�Warrick, can you start logging in the evidence while I go talk to Grissom? I want him to check on Sara.� Catherine and Warrick had spent the entire shift interviewing the bank manager and gathering photos and evidence. They needed to log in the evidence before they could leave. And shift was just about over.
Catherine had informed Grissom by text message that she had sent Sara home. She didn�t want Grissom to have too much information too soon. She wanted to give Sara time to figure out how she would tell him about the pregnancy.
Catherine let her mind wander to fifteen years ago when she found out she was pregnant with Lindsay. The panic still gripped her when she thought about having a baby then. She was dancing and doing drugs and was not equipped to handle a baby. Now, she was even more aware of what there was to panic about.
She and Lindsay hadn�t gotten along for some time. It was difficult to be a mom with no one to lean on. Even when Eddie was alive, he was no help with Lindsay. He was more of a playmate to her than a father. Now that Lindsay was a teenager, the pitfalls were even greater. Knowing if or when to take her to the doctor when she had a fever was one issue. Knowing whether or not to take her to the doctor for birth control was quite another.
Even knowing the heartache she had gone through with Lindsay, and how much more heartache there would be throughout her life, Catherine wouldn�t change the decision to have her daughter. The joys Lindsay had brought to her life far outweighed the anguish. How could she show that to Sara? With a sense of melancholy, she realized that all Sara ever heard from her was her travails as a single mother. No wonder Sara was reluctant to tackle the evils of motherhood that Catherine seemed to highlight in her life. On the surface, it was a lot to ask of a person.
But Sara would have Grissom to help. Grissom was probably the most brilliant man Catherine had ever met. He was kind and gentle, even if he was a bit clueless at times. With a good friend to keep him on the right track, she was certain he would be a great husband.
And father. She had seen him working with kids before. His calm but thorough explanation of events had endeared him to more than one distraught child. Once, after dispatching a newly orphaned youngster with a grieving relative, Catherine had asked him if he ever thought about having kids of his own. He responded, �When I was younger. But I�m too old now.� Apparently not.
What type of childhood must Sara have had to make her so certain she could not be a mother? Catherine�s childhood had been far from ideal. Yet her hesitancy to have her baby was due to drawbacks and problems with her lifestyle, not her parenting skills itself. Sara was so logical and detailed, even to the point of boring, that her lifestyle certainly was not an issue. Catherine couldn�t imagine what miseries would create such reluctance. She might not see eye-to-eye with Sara on a lot of things but she was convinced Sara would be a good mother. If only she gave herself the chance.
And that all hinged on Grissom. His reaction to the pregnancy was uncertain. If it was what she expected, she was certain his persuasive powers would convince Sara to have the baby. If he truly thought he was too old to be a father, he might encourage an abortion. If that was the case, maybe Catherine should start preparing herself for that possibility. Just because her happiness was wrapped up in her daughter didn�t mean everyone�s happiness depended on children. �Aunthood� might not be in her future.
Catherine finally found Grissom leaving the morgue. He was engrossed in the autopsy report in his hand. Catherine had to grab his arm to get his attention.
�Grissom, you need to stop by and check on Sara.�
�I need to finish this up. I�ll see her later.�
�I don�t think this can wait until later. You need to convince her to go to the doctor.�
This got his attention. �So you suspect something specific, Catherine?�
�I think she�s�I think she has complications. I talked to her about my suspicions. I�m very worried.�
�What is wrong with her, Catherine? You and Sara have never been close. What can be so serious that you are this concerned?� Grissom�s expression indicated suspicion.
�I can�t tell you. I promised her I wouldn�t say anything to you.� Catherine paused. Grissom looked at her with intensity, trying to gauge the seriousness of the situation.
�She�s going to need our support. You�re right. Sara and I haven�t been close. But you and she have been close in the past. So she�s especially going to need your support, Gil. Go to her now.�
After only a slight hesitation, Grissom turned and went to his office. Seconds later, with briefcase in hand, he hurried out the door.
And now began the hard part for Catherine. Waiting.