June 2003

June 1, 2003 (3:09am) I'm sooooo drunk. June 2, 2003 (4:10am) I've decided: I'll never get inebriated again. Okay. Well, that's a lie. But a nice thought. It's just that I don't like myself when I'm drunk. I mean, nothing fun happens. That's probably why I only drink maybe once every six months. Pfft. You'd think that living practically alone, with no job prospects, no outlets, no love, I'd be more inclined to sleep in a bottle. Go figure. It's the damnedest thing. This music makes no sense. I'm used to whiny mopey cranky loser music. Not this jingly-jangly stuff. I'm just old and empty. Beware! Dammit. June 3, 2003 (3:33am): I guess I should mention Wha Jasia 4, which was on Saturday. And I did. Mission complete. C'mon, say something nice, say something nice... I...um... I'm thinking. Really. Oh, the hell with it. Let's just say that I'm more "Elizabeth On The Bathroom Floor" than "A Daisy Through Concrete" right now. Oh, and the (fabled) tax refund I've been waiting for forever, the one that was gonna throw the yoke of unimaginable burden from me, isn't actually on its way. Someone in the IRS found a loophole through which they can deny my petition. So after waiting for nine months I get a swift punch in the gut and shove out the door. Everything I was waiting for was never actually on its way. June 3, 2003 (4:35pm): Why is it so cold today? I woke up and it's about 60F. It's JUNE THIRD already! Where's the sunshine? All I got is rain today. *Sigh* June 5, 2003 (3:08am): My favorite word at the moment is mighty. But in the case that it denotes an extent. As in mighty cold or mighty fine. Why don't people use this word more often? I just don't know about people sometimes. June 5, 2003 (3:26pm): There's a conspiracy against me. Perpetrated by the pharmaceutical companies. They want me outta the picture Why is cold medicine so fucking expensive! The average cold medicine, for sinus and allergy stuff, is about eight bucks right now. Eight dollars! I'm better off suffering the illness than plunking down eight bucks for cold medicine. But the conspiracy, you see, is that they all know I can't afford that price for medicine, so I'll end up dying of a runny nose or something. Hence, the herd is thinned. They want me outta the picture, I say.

June 6, 2003 (5:35pm): Okay, so I broke down and got some cold medicine. It's...made...me...slee...py... I was hoping the tiredness came from emotional exhaustion or just plain worn-outness, but no. It's artificial. Pfft. I should be doped up on any number of anti-crazy medications, but what's that old saying? "My soul is bleeding but I must honor the wound?" Something like that. Who wants to kill their mind with medications? Depression, anxiety, any number of disorders can really mess you up, but... I dunno. I think I'd rather take the punches. June 9, 2003 (8:08pm): I've been writing things elsewhere. Things that should go in here. Egad. What have I done? June 10, 2003 (11:44pm): I bought my Eels tickets today. One for Detroit and one for DC. Yay! I fear I'm the only one who's excited about it. Anyway, I have to figure out how to get to DC and what to do there. Hrm. June 14, 2003 (3:24am): I feel kinda guilty about posting stuff elsewhere and not here, so I'm gonna add an "appendix" of sorts, collecting all the stuff from there. Well, the stuff that's not nonsense or just pictures of robots I've drawn. But just for sake of form, lately I've been banned from my favorite message board, I've pretty much figured out I'm not going back to college any time soon, and...well, all the usual. June 21, 2003 (4:08am): Hmm. I think I'll stop using this site to update the ol' Schlomo Daily Monitor. It's a huge pain in the neck to go through all the logging in and page loading just to write a few lines of throw-away nonsense. I can do that elsewhere, with this nifty program that loads a journal thingie right away. Little work on my part, which is always good. It's just the same junk I write here anyway, so I might switch it all over every month or so, just for old time's sake.

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