| End It Please Ryuu-ka [email protected] Hey all. This fic was written after a REALLY bad day I had today involving my parents and an ass-hole claiming to be my friend, playing me because he knows he can exploit my feelings for him. This is certainly not a happy one. I decided to do a switch from the clueless Trunks routine and decided to give this one to him. I sighed. I looked about me. Nothing but barren land and steep outcroppings. I had been told this was the place where the Mirai version of me had appeared and destroyed Freeza once and for all. Barren. The word suited my life. Devoid of it rather. It seemed almost fitting I should die here. The place where my name had first been understood. Would be the end of my wretched existence. Again I sighed. �Goten you asshole� I coughed. Off all the people in my miserable little world. Why him? Why him? And me� why had I turned out so� so� wrong. Look at me, the apex of perfection. Unimaginably strong. Well compared to nearly all humans. I�ve been told I�m very good looking. Mostly from girls. Only once from him. He didn�t mean it like that. I found that out the hard way. I remember the night so clearly. It�s hard to forget that kind of pain. �Goten?� �Yea?� I felt my heart race. My blood thunder in my temples. My breath was shallow and ragged. It was so peaceful out tonight. The stars burning brighter then ever. The moon large and elegantly pointed in its waning phase. Perfect for this moment. I loved him. I thought, no, I knew he had to feel for me. He�s been too caring lately. Even for him. I sat on the nearest log. Our hair flickering in curtains before our eyes. �Goten� I began again �Trunks I have some news!� �So do I� �ok you first� he stated, still standing. �You first Goten please� �you� �just say it!� at the same time we blurted giddily ��I fell in love!�� I almost fell off the fallen tree. ��That�s great!�� I tried to prod. I knew I had that devilish grin on my face. That trademark smile plastered across Goten�s beautiful face. �with who?� I asked nonchalantly. He looked off at the horizon. �The most beautiful girl I�ve ever seen. She�s stunning Trunks. Smart too! I�ve never- � I fell off the log. �You ok?� he asked eyeing me carefully. I couldn�t speak I couldn�t breathe. No no no! He�s� he�s supposed to love me� My thought trailed off. I couldn�t lift a finger. I was in shock. I thought for sure he wanted me, only me. �baka� I whispered in hatred for myself. �You ok�� �NO!� I shot back. Enough energy coursed through my body to allow me to slump on a tree. He recoiled in surprise. �Trunks�� he was going to change the subject. I could hear it coming right about� �So!� what did I tell you. I couldn�t concentrate on whatever he was yapping about. I couldn�t take it any more. �shut up� I ordered. I gathered all the ki I could and rose to my feet. I couldn�t look into those eyes. I couldn�t. I�d be helpless. Id tell him everything. How I�ve always adored him. How I've always admired his personality, his charm. His beauty. I knew he was making that face of his. I knew him all to well. I thought. I looked off to the side avoiding his eyes. Yep. His brow was knitted together in confusion. �what�s wrong Trunks?� I looked back at his chest, not really looking at anything, just trying to keep my eyes open. �nothing you can fix baka� I stumbled past him. I had to get out of here. I kept stumbling forward trying to regain my composer. I was about 10 feet from him when he called out. �Trunks, so who are you in love with anyways?� he forced out cheerfully. He had to have known the answer. I glanced over my shoulder at his form. Perfectly accented by the cool milky moonlight. He looked like he was anxious� and nervous to hear my reply. �who are you in love with?� �baka� I looked back ahead of me. �You�. It�s been 5 days since that night. Id just as soon forget it. I can live with myself anymore. It�s too much. I�ve made an ass out of myself in front of my best friend. In front of the boy I love. With all my heart. He, he wont touch me anymore. Not even casually. I don�t know, mabey he�s afraid� of what I don�t know. Or mabey he�s uncomfortable with me after what happened. I don�t blame him. I blame myself. I�m always so astute when it comes to reading people. Why couldn�t I see it? I was blinded by love that�s why. �enough� I whispered. I felt this was the way to go. I unsheathed a razor sharp Tanto. I�ve heard that when you bleed to death alone. You feel as if your being forgiven for your incompetence. You feel more and more at peace with each drop lost. I needed that now. I needed to feel eternal peace. I needed to leave all of this crap behind. I brought the tip to my left wrist. I closed my eyes and pressed the blade into my flesh. I was elsewhere. I pulled the blade out of my arm slowly. Feeling the metal. My nose was permeated with the coppery scent of blood. I felt it run down my forearm to my elbow. I handed the weapon of my destruction over to the left. I leveled it on my right wrist. And pressed deep into my forearm. Blood now covered he knife and my arms. I held the instrument at eye level. So simplistic in design. And yet. So, so deadly. I fell to my knees and tossed the blade to my side. My shoulders slumped and my hands rested on the dust below me. My vision blurred just as a graceful orange shape appeared in the distance. Too late. I fell over face first onto the ground. �too late baka� I smiled. I felt my body turned over. My eyes fluttered. My head was in his lap. His face so� pained. So hurt. I felt my body being pressed to his. He hugged me. I felt his face in my hair. His kissed my hair. �Your not going to die today my little Trunks-chan.� The bleeding stopped. He healed me. I snuggled into his embrace. So warm and comforting. �I�m sorry� I choked faintly. �forgive me Goten� I pleaded. He pulled me closer. I settled my head onto his chest and drifted off. �Of course� Right before I fell to sleep, I felt a tear hit my cheek. And it wasn�t mine. Owari �My cut into pieces This is my last resort. Suffocation No breathing. Don�t give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding. This is my last resort.� -�Papa roach� READ THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!READ THIS!!!!!!!!!!! I�m in a mood. So I challenge ALL writers on the net to send or write your best sad fic for Dragonball or Gundam. I don�t cry easily. I haven�t read a fic yet that has made me. If your fic makes me even close to crying, I will be more than happy to send your fic to EVERY website I can find so that the other ficcie junkies out there can read the most exquisite work available |