My love�
Another day has passed, yet the moments seem endless. Time passes so slowly when we are apart. My heart breaks a little more with each day that passes when we are not together. The last few months seem like a blur�so much has changed in both our lives. We have both started over � leaving the past behind.
I shall never forget the night we first met�There was something about you� that� drew me to you. To look within your gorgeous eyes was my very dream come true. All I knew was you were the one I have always searched for. We made a promise to each other � to live each day thankful, to never take the other for granted. A promise we have kept. You have changed my life in ways I never would have imagined. Since the first time you held me in your arms, I knew where I wanted to be. By your side � spending each new day with you!
I still remember our first kiss. One memory that brings a smile to my face and a playful sparkle to my eyes. To see the pain in your eyes melted my heart�so as I cupped your face in my hands�I placed a soft kiss upon your forehead. You turned to look up into my eyes ( I will never forget the look in your eyes), and it was as if all time ceased to exist. You slid your fingertips back into my hair�gently pulling me closer. I can still taste your sweet kiss�if I close my eyes, I�m back in that place�that moment in time. Oh, how I love kissing you. It�s as if I was made to kiss you � our bodies match in perfect rhythm� one of many things we do so well together.
You and I fit together so well. I just can�t get enough of you. We compliment each other. You give me so much strength and I give you balance. We pick up the other�s insecurities and carry the weight instead. It�s such an amazing feeling to know that no matter what, you are there for me. We are so good for one another. You are exactly what I needed in my life to feel complete. Sweetheart, you have completed me� only you. You�ve shown me the love I have dreamed of since I was a little girl. You rescued my heart from a lifetime of heartbreak and pain, restoring faith in love again. I have never loved another as much as I love you. When you hold me next to you�I have no doubts that you want me�for all the right reasons. You�ve shown me what it feels like to be respected, and to finally be treated like a lady. You are the only man who has ever held my hand for hours� just brushing your fingertips over mine. Just being with me, and enjoying each other. No hidden agenda, no preconceived notions� just holding me, touching me, loving me. Such small yet important gestures that mean the world to me. You treat me like a princess, and make me feel so very special. I hope you know that you are my prince.
My birthday� one more moment which I hold very dear to my heart. I knew you and the boys had been talking and planning something. I just wasn�t sure what. I realized my boys keep secrets well�They were so excited, knowing you trusted them with something so important as mommy�s birthday surprise. You and I had only been �seeing each other� for two weeks� yet you totally took my breath away when I opened the little box the boys gave me. I cried when I saw what the �secret� was. You went shopping, and found the most perfect gift anyone could ever ask for. A beautiful gold chain, with a gold charm saying �Mom� has been worn around my neck since that day. Buying cards from each of the boys (ones which I know you spent a lot of time picking out, because each one suited their personalities� they couldn�t have picked out better cards themselves). You really have no idea how much that meant to me. No one has ever done anything so special for me before. To include the boys like that, amazes me. You are so good to me, in every way. You spoil me, something that I�m not used to.
We had spent a lot of time dancing around the �I love you� conversation for some time� I guess between the two of us, we had our reasons for being cautious about opening our hearts enough to admit how we truly felt. The one night, as we lay in each other�s arms� you whispered how you were falling in love with me��and the boys�� I don�t think you really understood why that made me cry. Those words were ones which I was doubting I�d ever hear� I couldn�t have asked for anything more.
Even now, when you tell me that you love me, my heart skips a beat. Those 3 words are ones which I can never hear enough� and ones which I am so proud and honoured to be able to say to you.
I�ve never doubted you� or your love for me. You have opened your arms, your heart, and your life freely and without question�not only to me, but my sons. You have no idea how much that means to me. You are the man my boys need in their lives. The night you told me to tell them you loved them, is one I shall never forget. Every night I prayed that one day someone would love my little Angels�yes, they have a devilish side too� but my boys come first in my life� and they deserve the very best� and I will do everything within my power to make sure that happens. You are my every prayer come true. The love I see when you play with them, brings tears to my eyes. They have embraced you so quickly, they love you so much already. One thing that amazes me is how proud you are of them, and how fondly and openly you speak of them. We are so blessed to have you in our lives.
My heart aches when we aren�t together, I can�t wait for the day when we can fall asleep in each others arms and wake side by side in the morning. That is a moment I can�t wait for. It won�t become a reality soon enough. The moments we share together, give me strength while we are apart. I want us to be a family � every day � for the rest of our lives. I want to grow old with you � to share everything with you. I honestly can�t imagine my life without you in it. My greatest fear� losing you. You are everything to me and it scares me to death that one day I�ll look within your eyes and see disappointment. I fear that I won�t be the woman you need, or want me to be. That would be the day my heart would break and my spirit would die. I want to be �your everything�� to give you as much (and more) as you�ve given me. All I can do is prove my love to you every moment of every day. I want to be the woman you�ve always dreamed of.
Oh, how I love you. We can get through this � I trust in that. Frustration is eating at both of us right now but somehow, we can make it! Please just trust in my love for you and know that you are the only one that I want. There is no other who could ever hold my heart � because it belongs to you. It�s always been you! I love you � with all that I am, and ever shall be � every beat of my heart is for you�and our boys. We are a family�one in heart�one in mind�one in soul.