Well.. just to make probably my last blog for 2004. O.O What a thought... A year, see at one point, during the beginnings of this year I used to blog nearly every few days, ahh what simplicity. Then I used to blog what was going on in life then but now I seem to be doing more reflections here (if ever) and writing what actually happens elsewhere. A lot has actually changed this year and with half of it I don't know where I'm going. I met a lot of new people this year and well, quite truthfully, some of them have changed me.

Mallou... thinking about it - I met Mallou over a year ago really and never dreamed that a year later, what happened between us would have. He changed me. He knows he did. But I wanna say, thanks Mallou and it's okay, I know I'm never gonna tell you that but oh well. He knows what I mean by that anyway.

One of my other BBK friends got in trouble with the police today.. no more said on that matter but shiiiit.. I KNEW that was coming. He should have known better It did change a little to the day however - I ended up sitting on the wall outside Yuki's house watching the goings on at my friends, everyone stood outside talking for the longest time so I went to go visit one of my other friends and when I came back everyone had gone >.< Fine then.

Ooopss.... no blog for over a month -_-' I shall get over that fact now lol. Well we are truely into exams now at school, I had my Chemistry exam last Wednesday I think it was which was good and all seen as I revised for it quite a bit. The only major problem was that I forgot how to draw an Ester when I opened the organic chemistry booklet but then remembered five minutes later. All is well. The problem now is that I was all fine revising.. blah blah.. exam.. oh one exams over lets stop ALL revision now!! No!! I can't do that! I have my english exam THIS Tuesday and I haven't even started memorizing my essays yet arrrghhh -_-'''

For some reason this keyboard is making my wrist ache owww. Perhaps that is because I am on the family computer and not my precious laptop due to the fact precious laptop doesnt like to cooperate and open this site at. all. >.<

I found episode spoilers last night for Tru Calling - VERY disappointing - the series gets cancelled six episodes into the second series *evil eyes* Pity. I love Harrison ^__^ He's so cool! Especially last nights episode (think thats about episode 14? I'll have to check) He had to wait for Tru and while he was there Davis found him locked in a crypt! Amusement!

Hmm parents are currently going on about value of our house >.< which is now valued, in case anyone particularly wants to know, at $230,000. Thats quite a lot actually. Lets hope my parents dont get any silly ideas of moving house again because I certainly am NOT moving from Bellblock!! At least not until the end of next year when I have to because I will be going to university.

Speaking of people around here I am on a total FRIENDS basis with Mallou now. End of that. I haven't seen a lot of them lately thinking about that. Maybe they have all fallen off the planet, wouldnt be surprising. Oh, Kane's in Auckland so he has an excuse. For some reason I'm putting off txting him.. I don't know why..

^_^ *jumps around* I FORGOT!!! ZED ARE HOME!! *celebrates* They came home on .. the 8th of November I recall! And they are playing at Hamilton Christmas At (IN) The Lake on December 5th - ^__________^ We are SO going! *bounces around due to slash of entire event*
Lissa - like the toaster that Nathan has and Ben with his iron ^_^ lolz

Oh and damn I have to leave now - possibly to study possibly to procrastinate like I was before, playing Gameboy Advance game behind pretending to read my English essays.

Starsigns are so peculiar. Mine this week says that it is a perfect time for resolving issues and romance. Well I did talk to Carmello this morning. When he got off the bus I told him what had happened, he was rather defensive about it and tried to avoid answering me. Oh well but Richard and Carmello walked with me to the school.

I finally did my role play in English at school *sighs* it was fun actually. In graphics I noticed there is an empty box of chocolate labeled �Caramello� on a shelf � I tried not to laugh� Physics was hilarious. Shev noticed a bug crawling on her book so she drew lines around it and it actually didn�t cross the lines! Amazing. Then she threw her jersey out the window -_- odd but yes. After school I heard some interesting talk from one of the groups of girls on the bus. I am sure they were talking about Carmello anyway. I walked home with Kholl who told me how he made Joseph pay him so that Joseph could meet this �hot� girl who wasn�t hot at all. Yeah, and he�s annoyed at me and Carmello. ITS NOT MY FAULT DAMMIT. Actually it sort of is but hmm� Oh and WHY must Kirsty get off the bus at my bus stop now? Its most annoying -_-

In other news now.. One of my friends just came back from Europe and she has The Rasmus CDS *jealousness* OMG AND THEY HAVE THAT PIC OF LAURI AND EERO!!!! *dies* I can�t believe they published that on their CD cover!!!! O.O
Lead: Ahhaahah so cuuuuutteeee � ahem�
FLAME: I wish I could damn well download the music *kills*
w-inds: OOOOOOOH now there�s a lot of this stuff I can get off KaZaA.
L�Arc~en~Ciel: I downloaded a live performance of I�m So Happy and it has Sakura in it!!! SAKUUUURRAAA!! Lol.. such slash between him and Hyde ^^ Sakura x Hyde!!!
Reset: I need to find more stuff out about this *looks annoyed*

Apologies for not blogging in like� ever!
And look at the time � the end of the third term holidays already. This gives me such weird memories of last term holidays. Strangely enough I didn�t know Carmello then. In fact I only knew Kholl and Joseph. Well technically I knew Mellow and he certainly hit on me then but it wasn�t the situation it is now. I didn�t even know Richard existed this time last holidays� bizarre.. and weird but hey!

Another weird occurrence is that I saw Darren last holidays and I saw him these holidays just last night. He showed up at my house at nine last night with Alex and JP. Haha poor Darren; they sent him to knock on the door! He looks so very much more respectable than the Bellblock lot I hang around. Darren is awesome though and so is JP. He�s real cool. He said he didn�t approve of �some stuff� but he�d done that before so he was cool with it if I was going to and that just to be careful. Seen as he is twenty-two I suppose he knows what he�s talking about. We went around Bellblock area in Darren�s car and saw a hedgehog up on Airport Road (yes it�s actually called that.) So cute! We went into town and Alex spilt wine on his top. They were most ridiculous. JP and Alex had wine in glasses they had taken from the motel. This was all fine until a police car started following us! We lost that and went to the motel Darren and JP are staying at because they are from Auckland. Darren�s parents don�t even know he was in New Plymouth! Darren showed us these random photos of a Chinese takeaway place he�d taken (he�s really random like that) and tried to get the stain out of Alex�s top with salt. JP relabeled the wine �Country Shit� because he reckons it is the worst wine he�s ever tasted.

We went for a drive downtown (what is there of it?) and Darren took his pillow O.o There�s some real hard out people in town on Saturday nights. And police cars everywhere. The funniest incident was when Darren pulled up the car beside these two guys who were obviously selling drugs, JP told him not to stop there then commented the guys looked like male hookers not realizing Alex�s window was open -_- We decided not to go past them again. Instead we went up to Brooklands park and when JP and Alex got out of the car, Darren drove off! We went back though after Darren nearly spilt wine all over me doing a real sharp turn -_- I seem to have a memory blank but we ended up at the back entrance of Brooklands park (where Misha and I walked in the dark that time at Womad� memories!!!). It was hell pitch black and really freaky. All was fine until JP says �I saw this movie where the people didn�t want to go into the woods..� and Darren screamed!! Literally! I identified the movie as �The Village� (Great movie) then Darren hid behind me because he didn�t want to go into the forest looking part anymore! He ran back and hid behind the car so we decided to leave.. lol. We ended back up at the motel where we saw this hard out drunk guy who started running at the car.

So� that ends holidays.. and back to school.. I�m just wondering what the hell this term is going to bring.. Will have a prediction tomorrow.. *gulps* Haha.

Yes.. first blog for entire of September.. actually I wouldnt say entire of September as this certainly isnt the end of September but oh well. I just re-read my last blog entry now.. hmm.. WEIRD! Considering I was about to blog about Levi again! Hah.. last blog entry mentions Richard wanting to steal my necklace, well he did! But I got his still. Ok.. Onto other matters now. Oooh Shev is online! Anyway.. FAR TO MANY "..." things!! *calms* I am currently talking to Levi on MSN and can't get over the fact he's so nice!! *dies* oh that's not the point. The point is I know far to much about someone really, its quite weird. I can think of four major things I know about this person that no one else apart from them and their closer friends know O.O (by the way this isn't anyone at school in case anyone was wondering).

Today was good, even though there was only Anthony, a few other idiots and Carmello on the bus after school >.< The latter who was staring at me. May or may not be the fact that he got a random txt from an unknown number (unknown for him anyway) that said "did you know the first flourescent lightbulb was invented by a filipino?" The point of that was that my friend at school wanted to txt that to someone so I told her to txt it to a filipino and we spent ages trying to think of anyone!! Then I felt stupid.. (Carmellos Filipino).

I went to Kholl's house after school, totally unplanned - he just came to his doorway and yelled out to me as I was walking home. That was all good and Richard was there. They had a half day and that was why they were home early. Richard was wrapped in a duvet and offered to share it with me which was nice of him ^^ We watched anime and I think they were amazed I knew as much about DBGT as them! Haha then Nicola showed up to rescue her phone from Richard as he had taken it for the day. Nicola and I talked for awhile then Kholl just left so us three did aswell once DBGT had finished.

Anyway will finish blogging later.. I think Shev wants to read this! lol.

Its so strange, I remember making a blog entry about eight months ago on a day like this. How weird. Ignoring that now�

THE RASMUS � IN THE SHADOWS IS NUMBER ONE IN NEW ZEALAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Isn�t that great!!! And on Thursday I think there was a half hour focus on The Rasmus on C4!!!! OMG But my friend in Christchurch missed it!!!!!! She is utterly obsessed with The Rasmus too!!! Nooooooo!!!! She just emailed me to tell me that� awww *hugs*

In other news, yesterday Michelle came to my house after school so she got to meet Richard, Kholl, etc. Richard was real nice to us as well which isn�t unusual but isn�t entirely usual either. And he is still on about how he wants to steal my necklace, he said yesterday that he would swap it for his. I think I may agree to this on Monday. Oh and I was looking at these MSN convos I had with Levi about a month ago and realized how NICE he was in them! Except from the �suck on it� comment but that was incredibly amusing then and still is now except I didn�t know him very well then. This is for you Shev; In one of the convos I asked him if he were gay (I don�t know why� I wouldn�t dare now..) and he replied �Its up to you� LOL.

Seen as I am here and I feel like typing I shall blog ^^ Today was a half day at our school but I didnt find that out until we were halfway to school on the bus >.< It was amusing because both Carmello and I sat up and said "what?!" at the same time. Kholl being the nice guy said that he and Kane could give me a lift home in Kane's car. Today at school was pretty much a waste of time. In Graphics I got to go on the net for an hour and check Zed's online diary ^^ And Andy had made an entry in it!! Cute! *cough* That is OF COURSE not what I spend my graphics lesson doing of course not!!! *shifty eyes* Oh well.

I walked up the road to meet Kholl and Kane at lunchtime and knew damn well that it would'nt be just them. No, it was them, Levi and Richard. Kholl sat on the backseat so that I could sit in the front then we drove back to Bellblock. Arrgh! And Levi is DODGY! Richard was smiling at me and Kholl was embarrassing Kane by telling me that Kane still loves me. Yeah. Right. Kane stalled his car at the intersection as well because Levi was telling him to speed through the red light and Kane didnt know what to do so he effectively stalled causing everyone to laugh at him, poor guy.

Now I really, really want to see Moonchild! For anyone who doesnt know, its a Japanese movie which has stars such as Hyde (*squeals*) and Gackt. Its apparantly not a good movie but I want to see it because it has HYDE in it and also has slashy moments!!! Whee!! *sighs* Don't know if it will ever be released here in New Zealand though -_- Another thing I am really hoping for is that The Rasmus - In The Shadows gets to number one, they have supposed to have updated the charts but NOOOOO!!

Zed have released their new single "Firefly" in New Zealand! Or not ACTUALLY released seen as it doesnt have a music video or is even in the CD stores yet >.< lol. Oh well, they say to request it to speed that process up so do so people!

Anyway, that wasnt the main point of this blog entry... Today was interesting I shall say.. At school we had half of lunch and fourth spell off where year 12 went to the careers expo, Shev, Lissa and I listened to our discmans while walking around. Or rather, Shev and Lissa tried to listen to the same discman but that didnt work very well.
On the bus on the way home someone got beaten up. Brilliant that. That's why I'm annoyed because I knew both of them and the one who got beaten up didnt deserve it at all.

I went for a walk this evening and met up with Kholl, Richard, Kane and Levi. And well.. RICHARD..*shakes head* I'm so confused by them.. anyway, Levi tried to jump his bike across the steam thats in the walkway and he crashed instead >.< haha.

Argh, I gotta go now. That's about all I feel like discussing anyway, lol.

Several things have happened this week (or not this week but who really cares)
1. I decided to blog, which is a rare occurence these days.

After about three (or more) weeks of wanting to dump Alex he broke up with me *looks shocked* Oh well, its not like I really care, I probably wont even think about him again.

I went to the Spotswood ball on Saturday and I talked to Candace there. People at Spotswood are actually really nice and I saw a lot of people I know randomly O.o

I decided that I don't like Carmello anymore. He keeps randomly hitting on me then swearing at me if I say anything back to him. On Monday he even went as far as to hit me really hard on the arm when I shoved him sideways for throwing leaves at me >.< Its kinda confusing...

Richard may or may not like me. *decides not to say anymore on this point at the time* Definetely considering this is basically how the whole situation with Carmello started... hmmm...

What is with people at school!?ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGHHHHHHH *feels like killing them all* Some people are fine then I go and discover... argh!!! NOOOOOOO. No wonder I only like going to and from school each day (because I get to talk to the idiot Asian guys on my bus).

Misha's been away from school lately >.< Oh she just txtd me! Yeah, anyway..

Okay am back to make a longer blog entry now..not that it will make sense to anyone..
Max, I actually know that you read this so I'll ask you here. Why'd she ask if she didnt want to know? If she knew the answer anyway? Thats just pointless. I also need a bit of your useful advice ^^ hah. I think you know what oy? How'd they make it so it always works - now I've gone and fucked someone off for doing that. IT JUST DOESNT. Argh, actually I shall end this pointless blogging seen as it seems to be rambling etc. Oh great. Now another person isnt talking to me... >.<

Me?! Blogging again! Must be a miracle. In other news - I have become obsessed with L'Arc~en~Ciel again ^_^ more with SAKURA this time O.O.... Sakura?! *dies* Neway, I still like Hyde (pronounced Haido) ^^ I just seem to jump from one obsession to another -_- Never fear! I am still obsessed with The Rasmus and Zed.

From left to right; Hyde, Ken, Tetsu, Yukihiro. Admittedly not the best picture of them at all. I was going to put a picture of Sakura here but I couldnt be bothered cutting and pasting the slashy one I found of him with Hyde. (Sakura quit L'Arc~en~Ciel in 1997 after being arrested for posessing drugs).

It seems I havent blogged for ages and this is just a quick note to let you all know I am still here... I am so pathetically lazy with blogging and so much has happened. Oh well *sighs*

The Rasmus - In the Shadows is number five here in the singles chart in New Zealand ^_^ *jumps* Yayyya! Oh and I downloaded the music video for their next single - Guilty. Lauri looks even cuter than before! But very, very thin -_- (in case people havent guessed I'm totally obsessed with The Rasmus now.

I am rather short on time here considering
1. I have an english creative writing assessment due in tomorrow and I havent started it
2. I am too lazy to blog properly

Seen as I can't be bothered detailing yesterdays events I'll just summarize the best part. Mallou and I sat on the grass bit by the side of the road and talked and he admitted he liked me. I'm still confused today though..
Today, I must point this out that everytime I get a text I keep jumping because I keep thinking it is Carmallo.. lol.. I'm so pathetic.

But after school I was so convinced he was joking and that he didnt really like me.. so I texted him and asked and he didnt reply. So I wrote a letter. And I shall put it here because I feel like it.

I guess I say I blame all of them for just leading me on like that. Blah. I don't understand how he could be perfectly friendly or not. Its so confusing to have a different opinion about someone each day. Whats worse is that I did like him. Like I did with someone else about a year ago. If it were just any other guy I wouldnt be so bothered much but with Carmello its just ten times worse. I just think its awful how he cant give me an answer and how he was so nice on Wednesday. Maybe he did like me then probably the others pushed him too much with it. If it hadnt been for Carmello I probably would have stayed with Alex. It just can't work -
OMG FUCK MELLOW JUST REPLYED
Oh, I am stupid.
Carmello 22/07 05:33pm
Soz I juz txtd u now. um nah i wasnt jokin.

uhhhhhh... DAMN?
OH NO OH NO OH NO OH NO
Oh I'll shut up now and hide in a corner. I can't even get the nerve to ask him if he LIKES me. Oh now this completely reverses the situation. HE SAID SORRY. MG.

Okay thats all of the letter I'm putting here.. the rest got to personal..

I have had the busiest ever two days back at school! Some of it good, some of it bad. I guess the most random thing yesterday was when my friend (yes, I'm not even naming her this time!) took her bra off at lunchtime then put it back on over her school uniform. If you think thats bad enough she then proceeded to walk to next class (chemistry) with it like that. Some junior informed her that they were going to buy that bra aswell. Oh god it was hilarious - all teachers completely looked the other way including our chemistry teacher. Thankfully she put it back on properly during chemistry!

Oh I realised I just forgot to describe the events of getting to school on Monday..I'll do that now. First things first, a couple of the Asian guys were burning a seat outside one of the school classrooms by our bus stop with (I later found out) a firework >.< I also discovered that morning that I have completely fallen for one of the guys on my bus. I'm kinda reluctant to put their names here especially due to the fact that there are some people I don't want for them to know this. But seriously I have. When I saw him I couldn't stop smiling the whole way to school even though he walked right past me because he didnt see me >.< Oh well.

After school was when the asian guys set another firework off which nearly hit a tree but it was good because Mallou walked with me all the way home. However there were some things he said to me.. such as that he had seen me in town with my boyfriend when I KNOW he didnt because I wasnt even with my boyfriend that day -_-. THEN he tells me that I snobbed him because I didnt say hi! Well! I didnt even see him! A couple of minutes later he asked me if I was doing anything this weekend.. oops I gave completely the wrong response.. Oh well..

Today, Tuesday, the day of bizarre happenings. Actually I didnt have any weird or bizarre happenings until lunch when I got a txt from an unknown number saying how hot I was.. seriously I knew who it was right away though AND I was right. Then he starts telling me how the guy I like wants to go out with me *dies on spot* and in physics he finally txted me as follows:

...Zed are still going to be in Germany in August....? *said in very small voice* *wails* *cries* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo

I just made a blog entry but it got deleted because my laptop froze! grr.. anyway it went along the lines of me being utterly happy because I discovered a German site about Zed - A PROPER OFFICIAL ONE!!! Wheeehheeehe *bounces off walls* I literally shrieked then remembered how late it was.. and they are releasing This Little Empire in Germany!! It has a different cover and I saved that of course but still! Here we are so you can stare at the undying cuteness of Andy Lynch.. ok, ok.. Universal Rock.. hehe! There are music videos and everything!

OH MY... WHAT HAS NATHAN DONE TO HIS HAIR!??? He looks like he is wearing a BOWL ON HIS HEAD *dies* Or else its a hat.. I can't quite see. Shall click on the link to the proper size photo and make observations from there :P Ooh.. but computer is being an utmost pain and not opening it.. I guess I'll never know... Actually I'll get Shev *winks* to get them so we can see the mushroom hair of hedgehog boy. Plus Andy looks OLD *sulks*

BLING!! We wanted pics of them in Germany!! Well the link above is where to go!!! *insane laughter*
...It appears that Adrian is growing his hair in a shape of a spike...*smothers laughter in pillow* Andy looks freaking stoned and Nathan doesnt have so much of a mushroom haircut as I thought.. Ben just looks like Ben.
Omg.. I just found a picture of Andy in a shirt with PINK writing!!! *points and laughs* He looked really adorable in it though
Is it just me or has Nathan suddenly done a lot of ageing? He looks like an OLD MAN! *makes note never to tell Lissa this* Oh wait! SHE already INSULTED Andy!! Disturbing.. Anyway, the pictures of Zed in the Berlin Showcase focus too much on Nathan.. eh..
HOOHOOO! Shev! There is a picture of Ben hitting himself in the face with his OWN guitar!! ROTFL!

Overall Comment: There are some good pics there especially the one of Ben looking like an insane mass murderer crossed with a ghost. Some really WEIRD ones of Nath too for instance where he looks like he's masturbating with the microphone..again.. he seems to like doing that for some odd reason. Theres also a picture where he resembles Jason from Friday the Thirteenth.. For me.. not enough of Andy!! Grr.. Lissa has traumatized me with that image she invented.. *evil eyes* I nearly die everytime I see a picture of him!

It occured to me that some people who read my blog have utterly no clue as to who any of the Zed guys are, to resolve this I shall put a picture of them here ^^

The blond one on the far left with dreads is Andy ^^, next to him is Ben looking strange (he doesnt USUALLY look like he's going bald!). Next along is Nathan (in front of everyone else of course) with his RANDOM HAIR and on the far right is Adrian..

And this is them only two months before Germany. Change huh. Here we have the tall pole like one on the far left is Adrian, standing in front of him is Andy ^^ (yes he is VERY short), Ben is the one on the car (lol! he HAS changed) and then theres Nathan.. Mr. Perfect.. in front of everyone again >.<

OMG What is with me and spilling every secret to everyone!??? *dies* Anyway because I don't really want to put that HERE...

In other news, I hate my laptop. It has a virus and macromedia flash player has randomly stopped working which means... *shock* I can't get into the {Zedquarters} site!!! *kills* But hopefully we can get the computer person to fix that.. hopefully... they have a German site to! here: Zed Germany

Next point! The Rasmus are great!!! *skips* I love their songs! Argh, after all this I run out of things to blog about. Anyway I have wasted half of today by only getting up at one in the afternoon seen as I only went to sleep at six thirty this morning (lol, I was planning to watch the sunrise ok... *friends probably kill themselves with laughter due to how new fanfic starts out*)Speaking of that, new fanfic, heh. And in another point I found lots of new Zed pics last night on this site: ZFU. They updated and have pics from when Zed performed at Sky City, E-Time and from Germany ^-^. SPEAKING OF E-TIME... they are having a competition for people under 15 to make a music video for Zed then the winners get to meet them! IM SO JEALOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Technically it is Wednesday. WEDNESDAY OH MY GOD!! WHERE HAS THE HOLIDAYS GONE!? *calms* It doesnt really matter anyway. Yesterday (Monday) I had lunch it town with Shev where we looked at these incredibly dodgy Zed pics spread across the table we were sitting at while listening to my Zed CD on my discman. In our effort to find the Silencer Tour CD we went to Sounds, then another music place then the Warehouse to find it... it was all sold out.. I even went to the freaking Warehouse in Bellblock and they didnt even have SILENCER or THIS LITTLE EMPIRE! *dies* In fact they had NOTHING! NOTHING OF ZED at all!! Grr... oohoo online search for it ey..

Anyway today I went to the movies with Alex which was fun...

... Then saw the Andy look-a-like guy outside the movies that Shev and I saw in town in Monday *dies laughing*

Well there we go, I finally get a new layout eyh? Hmm, and now I have nothing to blog. This is ridiculous! Oh ok then, I had a msn convo with Darren today ^^ Yesterday was more interesting, Shev and I got sort of drunk on a bottle of wine and laid in her bedroom laughing and pretending to be sober when making coffee in the kitchen. Anyway I just got told that Shev is currently taking photo's of herself in the mirror. SHEV! Honestly!! Ahem.

I have something to blog about now. Alex. He confuses me... he's not how I thought he'd be... and in thought, he needs to have a life other than thinking about me. I suppose it should be good that he likes me so much but still...

Crush Gear Turbo!! Yep! Turned the T.V. on today and see episodes after the ones they cut on T.V.3!!! Hehehe! *bounces around* But not a slashy episode *pouts* And no Takeshi *pouts more*

I just realised it is weird not having texts from stalker boy...

Note for Shev: I was talking to an online friend the other night who reads my blog and she said to me that it sounded like I was best of friends with you seen as how much I mention you, etc. I replied to her that it was strange that we have known each other for so long but now cannot talk meaningful (lol that makes sense to you anyway). She asked me why. I replied and then realised, and I shall finally tell you; its because I didn't want you see I've been growing up. Then we have another problem. Do you know how weird it is when I see you say all that stuff about certain friends - the ones that you find annoying but you'd never tell them straight to their face? Well I'm scared that if I hang around you to much you'll do that to me.. I hope thats ok.. See you tomorrow anyway.

Well I guess I just told that to the whole world.. might as well let them know.

I just found it weird what you said in MSN. It might just be me but you said that you couldnt send me that fanfic because you couldnt take anymore critisism like you knew I'd critisize it.. But I wouldn't because 1) It's commendable if you send your writing to someone (in my case, especially if it is a friend because it matters more what they say in response to it).
2) I wouldn't critisize you because I'd hate it if you took offense to it and even though you may appear to think I always do I'm usually only joking. Sorry for that eh.
Well it just may be my interpreting skills...