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| I attempted to get drunk. | ||||
| It was his wedding date. The date they wedded. | ||||
| She came and asked me to let her have him for the sake of the child before it became too obvious. Yes, she was my classmate who sat next to me. | ||||
| I just walked away. I left my comfort corner and faded into the dark. | ||||
| I took the 19-year-old Johnnie Walker. I just lied on the grass with dear sweet Jonnie and drank with the icy full moon. | ||||
| "Speak now or forever hold your breath." I said to the moon, "So I will hold my breath forever now." | ||||
| No one ever saw I got drunk because I never did. | ||||
| I try to have control over myself. | ||||
| I left Johnnie's empty shell - his soulless body to her and headed back quietly. | ||||
| No one knows I spent the whole night with that 19-year-old Jonnie Walker. | ||||
| One year later, the very same date, I spent my night with that beautiful handsome XO. It's an anniversary and that certainly worth celebration. | ||||
| I survived. | ||||
| Everyone thought I would be destroyed by my very own hands, but I disappointed them once again. | ||||
| So my love, don��t ask me where happiness is for all I know is where sorrow is. | ||||
| Sorrow is when the dark meets the light. | ||||
| Sorrow is when she came and told me you belong to her. | ||||
| And I pray, someday my fears will take flight. | ||||
| "Speak now or forever hold your breath." | ||||
| To you, my love. | ||||