You ask me how I`m feeling,
But do you really want to know?
The moment I try telling you,
You say you have to go.
How can I tell you,
What it`s been like for me,
I am haunted, I am broken,
By things you do not see.
You ask how I`m holding up,
But do you really care?
The second I try to speak my heart,
You start squirming in your chair.
Because I am so lonely,
You see know-one comes around,
I`ll take the words I want to say,
And quietly choke them down.
Everybody avoids me now,
Because they don`t know what to say,
They tell I`ll be there for you,
Then turn and walk away.
Call if you need me,
That`s what everybody said,
But how can I call you and scream,
MY GOD, MY SON is dead?
No-one will let me,
Say the words I need to say,
Why does a mother`s grief,
Scare everyone away.
I am tired of pretending,
As my heart pounds in my chest,
I say things to make you comfortable,
But my soul finds no rest.
How can I tell you things,
That are to sad to be told,
Of the helplessness of holding your child,
Who in your arms, grows cold.
Maybe you can tell me,
How one should behave,
Who`s had to follow their child`s casket,
Watched it perched above a grave?
You cannot imagine,
What it was like for me that day,
To place a final kiss upon that box,
And have to turn and walk away.
If you really love me,
And I believe you do,
If you really want to help me,
Here is what I need from you.
Sit down beside me,
Reach out and take my hand,
Say"I`ve come to listen,
I want to understand"
Just hold my hand and listen,
That`s all you need to do,
And if by chance I shed a tear,
It`s alright if you do to.
I swear that I`ll remember,
Till the day I`m very old,
The one who sat and held my hand,
And let me bare my soul.
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