I cried at work today and I felt like such an idiot... It's like I don't know where to begin, everything is so jumbled up inside of my head. Things that were unplanned are happening, and whereas I usually don't mind that, some of the things are seriously bothering me. Mainly, Andreena's attitude lately. I'm not sure if she has been PMSing lately or what, I don't deserve to be treated as if I was some random person, or a newbie to life or something. Or a kid. It bothers me that I have not really been able to hang out with any of my friends lately because I have to work my ass off in order to help out at home, and that whenever I am with her and Trang, there has to be such tension and people have to be so pissed off at each other. But oh well, here's my weekend update. Friday, picked up Ricky and went to Bruster's to see Eric, who is quickly becoming one of the dearest people in my life. They weren't really busy, so while Eric and I gossipped and stuff, poor Ricky helped out and got a window, etc etc, and I noticed Andreena was sorta gettin' pissed, so we came home. When we got here, Tiffany, Johnathan and Ben were already here, so we got pizza, and started watching Ringu. It was too slow for them, so we stopped it and went for a walk in the 'hood. When we got back to my house, Jess, Jeff, Trang, and James were here! So we all went inside and fucked about until Tiffany decided they had to go, so she dropped everybody off home. Jess and Jeff wanted to go see Tomb Raider 2, so I got moneys from Mommies, and we, including Trang and James, made our way to Bruster's to see Eric, 'cause I had promised I would go visit him quickly that night. So we went and hung out for a while, until Trang and James decided to leave, and then so did we and we got to see Angelina Jolie. She makes me happy. But yes. When we got out, after being hit on by a black guy that was high and once again relying on the old "Sorry, I'm a lesbian" scheme, it was 2:30 am. So we went to J&J's apartment and I slept over... Well, more like they slept while I played FF8. Squall and Rinoa made me happy too. So got home today and then went to work and heard about some unpleasantness that happened the night before that occured in between my visits. Called the boss, and some people might get fired. In the very least, written up. Throughtout the whole night, people I love visited me. First J&J and Trang, and then Kelly and Gabe, and then Erin and her family, and I felt so LOVEDEDEDED. And Ricky kept on calling me up and stuff, and he's the one who I was crying while talking to on the phone during work and stuff. Plus, I worked with Tiffany and Eric, and the love was just neverending tonight. After work, was gonna go to Erin's place to watch a movie, but they were still out when I got to their place, and even though Eric and I waited in front of their place for a while talking and stuff, they still didn't get there, so he brought me home and we talked in the car for a few minutes in my driveway until I started inspecting the cars on the street and realized one of them was Jeff's Celica! Then, lo and behold, Jeff and Jess come out of my house and I said night to Eric and hung out with the J-team and Mitch and Trang for a long while in my living room until they had to go. WHEW! Okies, am done. Shall write more tomorrow, once I untie the thoughts on Andreena and can intelligently write about it on here.

Wednesday, July 23