April 7th, 2004
A new blog?

Hm... Ever since Xanga was taken off the SAS list of things-to-do-during-free, I thought that it might be quite a nice change to start a new blog. (Not that this is a bad thing though.)

I really like my Xanga blog, I admit. However, when it comes to the point of me trying to make a new layout for it, I'm adamant about the idea. I admit, I'm too lazy for this kind of business - and I have homework to do.

So, I came up with an alternative: Use my geocities site to make a new blog for myself. I don't know how often I will update in this, or when I'll try to fuss around with the layout. Still, the whole idea of a change is quite relaxing - something for me to do, a project of sorts, while I'm halfway lazing off after Peace Initiative Slideshow.

This blog, I assure you, will show the unfettered me - the true soul inside myself. As long as no one tries to go here, I'm perfectly fine. I think...

Anyways, onto the day...

Today was relatively alright. I don't mean that in a bad way, because I usually like school days. However, today was a little bit different. Today was the assembly. The assembly where I was supposed to speak for Media and Government Censorship.

Knowing me, you would think that I would be highly disturbed. However, I wasn't just disturbed. I was nerveracked.

Consider this. How many people would you think would try to strive in all the honors classes that their school has to offer for their age group, and still find time to work on about five/six different extracurricular activities?

Dang it. I'm one of those very scary people. As a result, I've been killing my grades (if you count just getting on Honor Roll killing your grades), and working my butt off on everything that I've encountered. Not that it's made my parents happy. So far this year, I've managed to make my parents pay a lot of money to get me certified in Rock Climbing to the highest level that SAS could offer (level two) - and then I can't rock climb because of my fear of heights. I've dedicated my heart and soul to MUN, only to have my hopes dashed upon the rocks of BEIMUN. Of course, it irks them to see me do this with my life, but I honestly like doing what I'm doing right now.

Thus, this slideshow was the perfect opportunity for me to show what I was made of. Speak in front of people - that gets the confidence up. I'd be getting practice for MUN next year; I'd do research; I'd do...

Alright, so my speech was pretty much alright. It was fun to do - except I got really nervous because of everyone (and I mean everyone) was looking at me (and the Powerpoint), so I started stuttering and slowing down. Not good. Fortunately enough, it was better than all the other rehearsals, so I guess that it was alright...

Strangely enough, the people who complimented me I don't even know. Many upperclassmen said, "good job," which would leave me confused over who they were. The teachers loved complimenting me (which was disturbing), and my fellow freshmen? At first, they didn't say anything, I swear. Then, they started to lecture me on how I should've presented.

Anything from "You should have spoken clearer. Your speech-making's improved, but I think you'll need time for BEIMUN" (Rebecca - excuse me!?!) to "You became slightly quiet, and your face was turning red." (Anit). Some freshmen complimented me (Sam, Hye-Sung), which made me feel moderately impressed. Overall, it was an experience to remember...

Argh, I really should go - I'm leaving for an unwanted vacation to Penang, where I'll have to spend lazy days. Oh, joy...