Living without knowing
Sitting here
Holding onto darkness
I can't tell myself it will be alright
And stopping the flow of tears
A rather futile attempt.
After days of lonliness
The tears, my only faithful companions,
Cease to fall
For there are no more
You have come
For me.
Maybe I am Crazy
If you hold me in your world
Where what is wrong feels right
Will you set me free again
When I leave after the night?
If you take me far away
While holding on so tight
Would you leave me all alone
and drop me from that height?
If you keep me as your own
My heart would take off in flight
When you'd say jump, I'd say how high
If you'd say beg, I might
All I ask of you would be
To keep me in your sight
'Cause I'd do anything for you
Love's a war I'm ready to fight.
Anger
There is no point in this empty conversation
Anger holds the reins of our tounges
Leading to words never meant to be said.
If the best decision was to be made
We'd follow our hearts
And let this relationship lay dead.
Release your fingers from around it's neck.
Watch us fall away to the bottom
Walk away, shaking your head, shed a tear.
All that's left is hurt
We speak only what is expected
We listen with a tainted ear.
Hurt exchanged for hurt of equal measures
Glares exchanged for outward disrespect
You have left me now, yet I feel you are long since gone.
Long since escaped my reach
Ran from my losely secured sanity
Left me, yet you are the one who seems alone.
Did you lose yourself in the mix?
Cut So Deep
From fire to stone
The stone's worn down face
The tired tears that fell from the sky
The memories no one could replace.
The so-called honest words
The soft spoken good bye
You seemed so shocked when you looked back
And saw me start to cry.
And now its come to this
When I stand here before your lifeless smile
You tell me that you made a mistake
And you're sorry that it took awhile.
Your words that split my rock of a heart
That hardened after you went away
What am I supposed to do
When you tell me that you want to stay?
I could never let you hurt me again
I could never accept your touch
I would never know how to act around you
I have loved and hated you too much.
So thank you for coming back
But I must ask that you go
You are the first and the last confusion
I will ever let myself know.
What Did I Lose
You say that I have gone away
That I am one step from insanity
But I know that you don�t know me well
Maybe we weren�t meant to be.
I�ve heard you mutter soft words
About how I must be nuts
Though you can�t say exactly what you mean
You must not have the guts.
Help me please because
I am lost within your depths
I cannot find anything that makes sense
As I retrace my steps.
I stare into your eyes
As I sit across from you
And I just want to have you back
It�s wrong, but what else can I do.
I sit and wonder for hours
To think that is so stupid
You really never loved me
And with you, I don�t see cupid.
But when I hug you
I feel secure
And I wonder
What I lost you for.
And someday I�ll see the answer
As I wake up from a dream
But until that one particular day
I won�t be as confident as I seem.
So if you see me, hug me
If I cry, then walk away
If I�m angry, listen
It will change from day to day.
This you can be sure of
That is
Until I figure it all out
What exactly it is that I have lost.
HOME
These feelings have to stop
My smiles have to end
For the more I want you to myself
The more I know you�ll just be a friend.
Our exchange of words should cease
What is so warm should turn to cold
Because I know that you�re needed elsewhere
Though this wanting will never get old.
This madness must be lifted
This confusion should be shown out
Though I still want to know you more
See what you�re all about.
My smiles can�t end or die
They won�t and I refuse
To just back out because it�s �wrong�
�Cause then I wouldn�t know what I�m gonna lose.
So show me what I don�t want to know
Unleash thoughts within my mind
Bring out all of my fears and tear them down
I am anxious as to what I may find.
Kill my thoughts of innocence
Tear away the wall I�ve built
Push me in either direction
And remind me that I don�t need to feel guilt.
There is nothing that I can do
To keep my words from painting this scene
You seem so very interesting
And different from all I�ve seen.
Here it is, the mystery waits
And longs for what might become
A friendship tainted with the tendencies of love
An affair only dared by some.
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