Spoilers: none really, this is pure speculation and more than likely a definite AU! But it does take place at the end of "Adrift II"

Author's Note: I hope you really enjoy this story as much as I have while writing it so far. Just a clarification first. If it is in bold italics its song lyrics to Crying In The Rain by A-Ha. (I don't own them either, but I did get the idea for this story yesterday, September 15, which was their lead singer's b'day) Happy B'Day, Morten Harket (sp?)!

BTW...I got the time for the timestap out of a magic cap. I knew in the episode that it was in the evening, but I couldn't find any website that had the timestamp on it. I can't even remember whether or not there was a timestamp during this part.

"Come to me."Harm

"I need a better reason."Mac

"You know the reason."Harm

2358 Zulu
Harm's apartment, just north of Union Station
Georgetown, Washington DC

I'll never let you see the way my broken heart is hurting in me. I've got my pride and I know how to hide all my sorrow and pain. I'll do my crying in the rain.

I couldn't believe it. He had told me to come over, and by the time I did SHE was there. Logically I understood. Her Dad had just died. I, too, would go to Harm if I lost someone close to me. It's raining now, but I can't seem to pull myself away from the street long enough to get to my car. The weather fits my mood perfectly. The rain hides my tears. No one will ever be able to tell how much my heart is breaking. I can't look away from his window. It was finally going to be me in his arms tonight. I was finally going to let him know how I felt, and I was sure he was going to say something to me.

If I wait for stormy skies, you won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes. You'll never know that I still love you so. Though the heartaches remain. I'll do my crying in the rain.

I can't believe how big an idiot I have been. I finally made my way to my car, and unlocked the door. I still couldn't bring myself to open the door though. I stood there watching his window until he finally moved Renee over to the couch, I suppose, because I could no longer see them.

Raindrops falling from heaven, could never take away my misery. Since we're not together, I pray for stormy weather, to hide these tears I hope you'll never see.

I climbed into my car, and started it up. I had pulled out onto the main street before I even bothered turning on the radio. I suddenly wished I hadn't. There was the song that had been going through my mind ever since I had left Harm's apartment.

Someday when my crying is done, I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun. I may be a fool but till then, darling, you never see me complain. I'll do my crying in the rain.

Will it ever end? This dance between the two of us is getting rather old. I can't bring myself to stop it though. I really hope he gets his act together soon. I would really hate to have to go through all of this again with someone else. He is the one that I want to grow old with, even if he doesn't want to admit it to himself.

Since we're not together, I pray for stormy weather, to hide these tears I hope you'll never see. Someday when my crying is done, I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun. I may be a fool but till then, darling, you never see me complain. I'll do my crying in the rain. I'll do my crying in the rain. I'll do my crying in the rain.

I finally made my way home. It seemed like forever before I was able to drag my own six up those stairs to my apartment. As I unlocked my door, all I could think about was drawing myself a nice hot bubble bath to relax myself. I walked into my bathroom and started the water running in my tub. I added a little bit of my favorite bubble bath, and then went back into my kitchen. I quickly made myself a steaming mug of hot chocolate. On my way back to my tub, I grabbed my fluffy robe off the end of my bed.

I set the mug and robe on the edge of the sink, and got undressed. As I was climbing into the tub, I grabbed my mug of cocoa. I sat in the hot bubbly tub for almost an hour, drinking my cocoa. By the time I felt ready to get out, all of the bubbles a dissipated, and the water was cold. I didn't even bother getting dressed after that. I just curled up under my covers wrapped in my warm robe, and cried myself to sleep. I can't help it. I love him.