| 2AM Phone rang at 2AM. I struggled to get up from my sleep corner and walk toward to the phone. 2AM, he used to call me at 2AM sharp, to wake me up. Just to say he missed me and it's time for me to get up and study for the exams�K Only less than a dozen of people have my new home number, (exclude telemarketing folks) which might call. Less than 5 have the approval to call freely at late night. Sometime, no news is good news. I had no clue what I should expect from this phone call. Perhaps the words that I got couple solid offers and some other potential offers in Taiwan/Asian is out, perhaps one of my best buddies want to confirm my return date or flight, perhaps some silly girl forgot the time zone difference and asked if I will really take the offer. Maybe, maybe, maybe. I can't, and don't want to think of other possible answers. Uncertainity just caught me at last. "It's me." he said," You left when I got back." He totally caught me off guard; somehow, he and his kind just have that kind of power over me, as I have that kind of instinct to anticipate their next move - knowing he will come back to the game board. What a blessing it is. Maybe I was waiting for the call. This hunt-and-chase game is getting old. "Is everything OK?" I asked. "Why do you call?" "I think you would miss my voice and couldn't sleep." He replied. I told him I still have his voice mails stored in my answer machine and I can replay them if I miss his voice. These late night phone calls just like this crazy D?j? vu. Repeated history, that haunts me across the land. "I want to be there and by your side so much." He said. "But you can't." I added. He sighed. He has no time, or he is not willing, that I can not tell. I do require some decent sleep; I almost never had the luxury to sleep peacefully. But I let him keep me awake, even though it's possible that he won't remember what he just said to me next morning, even he ever made the call. I let him. I made the choice to pick up the phone at 2AM. Even though I am just a voice that answered him at 2AM. I will still let him. |