I met a man, a man I thought was only part of a dream. One day i was at my lowest point in my life and felt as if i just could not go on. My life was my friends online. I had my car packed full of my belongings i was going away but i didn't know where i just felt so alone and knew this place was not the place i needed to call home. I was saying goodbye to all my friends that i had made online. I accidently went into a chat room, something i never did there was one person sitting in this room they seemed to be lost and was'nt sure what to do so i said "hello" he responded in saying "hello" back we began talking and sharing where we lived. I don't know why but i paused and i thought i know this person thier soul speaks to mine like something familiar. It wasn't long before others began filling up in the chat room and i politely excused myself. I wanted to contine our talk but a woman began speaking to him and i felt he wanted to get to know her so i backed away and left the room. As i signed off line i felt this burning need to speak to this man again. Each day i'd watch him go off and on the internet without saying a word to him. Hoping he'd make the first move and speak to me. But little did i know the day we met this was his very first time on the internet and did'nt know how to contact me. A week went by i finally got the courage to say "hello" again. That afternoon we talked for over 6 hours non- stop. It was like a river of love had opened up for us both. We had, had a lifetime of being apart and had so much to share with one another. We shared many nights talking 11-12 hours and then phoning each other. Our love continued and grew stronger and stronger as the days went by. We prayed and hoped that we could be together very soon, but that day never came for us. A year went by and we were no closer to building our life together than when we first started. The pressure of waiting of praying of hoping eventually tore this love to shreds. I tried so hard to love him for the rest of my days i felt in my soul that god had placed this man in my life for a reason. I loved him so much and he returned his love to me. I was afraid of living my life away from him, i began to become angry and scared. So in the depths of my soul i told the only man i ever loved that i needed to leave him. This waiting was killing us both and we both knew it was near to impossible for us to ever be together. You see we live almost 10,000 miles away from each other. Our love could cross all boundries but not an ocean. I love him with all my heart but i knew that if i didn't make the move to go on then we could be stuck in this love of torture for the rest of our lives. He hurt so badly we cried i knew i had given up my soulmate, the person god had chosen me to be with in heaven and on earth. The lonliness was almost deafening, the pain was too real to deal with any longer. Our love could not with hold anymore i felt him slipping away. I did the one and only thing i thought i could do to save our love,or what was left to save. I will always love him and we will always be connected by our love. But for now i have moved on and am now in a relationship with a man ive tried to replace the pain in my heart. He loves me completely, but my love can never be complete because i left my heart with my soulmate. The only man i will ever love.......