they would work in the playstation. I said that they would, and the Christmas one that he tried did. I told them I was kind of sleepy, even though I had woken up at 1, and I laid on the couch in my living room and closed my eyes. My mom was nagging in spanish when I did so, and when I woke up she was nagging (something else) in spanish and it was 1 Music: [Dream Christmas song]
Saturday Morning, 6.14.03: We spent a little of the time during our field trip at the movie theatre. Everyone wanted to see Bringing Down the House, but since I had already seen it twice I decided on seeing House of 1,000 Corpses again. As I was leaving the one theatre to go to the other one, I heard Anushree talking about making a decision for college, and how some other girl had it easy because the college in Kentucky let her choose a little later in the year. Mr. Clark told me we could get free refills, but after tasting the Pink Lemonade I decided on asking the guy to fill my cup with "Cool Ranch" doritos. After I woke up I realized that they had that name before becoming "Cooler Ranch." I came into the theatre right at the part I had to leave at last time (at the Sharpstown theatre), so I recognized the first scene, but after that there was a big part that I hadn't seen the first 2 times around. I was pretty happy because I figured it was the part they cut out in the US because it was too gory. I sat next to Song, and some guy behind me said hi to me, but I didn't really recognize him. He was cute, I thought it might be Beau, but he looked a lot younger than I remembered and had hair. I was waiting for the movie to get scary and/or gory, but all that was happening was a speedboat ride. The girl in the back of the boat was wearing a lime green scarf, and then I figured she might have a flesh eating disease, so that made the movie a little better
\ We got off of the freeway to get some gas. While we were still on it I could see a metro trolly bus going by on the feeder that only had 2 people riding in it, and they were having fun standing up
- I went inside the middle school and was trying to enroll, since I could pass for an 11 year old anyway, and I think they caught me and I was in trouble before I even started going there. But we were out for the summer so I didn't care Music: Pavement - Spit on a Stranger
Thursday Morning, 6.12.03: Wylie and I went into his laundry room and told his mom we were going to do pilates Music: Pavement - Spit on a Stranger
Tuesday Morning, 6.10.03: It was the last day of school and I went upstairs in the big house to take the picture with everyone. Afterwards I felt pretty stupid for going to school, because all we did was take the picture
- The Beck CD Urbanization was on sale, and the sticker that says "including" and lists the singles or good songs on the CD had all of the tracks listed, so I figured it might be worth listening to. Or at least better than Mutations. It wasn't on the sampler display, so I opened the plastic a little and then asked the guy who worked there if I could listen. He told me to go outside on South Rice (maybe?) and listen to it there. I had forgotten that was there, so I went out to where I had seen it before, only I had trouble finding the spot. I saw the Rampage (Rogers' school newspaper) on a wooden post and Michael was on the cover picture. I wondered how she had gotten on there and then I found the CD listening spot, which was a metal square in the brick wall Music: [Beck dream song]
Monday Morning, 6.9.03: I walked along the corridor of the hotel. Joining the group of black girls was a pretty good idea, I thought, and we all had to share a suite. We had to pay $100 each to enter a competition together, and I told one girl that since my money had gotten stolen I didn't know what to do. I could use my debit card, but then I would have very little left in my account. I could see she had a stack of Roald Dahl books with her and I was going to ask her which ones she had, but instead I told her about my debit card Music: Fiebre - Lucha de Gigantes
Monday Morning, 6.9.03: I was back in NYC, and I was talking to this big guy I knew, who winded up stealing all of my money. I was pissed off when I found out, almost to tears, but all I could really think about was swimming in the river like Kramer did in that one episode of Seinfeld. I got back to the hotel where the Rogers group and Paul were planning on going somewhere. I was going to ditch it Music: Smashing Pumpkins - Everlasting Gaze
Saturday Morning, 6.7.03: I was graduating, and my mom's friend Teresa and her son were there, just like at graduation, yet this time my aunt Sandra was there, too. She was getting on my nerves as usual and I couldn't understand why my mom invited her. I was trying to lose her in the school and she kept asking me to take pictures of her. Finally I just told her that I was sick of her and that I had already taken a lot of pictures of her. I found Huyen and we walked around the 2nd floor a little. A few people were cleaning out their lockers, I saw Ms. Bagley and said hi to her, and then I saw Ms. Garcia and her husband
/ I was in the elevator of the hotel with a really fat black guy and someone else. The fat guy was saying that he didn't understand why they limited the elevator to only 3 people at a time, and I thought to myself that no one else would fit with him inside. The elevator was sphere-shaped and gold colored. I got off and met up with my mom, Teresa, and Nicholas, and mentioned that there was a free continental breakfast at the hotel (we were on the 1st floor of bellaire). Music: Tricky - Call Me
Wednesday Morning, 6.4.03: The eco challenge people were invited back to some other competition, out in the boonies and in a large barn. The first question asked was about the game show host of "Pyramid" (original) and I answered correctly that he suffered from "chronic.. dementia." I had no idea how I knew the answer. A little blond boy got the next answer right, and then I wondered if and how they were taking the score. Geri Halliwell (Ginger spice) went on the stage next to answer a little black girl's question, who was her (the girl's) favorite spice girl? Geri answered that it was ginger spice "because.." and then it was revealed that she was wrong and got laughed off the stage. She looked ok for the cameras, but when they were off of her she was mad and told some guy in the audience to fuck off. Melanie B (scary) went up next and said "I think I've already got the answer right" and then the black girl did an impression of her favorite by walking with 1 high heel on, and I figured out it was Victoria (posh)
- My mom decided to take the bus to work that morning, which was especially odd because it was raining. I saw her leave and then walked outside until I found my neighbor working on her garden (by the exit of our townhouses). I thought she was lonely, so I went to talk to her and helped her plant. She knew something about my mom and me, and I wondered how she knew it, but then she started talking about some gossipy person who lived in our townhouses so I figured it was through her. Then she took me to the gypsy who lived next door to me. I had never been inside her place (now we lived on the 2nd floor of apts), and the rain was coming down hard when she opened her door (or maybe it was always open). She was dressed in color and offered us food from a tv dinner package; I chose the oversized gala apple. We only saw 2 of the rooms in her apartment, and my neighbor went on about how dirty she was, but I told her to be quiet.. I was afraid of the gypsy. I offered part of my apple to my aunt, and later to the gypsy, who took a big bite out of it before cutting it in 3, leaving my neighbor (previously my aunt) with the small bottom piece. All along my mom had known she was a gypsy, she always knows one when she sees one Music: Percy Sledge - When a Man Loves a Woman (again?)
Tuesday Morning, 6.3.03: I was back in Ms. Lopez's class, I actually chose to do so after completing Spanish 5 (because I needed to keep taking Spanish), but at least it was the end of the schoolyear. I was in the bathroom with some friends and I was talking about my tattoo, until I realized that I never got one in NY. Yeah, I looked pretty stupid then. So we came back in the room and Ms. Lopez was saying how some of us never did our work, and she looked straight at me. I didn't care- I was a senior, but then I thought maybe I wouldn't pass her class because I never turned the work in.
- Her description was all over the radio stations so she took a ride from a guy by the New Jersey turnpike. She insisted on going to Alaska, because no one would look for her there Music:RYLZ f. Asia Argento - La tua lingua sul mio cuore
Monday Morning, 6.2.03: I didn't feel that comfortable in the new town, but I didn't think I would be there that long. I stayed in the bathroom stall of the store for a while, and the employee was getting pissed off because she wanted to use the bathroom. I told her I'd be a minute; she could see over the door and was watching me, which was annoying. I got my stuff together and showed my friend downtown through a restaurant. We had gotten there by going down the dumbweight and we could see a beautiful day out of the submarine windows. Actually the whole restaurant had an ocean theme to it. We went through the tunnel to go outside (by the docks) so I could wait for my flight. Most of the Amigos had left already, but we brazil people were still there. Raulina's (my Portuguese teacher) daughter asked if I had been practicing my Japanese, and I admitted I didn't know enough. She lived in the area so she was used to the planes flying so low, but when I saw the 5 going through the clouds slightly above my head and covered in a golden light, I was amazed. I was still waiting Music: Chip and Dale theme song
Tuesday Morning, 5.27.03: I walked all the way home with my yearbook, and when I went upstairs and into my mom's room I could see myself coming to the front door. I think I dropped a ribbon on the sidewalk. I went to my room and my mom was nagging me about every possible thing.. I needed to vacuum the carpet, she said, and I agreed, but I just didn't feel like doing it just then. She also said I needed to take care of the cats, and I sat Mimi down in the bathroom sink in front of her. She was forcing me to go to some Christmas gettogether, and I started thinking about how much I've hated the past few Christmases. I woke up thinking that my last good one was 10 years ago, when I got Super Mario Bros. 3 Music: U2 - The Sweetest Thing
Tuesday Morning, 5.20.03: I was in a sauna that didn't work after listening to parts of the the audioslave cd and the new one from garbage
Music: Spice Girls - Move Over
Tuesday Morning, 5.13.03: I went inside River Oaks and found that there was a used clothing sale going on outside the cafeteria. It looked good at first, but I noticed there was hardly any women's clothing. I went to the bathroom, it was huge and unisex, and left my purse in the stall. When I realized that I didn't have it it was too late and I figured the mexican kids must have taken it since it wasn't there anymore. For a moment I thought of checking the lost and found, but then thought it futile as nothing I ever lost throughout my 6 years there had showed up in the lost and found. I felt that horrible feeling you get after losing something
- A group of us from school were near the waterfall in Washington DC. We saw a dollar bill floating and I managed to quickly grab it, since I had fast fingers. Everyone was amazed, apparently it was a hard task to accomplish. When I saw the $10 bill I tried to do the same thing, but it was farther away from us and I fell in, taking Andrew Mazarakis with me. I thought we'd be ok after a small dip in the water, but we fell into the big part of the waterfall and I, maybe even we, died
/ immediately afterwards I saw the tribute to me on Spanish tv, there were two songs, and the second one looked almost like a music video. A lady was standing in an empty alleyway at night singing about the ballerina, and I had never heard the song before but managed to sing along, predicting how the chorus would go. It was so beautiful; normally I wouldn't really like the song, but knowing it was part of my dedication (although I wasn't literally a ballerina) was touching, and I hadn't even realized I was dead Music: Spice Girls - Wannabe (Karaoke version [can be heard in segues of the "Live in Istanbul" video])
*Hiatus*
Wednesday Morning, 2.26.03: First we were in an SUV. Then Me, Dalia, and Fauzeya were in Trader's Village with someone else. It wasn't exactly Trader's Village, but it was in the dream. I passed by 30 scietific experiments in a painting frame, I really wanted to buy it. Dalia found something else weird Music: Beatles- Can't Buy Me Love
Tuesday Morning, 2.25.03: The lady (looks like Anah�) from a horror movie I saw on the WB a month ago was almost drowning, but managed to grab ahold of a submerged hill with algae growing all over it
- After walking down the hall, my mom and I exited and it had dawned on me that we were nearly all alone on the island. She said maybe she should translate it into Japanese, I think she might have been talking about the children's book I showed her while she was in my bathroom before I walked down the hall, and then I saw 2 old people on the island. I knew we were really going into their house when we went back inside Music: Nickodemus f. Osiris and Carol C. from Si*Se - Mariposa
Tuesday Morning, 2.18.03: I went down the old staircase by the computer room and when I got out in the field I was spraying people on a jungle gym with a hose. We were all having a good time, even though I wasn't really getting wet. I mean, I still enjoyed myself; it was kind of like pushing a kid on a swing. I was just happy I was making them happy. I eventually found myself in the computer room, although it looked more like part of an office building, and talked a little to Anushree about the computer class she was taking, "ATM." Then Michael sat next to me and showed me the livemotion project her and Johnny made, and it was adorable. It had movement up and down as it was counting. The number 2 had a little yellow smiling flower that stuck its tongue out at you when the screen moved down to 3
- I took the bus to my elementary school and on the way I saw "Chile's Revenge" spraypainted on a wall. I didn't understand what it meant, it was really puzzling. When I got to my elementary school I couldn't figure out what to do there, and regretted not having gone with a friend. I thought I would go on the 2nd playground, but I found that it wasn't there. In it's place was wet grass and mud. Some kids were playing soccer, or really just kicking soccer balls around, and I did the same but tried to sneak away. Coach Mueller saw me and I was about to get in trouble, but managed to sneak away through a hole in the fence. I was going to wait for the metro to get back to Bellaire, but a school bus opened the bus door and let me in. I asked the driver if she would pass by my middle school, and she said yes, so I sat down in the back where I found Dalia. She said some fake spanish to me, typical of something the D would do, and made stupid jokes with her friends. Then I realized what "Chile's Revenge" meant: it was in reference to Pinochet and was tying it to "Operation Iraqi Freedom." I was explaining it to Dalia as I woke up Music: Eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonight
Sunday Morning, 3.16.03: The building had an attachment from the 2nd to highest floor to another building, so i wanted to see what was there. I never got past the elevator through
- John Ritter had a new girlfriend and wanted her to take care of his baby, but she didn't know how. They went waterskiing in a lake and the baby dragged behind her, attached by a blanket
- We went through the underwater subway and into space, but one of the windows wasn't closed completely and the wizard was more concerned about their overhearing our conversation, whereas I was afraid of the outside air affecting and possibly hurting us. For a moment I could see peaceful, subdued trees on the outside Music: Modho - Guardami
Saturday Morning, 3.15.03: I had to go to McDonalds camp with Amigos and Cristina and Jonathan from korn were there. The camp itself was in a cabin isolated atop a hill, but the inside looked like a mental institution. I remember walking on the tiles and talking to Cristina about college. She didn't apply anywhere besides UT and UofH, and I was telling her that she could get into anywhere, even though she didn't think so. When I got to my room that I was sharing with a few people I didn't know, I put batteries in the blanket pocket and was afraid to go to sleep.
- 2 burgulars broke into a the mattress store on Richmond and I was watching them across the street. Actually, before I saw that my mom and I were running around that neighborhood, I forget why, but it was pretty fun. My friend didn't want to report the burglary, and I thought I would help society by calling 911 and reporting it, so I did that as soon as I got home. The operator asked me about it and I told her what I saw, and that they were in penguin outfits (because they were.) She got pretty mad because it cost her $6 to transfer the call to the department, and the whole time she was rude with me. Someone was trying to break down the door before I woke up Music: [Dream Disco Music]
Thursday Morning, 3.13.03: I went down a waterslide on Latina tv, were the hosts brazilian? (mentura for mentira, but then I heard spanish.) No, they looked Mexican
- I didn't really need the wheelchair, but I could get through the mall much faster on it, and I was going so fast that I eventually took to fly. I landed at the movie theatre, for a while Bobby Hill from King of the Hill was in Japan again, and then on a front porch, but I went back to the movie theatre and for a second time I threw the wrapper away without noticing if it had the winning number on it, which it did. The employee took it from the trash amongst some stuffed animals and was happy I had left it there. When I ran back it was in her hands and wouldn't give it back no matter how much I pleaded. She had her father on the phone, an old white man, and he was going to give me $1000 of the prize money, but I couldn't be sure to trust him. Then the employee told me to get ready for my trip to Munich, which reminded me of European vacation that was another part of the prize. I really wanted that part, I didn't care about the money anymore, and I begged to just have the plane tickets since she worked for an airline anyway and could get free tickets to anywhere. She seemed happy that I was so desperate Music: Modho - Boomerang
Tuesday Morning, 3.11.03: The school bus dropped me off at home after a long ride at sunset. The competition went well, yet I felt strange coming home
/ My mom and I were in a grocery store that was going out of business, so everything was a mess. I saw some used green boots that looked pretty cool, but they were probably too big and I didn't think they were worth $12.97. We passed by some chocolate cakes that had fallen which I found funny. We exited from an employees only section and didn't buy anything. Outside we were in line and the cashiers were talking about the Cyndi Lauper song "She Bop." One of them didn't know what it was about; I said I had known since I was 10. The guy seemed skeptical, as if I would even remember the song at all, but I said I bought the tape when I was 10. A firetruck/charter bus passed by that was going to Mexico with some drunk college guys hanging on it. "See mom, if they're going to Mexico why can't we?" and she said she was afraid of terrorism; I think she was afraid people would think we were terrorists, but I started talking about how the war was really for Israel, and as soon as I said this about 100 identical empty cardboard boxes started falling from a white watertower and dreamily floated in the air until they hit the ground (I presume.) I thought it was creepy, and could find no reason behind their falling after I said Israel. Music: Cyndi Lauper - She Bop
Sunday Morning, 3.9.03: My mom wanted to kill the small ugly fish that were slowly dying on our patio floor, but I thought it correct to save them and put them in a plastic cup of water. No, we didn't know where they came from, but we already had an offer from someone who wanted to buy them and my mom called her to tell her to meet us at Blockbuster. After getting mad because she didn't specify which Blockbuster, I drove her car out of the parking lot and into another one a block or 2 away and sold the fish. On the way, however, I saw that the buildings on the street I was on were fascinating, black, curved if you looked at them at a certain angle, and complex beyond my capability of understanding. Music: Four Tops - Baby I Need Your Lovin'
Friday Morning, 3.7.03: We were anxious to get on the ride at Astroworld, but the employee at the bottom said I had to hand him my stuff, and asked for a toothpick so I gave him one. He was trying to give it back to me but I said he could keep it. So we're on the ride (tower of terror, but it started out with a normal rollercoaster ride before it got to the tower) and it starts right away, before I could put my harness on. I nearly flew off, I was scared for my life, and somehow my feet clutching a small metal pole in our seat saved me. I don't even think my friends noticed I almost died. I was able to get my harness on before I woke up
Sunday Morning, 3.2.03: My mom and I went to Fallas Paredes and I didn't think I'd find anything at first, but then I saw a scratch and sniff Minute Maid shirt that I had to have
Saturday Morning, 3.1.03: Michael and Francisco from Amigos were living with me in a shacky lookin house for a week or 2, but they would gang up against me to piss me off. When I got out of the shower and finally found a towel (a pretty turquoise blue color) I threw what I thought were Francisco's shoes out the door, only to find they were Nubia's and I apologized and tried to explain what was happening. She didn't seem to believe me, though
- Sharpstown mall was so empty. There were 2 stores open, one of them sold kid's clothes and they were getting ready for a fashion show or something. I went upstairs and my dad worked in the other store and was putting some boxes up. I found a dark red coat that I really liked and figured I would come back and buy it
Friday Morning, 2.28.03: I was sitting in the farther bleachers in the gym and then I was watching the women's bobsledding competition (actually it was the sport where you lay on your back and slide down ice.) The sportscasters switched to the men's for a second or 2, and then back to the women's. Japan won, even though the lady looked Russian, and she made a face as she won, almost as if to sarcastically thank her mom for making her compete. I saw Colin Ferguson and his dad and said hi to them, and my mom tried talking to his dad but he was being kind of rude to her. A lady came over and pulled a turkey out of a small garden; the long roots were still stuck in the ground but I was convinced that I wanted one (as a gift to my mom, of course.) I wrote a check for $20, only to find that there were additional costs, making the total $100. I looked at my cash and not only didn't have enough, but didn't want to pay $100 for a plantable Turkey. I told the lady I'd check with my mom and I think she knew I wasn't going to buy it Music: OV7 - Joy
Wednesday Morning, 2.26.03: I was on the school bus with 2 dream friends and someone else I didn't really know (It might have been Oscar) and I thought he was kind of cute. We were getting along pretty well and the bus stopped when we reached the treehouse
/I walked in and was face to face with God... He said that's who he was, and I figured it was true because at first I thought it was Jesus but then I realized he looked a little different: darker hair, a different mouth, and his eyes were like dark marble and they scared me. I didn't want to look him in the eye because of that, but I noticed he was standing in some water (about mid-thigh high) with his arms spread out and was saying something. I wasn't the only person in the room; I stopped listening to what he was saying because I thought it would be really long, but it was only about 3 sentances [or maybe I just couldn't understand it and stopped trying to.] I said something to him and he wanted me to throw a piece of wood into his shoulder. He had a small circle there as a target, but I said I wouldn't do it because it would hurt him. He insisted but I still refused, and a secretary (not his) came up and offered to do it. Right before it hit his shoulder flames sparked in the room and I ran out in fear. When I came back upstairs my mom woke up from her nap and was unaware of what had happened. Actually my room looked completely normal, but I could sense something wasn't right, a faint scent was in the air. My cats ran out into the bathroom with my mom who was hugging me and said I smelled good "as usual", and then she threw me away from her and screamed at me for something. I couldn't tell if something had changed in me or in her and the cats.
- Kristan was telling me that she needed to get Ari a birthday present but that she didn't know what to get him. I said I hate it when you try to get a boy a videogame, but they already own them all. She agreed and as was the case with Ari. Then she looked at my old nintendo games and saw Tetris and for apx. 5 minutes [real time] I was watching her play
Tuesday Morning, 2.25.03: My mom and I could touch the nuclear reactor and transform into huge puffy monsters, harmless looking, perhaps harmless ourselves.First I was hot pink with white polka dots, then dark blue. I changed back and saw a boy go into an apartment. It was dark and the streetlights gave me a satisfied feeling Music: Field Mob - Sick of Being Lonely
Although the music store in the mall was going out of business, none of the prices were any good. I mustave looked through the crap for at least 20 minutes, and finally gave up and left. When I got to Dr. Jan Schwartz's house I realized that one lady leaving looked a little like Ms. Quaite, and then I couldave sworn Ms. Quaite came out and left with her, although I couldn't see her whole face. Dinner was about to be served, and I was wandering around, reminding myself of the grandkids on "A Very Brady Christmas" for some reason. The house was very elegant \ Iran Castillo had a new music video where she sang about how she only liked one night stands, and was singing on the beach in the video Music: Iran's Dream Song / Sentidos Opuestos - Amor de papel
Monday Morning, 2.24.03: I was sitting on a bench in Mexico with my cousin and 2 of her friends. We were talking in English, and 1 asked if I thought Tommy from "Clase 406" was cute. "oh is he the one who's supposedta be American?" Then I said that everything tasted like Funyons and that I shouldn'tave eaten any and the Filipino girl laughed a lot. I figured the other 2 didn't understand me and I already knew the Filipino girl was American. [scene on a school bus of a black lady with light skin taking off her makeup]
/My mom and I waslked into Marshalls; she had planned to buy a lot of things, but we only bought a vase and a large pink glass of milk which I carried to the car. While in the store I saw some shoes I liked, but talked myself out of buying them because I didn't like them all that much, but I still wanted the skateboard I was riding on the carpet while thinking I didn't want Emi and her friends to tell me what was happening in "Clase 406" since the US is so far behind with the episodes. It was getting late as we drove out (and over an empty 24 pack pepsi box.) My mom stopped at an open tent in the parking lot to get some fortunes (like ones in fortune cookies) from a man, and she was reading one outlous about Him. I didn't pay much attention to it (it was a little confusing) because I was thinking about how ugly her outfit was [denim and a white country-style lacey shirt]
No Tommy on "Clase 406" Music: Uff - Si te vas
Sunday Morning, 2.23.03: Maybe it was the weather, but I had a new cell phone and I didn't feel like reading the instructions on putting it together so I asked my mom to. She knew even less than I did, and I was trying to tell her that the green cord went to the adapter. Ah, but I had left the adapter in the building, and as we were driving by the parking garage I could see it in the room, even though earlier I had taken one of my contacts out. So we, my friend and I, were running from them, and although I was scared, I was having a really good time. I went upstairs and saw a Christmas card from 1994 of a little blonde girl, and I guessed who it was because she was in the room with me. I think they were my cousins, and I mustave been white, too. Music: Faith No More - A Small Victory
Saturday Morning, 2.22.03: It was kind of dark outside and we were picking teams for soccer. I saw Eleanor and I said "Ohh.. she's with us"
Friday Morning, 2.21.03: Coach Prince (middle school), coach Glover, Mr. Clark, and maybe Mr. Anderson were all in Mr. Clark's room. I went up there by taking these stairs that didn't exist, and it was one of those hazy days. Some student was giving birth and when the baby was coming out Mr. Clark said it was cute
- I was on this football team and after I made the appearance on the field (I had been running late) we won. We were really happy and we were shaking hands with the losing team afterwards, who were all really sad and some were saying to our captain that they really wanted to keep playing. We later learned that because they lost this game they would be kicked out of the league, and the captain of that team told our captain we shouldave just let them win. None of us knew the circumstances, though. When my mom was driving me home, we passed by some people in the parking lot, and even though we were in Las Vegas (or a suburb of it at least), she said "All these Katy-ans are the same" as we saw a lady get money from the ATM. I went inside the cabin to get some food, and put rice and greenbeans on my plate, but what I really wanted was ice cream and none of us could find forks or spoons. Farhan came out and said he only had paper plates left, and I wouldave preferred that to my styrofoam one.
Thursday Morning, 2.20.03: I called Grace to ask her if she knew anyone who worked at AMC 30 because I was pretty sure I was getting a job there
- Kristan and her dad dropped me off at camp, but then Kristan got out of the car to get the dog away from me and to help me open a few packets of ketchup at the wooden picnic table
Wednesday Morning, 2.19.03: It was dusk, and I snuck out of my dad's apartment to meet my boyfriend on top of the stairs. I saw a kid running to the busstop, and my dad came out and started screaming at us while we ran down the stairs. Music: [dream song]
Tuesday Morning, 2.18.03: The grandfather from "El juego de la vida" let us in the house and we ran upstairs. 2 guy friends went into the attic I went into a bedroom and saw some magazines on the shelf. Then we were hiding, and I went from the patio to my room, where I slammed the door in my mom's face because I thought someone was coming, only to find it was my young cousin as a baby.
Tuesday Morning, 2.18.03: My dad said I should put a candy bar in my lunch for Eid, so I went in his room and was looking for one. They were all king sized, he suggested the new kind of snickers, which was uncooked.
- My dad picked me up from my busstop (by the library) that day because I didn't feel like doing community service anyway. I threw my stuff in his truck and we left
- I walked into calculus and one of the girls in my group said she would put up #31. I sat down and Jessica Chen was saying that her dance (for BISA) wasn't good enough, and I was telling her it would be fine. Some people had put random problems from the packet on the board, like #3, and that one was just some chart with numbers on it. In fact, a few of them were charts, like the one being presented, which had the 2nd 22 circled because it was the answer according to some old movie. Aisha Pinto said she didn't understand and Mr. Mazzoni got kind of mad and said "I know most of you are catholic. I'd be surprised if any of you weren't" and that meant for us to raise our hands if we weren't. Farhan did because his friends were telling him to, and then I did, which surprised Mazzoni. "Well my mom..." The next problem being presented was about cards, and the problem stated "at the poles", which I came to learn meant only the numbered cards. The problem asked for the sum of the cards' numbers and their reciprocals, and the jap presenting it had drawn the heart cards on the board. Bergen asked what her name was, she said Irene, and it was funny because I could tell he hated her. When we left, my headphones got caught on Bergen and he said he figured it out: it was my box. He meant my lunchkit, which I opened and had a rotting banana and who knows what else inside, and Anushree screamed. I told them I was just aboutta throw it away, and Jesicca Chen was talking about how her dance wasn't good enough again. I felt really nauseous and ran out of the room, seeing Leslie Mahley and Ms. Couvillon, who said hi to me.
Monday Morning, 2.17.03: He didn't finish the hummus and he didn't want his daughter in law to know, so he slept in the car with his golden retriver with the window open, even though it was raining pretty hard. She tried to wake him to tell him to close the window, but he didn't want to let her know that he was awake, and the dog was barking, but that changed nothing. The following morning he was dead, and his grandchild screamed. There was no time for mourning as I had to go down to the cave, and then back up to my living room. The ET prize pack, including a car used in the movie and all sorts of memorabilia was selling on TV for $12,000 (the screen showed $1200) and my dad said "that's it?!" before they even showed the price. Then he asked about Elijah Wood, saying he looks gay now. I agreed
Sunday Morning, 2.16.03: Ms. Garcia called on Elizabeth Patton (Rogers) to read right as Kristan was exiting my townhouses. Kristan started reading the sentance and I let her know that Elizabeth was supposed to be reading it. We drove to a gas station and when I got in I asked Ms. Garcia where we were, because I had followed along on my own to the sentance right after where we were. I stood by Jose and Efrain, who were sitting by the drink refrigerator and reading a comic that Catch Me if You Can was based on. Music: Cesaria Evora - Coragem Irmon
Saturday Morning, 2.15.03: I had been in the same situation a few times, but we were sitting in different seats in the car. Ms. Quaite was driving, and I asked Huyen why she was hanging on to the open passenger door, out of her seat. She wouldn't answer, so I just let her be. I was happy and I didn't even know where we were going. When we were ordering food I was surprised that my burger and fries cost only 54 (56) cents, and I had exact (56) change.
- The girl went on the speedboat with Uff, and much to everyone's surprise their intention was to rape her. Her friend came and they both escaped, perhaps they swam Music: Mr. Bungle - Retrovertigo
Friday Morning, 2.14.03: Gina from "El Juego de la vida" was standing by a wall when it fell. The area was poor, the wall was made of wire and cement, but mostly wire
- I was in the doctor's waiting room and there weren't that many people and the furniture was nice. I took the elevator to go up, but since I was on the 30th floor (the highest) it just dropped all the way down to the 1st, which opened to another doctor's waiting room. This one was a lot less nice and there were plenty of people waiting, children crying, unhappy employees. The layout itself looked almost identical, but everything in it was different. It was how the other side lived Music: Dave Matthews Band - Jimi Thing
Tuesday Morning, 2.11.03: I passed by a clothing store and decided to go in, only to find that Jennifer Udden's mom said she would go ahead with the chemo
=(The plants were so green in the patio)
- I was in Mexico watching a tv show and of course there was a lady with massive implants. Someone went behind a shower curtain in the middle of the living room "control! Basta!"
Tuesday Early Morning, 2.4.03: My mom and I were by the washing machine. She rolled up her pants a little to show me the body hair that was disappearing. Indeed it was! But we also noticed small vein-like protrusions popping out on her leg. They were worms, and I helped her pop one out, even though it got cut in half. It was black and resembled a centipede, swirming around on the washer covered in blood. It fell to the ground and we were frightened; more were bursting their way out of her legs. I, standing in the patio, looked down to see that some were coming out of me and had landed on my shoes. I stood crying as a 3 or 4 year old would in an unrelated situation Music: Norah Jones - Don't Know Why
Monday Morning, 2.3.03: I saw Adrienne's dad in my room, perhaps it was just an image, and I knew that she was having problems with him again. She ran away from home and I heard her letter read outloud. She listed all she went through for him; all that he made her go through, and how she had had enough. The train was passing by the fields of wheat and I envisioned the letter to finish with "I'll get you a shirt when I come back," to be at least addressed to her mother. I then realized that things rarely turn out as they should
- Gilligan went from my room to my mom's because his boss called him in. Then it was Lucy (I was the both of them), and then Gilligan again. The boss just threw him some generic compliment and I/he said that we forgot what we were going to say, but that it was just as cheesy and nice as what he just said
Before seeing the Gilligan Mlife commercial Music: Gilligan's Island Theme Song
Saturday Early Morning, 2.1.03: Mary and I were walking downstairs and she got mad because I never told her that Jodo's name was really Jawad and she had been calling him Jodo all along. "Oh well, it's not like you really know him."
/ It wasn't exactly the t-buildings, but it might as well have been. Fauzeya said she forgot her hummus for food day, and then we made the A.I. pinky sign, and then we did a Dr. Evil sign making funny faces. Saqi was driving us somewhere and said to Dalia (sitting on the passengerside) "Dalia, your daddy is like your brother," to which Dalia replied with the "O" face. Music: Nirvana - You Know You're Right
Tuesday Morning, 1.28.03: Dalia was driving us in some suburb that was kind of secluded and nice. We were still on the freeway and Dalia was about to drive on a lane for charter buses. We were laughing so much. The lake was pretty; earlier I had been in Kristan's eco class holding a sponge and the teacher said she'd give me an 80 because she didn't like my style or some bullshit, and I got really mad and left the class. Even though I didn't really care about my grade, it was the principle of the matter. But on the highway I looked out of the back window and saw Princess Diana with William and Harry. "They were so young," I thought, and happy, and it made me happy to see them together, even though I knew she was dead
Sunday Morning, 1.26.03: That day I wanted to walk home from wherever I was and I got really lost on the way. I saw a girl I had seen walking home before, and she asked where I lived because she had seen me walking a few times. "Far." She went inside her townhouse and I went back to ask her where I was, but I decided not to. I was between all these lawns, enclosed by a white wooden fence in no particular shape, and a dog started running at me. I threw a stick that he ran after and I got out to the street. I was afraid I'd get home really late and my mom would get mad, but she had a meeting that day and didn't even notice. I found her note on the refrigerator.
- Zachary was staying with us for a little while and we went grocery shopping. He wanted popsicles and bologna, and I said we were going out to eat that night and he was only staying 2 more nights, so I didn't think we should buy the bologna, but if he really wanted it I'd buy it. He had to go to the bathroom so I waited for him by the frozen foods and I saw my dad and he got mad at me for not going with him. "I'm not going in the men's room!" Then I saw Zach come out of the dryer and he spit out a bunch of leaves. I told my mom that the last thing I remembered was that I was in the grocery store with him and suddenly he was spitting out leaves after coming out of the dryer. I said I mustave blacked out, but she acted as if there was nothing weird about it. Music: Madonna - To Have and Not to Hold
Friday Morning, 1.24.03: I came in to see that Katie Morgan was going to marry Vicente. I was completely shocked, and when someone asked Katie about it she just had this look on her face like she had told him yes, but only not to hurt his feelings. Paul and/or Thomas was really excited for Vicente and he looked like he had some part in the planning of it. 4 Days later the wedding was called off and Vicente was crushed, as was Paul and/or Thomas. I was walking in my living room when I found out, and soap was all over the floor, as if the washing machine had overflowed. Music: N Sync - Gone
Thursday Morning, 1.23.03: My aunt from Seattle was in Eckards with my mom and me. We gave her a little fountain that had a spinning boiled egg on it. "I love it!!!" So we went to the photo booth to take pictures, and my mom's came out kinda weird so I was trying to edit it. Some little girl in a tutu came over while my mom was getting her picture done and her dad was behind her, I let them through to the other side since they wanted a picture as well. The final print that I made of my mom's picture had a few black lines through her face and it reminded me of Al Pacino, and there was writing all over the sheet (not where her picture was) that seemed to be a poem. I remember reading a part about blood. I went to the side and was looking at caramel flavored yogurt (Lucerne brand) and a Chinese lady came out and said it was good for the skin, so we bought that and a strawberry one at 59 cents each. Music: Luciana Mello - Prazer E Luz
Wednesday Morning, 1.22.03: Fauzeya and I were walking to her car from her apartment parking lot and Yousef had parked behind her. I asked him for a ride home on their way to the Olive Garden, and then we started walking to Fizzy's place. Yousef said he noticed that part of the grass was blue, and I said I saw the same thing when I first got there. "Nah-ah, you're lying", "yeah... you're probably right"
- So many of us were homeless, but we didn't look it at all. Shopping at wal-mart I saw a few of them in the backroom watching the conveyer belt go
Sunday Early Morning: 1.19.03: My mom dropped me off at Kristan's house one night to work on homework, and she said she'd pick me up when I called. Later on Kristan asked if I really thought my mom was going to come back, I didn't see why she wouldn't, but Kristan suggested that I spend the night at the airport (I thought she was going to say her house.) I was really surprised because I never thought Kristan would suggest something like that, but after thinking it over it didn't seem like such a bad idea. I was mainly concerned about getting to school on time Music: Luciana Mello - Simples Desejo (Tausz Mix)
Saturday Morning, 1.18.03: Some guy on tv was playing an acoustic guitar and was plucking around the neck to make a violin sound, and I knew that it wouldn't make that sound, especially on an acoustic. Then I found my old cello in my room and much to my surprise it was really close to being in tune. My bow was completely out of rosin, so I needed to buy some.
~ I was in the car with my mom and we were on our way to Teresa's. I was looking out of the window to see if I could find a place that would sell rosin, and we passed by a shop called "Orchestra", so I figured on the way back we could stop there. Somehow I knew the way to Teresa's better than my mom did, and when we got there I was in a room with the Rugrats.
~ We were all afraid for our lives; I could look out of the window and see some jagged rocks in the water lighted by the moon. He came in through that very window disguised as dust
Music: Luciana Mello - Assim Que Se Faz
Sunday Morning, 1.12.03: Y tu mama tambien was playing at the dollar theatre in the mall, so I thought I'd prolly spend the day there. When I went in Bath and Bodyworks I learned that Leslie Mahley died, and I was thinking how just the day before Kate Connelly had, so it was weird that one day you could be talking to a person and the next day they could die. I really didn't know what I was doing in the mall
- My aunt and cousins and my mom and I went in my aunt's SUV to Factory 2 U. We took a shortcut getting there through the nicer houses in sharpstown, and I had $20 that I didn't really want to spend. We walked passed the junior's section where some sparkly jeans were 5 and 6% off, and I found all these socks for $1 and a "professional" shirt that everyone said looked good on me. I didn't really want to buy it, and I didn't think it looked that great on me, but I did need a professional shirt for Amigos
Wednesday Morning, 1.8.03: Someone was driving the car and I was giving him directions. I just told him we were in the River Oaks area, then I was walking around Lamar just like after I read the Neruda poem. I had the same happy feeling too, and I realized that I was dreaming for a second. Then I saw some friends at Subway and sat down waiting for them to order Music: Smashing Pumpkins - Ava Adore
Monday Morning, 1.6.03: My dad sent me outside and night was falling as I stood by the feeder. I sat on a metal picnic table and put all my folders down; I would only keep the purple one. "I could go to Just For Feet or even teacher's supply... oh, except my wallet is at home." When I got home, up the stairs, I looked at all the photos on the dresser and I found mine behind the one of Kristan's friend Alex. My mom came out of her room, she had been crying, and told me why. I figured a little tea would help, so we went downstairs and I spilled some sugar on the oven. The radio report played as I cleaned it up, talking about Mary Tyler Moore's mom's peacekeeping efforts to annex Africa.
- I read the article about the breakup of the USSR. It said one of the main reasons for the breakup was the lack of proximity to (father) Moscow and (mother) St. Petersburg, cities given nicknames by the ruler and his Guatemalan wife Lili.
- The news report showed the upstate New York roads were still icy, but the parade would go on Music: Pearl Jam - Black
Saturday Morning, 1.4.03: [setting: Abandoned Apartments] The windows that were broken had now been boarded up. And the walls were splitting! I hadn't realized how poor we were until that point, but my mom and I were intent on fixing the place up. We put our paper grocery bags down and looked around. Music: Eric Clapton - Change The World
7th period I would usually hang out in the orchestra room even though it wasn't my class anymore. This day I was just walking around the school and I saw Huyen so I was talking to her for a little while. She was going to her locker to get something to help some guy cheat. She never cheats herself, she just helps other people out.
\ I came out of the bathroom and noticed I was really really fat in the mirror. My head looked the same, but my body was huge. I was disgusted, but mostly surprised that I had never noticed it before. On the news I heard that they caught Huyen and they were after me because they knew I was at her locker with her. I remember being mad, but especially because Huyen was such a good person. We got to the theatre and walked up the stairs. From the windows I could see the cars parked outside, and I still couldn't believe that I was living in Japan Music: Blues Traveler - Hook
Friday Morning, 1.3.03: My mom and Tony and I went out to the boondocks and it occurred to me that we could visit Adrienne to give her and Aaron their christmas gifts. It was a pretty happy day, and windy, and for some time we were in a forest (along the jogging track.) I found out that Adrienne lived in #6, the townhomes looked almost exactly like ours. There was a 06 and a 6, and Tony found her, Aaron, and their mom in the 06 patio. I walked in and told them their real gifts were in the car (which they were) and gave them cash. I think I gave Adrienne $14 or $19, and Aaron $21 Music: Queen - Don't Stop Me
Thursday Morning, 1.2.03: It was all of us who went to Cinnabon (mostly Michael's friends) and we ate those icey Mr. Freeze things, except there was red jello inside.
- I was at a school dance and I saw Gerson so I thought he'd ask me to dance. It was pretty funny I guess
- I went in my mom's office area and started eating a torilla. She said she'd get off work a little late and I said I didn't mind. Kate Moorhead sat in a room with some other people from my elementary school and I noticed that none of them had really changed Music: Diestra - Si te sirve
Wednesday Morning, 1.1.03: Alanis Morissette came out with a video and I didn't recognize some of the lyrics so I looked at the Jagged Little Pill lyricsheet and saw that they were added for the single. (Of course none of the songs on the cd were on the real JLP CD)
- Mary, Kristan, and I were walking by some corner store by the school at night. Then I went to my homeroom (Ms. Linsley was the teacher...) and signed up for something by filling out a sheet on George's desk. Everyone had filled things in the wrong places, but I figured it didn't matter. I went to Mr. Smith's class and he was talking about how Singapore was a great tourist attraction. I asked if that many tourists really went there because the only people I had known of that had been there only went for business, and he said "well I don't know. Why do you think we're going there in 2 and a half months?"; "Oh... I guess I forgot" Then I remembered Sandra told me about it a while ago. I asked if she was going and she said she probably was. I wanted to but I thought it was too expensive and I had already gone/was going to enough places in one year. Mary was the only person that I knew was going, and I was telling Sandra to be careful because she talks a lot. Music: Alanis Morissette - Hands Clean
