What I Want

I find myself ranking guys and I feel like dirt
I find myself being called a whore and wondering if it is true
I hope for the one I�ve been dreaming for
And pray at night that it�s you
Many say that I am too fickle
Though that�s not what I am at all
I just want to find the guy I need
Before I trust him enough to let myself fall
I want his eyes to sparkle magically
As he gazes into mine at night
I want his arms to wrap around me
As he holds onto me so tight
I need his smile to brighten my day
His mind to think like mine
His laughter to distract me from my sorrow
This guy I hope to find
I hope I�ve already met him
And that he�s standing before my eyes
If he�s not, he�s out there somewhere
The best out of the guys

Tricky Situation

I sit and cry with your heart in my hand, and you let me know
You won't take it back from me
I hurt you so deep but you won't let it show
That your trust in me is gone, permanently
There was something that had to be said, and I said it.
We'll never be the same.
Because now you think I approach our life
As one complicated game.
So it hurts me to wonder what you think of me
And what you want to say
I want you to speak every word on your mind
But it will never be that way.
This, I know, which is why I tried
To show you what was wrong
The awkwardness is ok
�Cause I didn�t wait to long.
Maybe we�d be better off
If we were only friends
Because though I know this ends on sadness
The new friendship will be where the sadness ends.
I never said I wanted to lose you
I just think we chose the wrong way
And if we continued our little charade
I would wonder every day:
If this scene is fake or real
If what we do means much
I�d think about what was behind the kisses
And what�s behind each touch.
Are we just in it �cause you don�t want to let go
Of someone you never thought you�d get
Because you won�t loose me if we break up
I hope that you don�t forget.
Please consider what is best
And work to accept the fact
That we�d be better if we weren�t together
But we�ll think before we act.
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Exit Wound

Rain of tears
Fall of trust
Hope for loving
Longing for lust.
Caught in the trap
Humbling hurt
Walking through darkness
Feeling like dirt.
Crying, shaking
Helpless wanting
Coping with anger
The past is haunting.
Help me
Hurt me
Pull me through
I pushed you away
Only to want you
Hold me
Hug me
Push me away
I only need you
After yesterday
Bitch, whore
Everything bad
They laugh and point
Even though I�m sad.
I hurt you
I�m sorry
I�m glad that we�re friends
After sorrow
And thoughtless words
This is where it ends
In laughter
In smiles
A bond that won�t break
Hoping for happiness
For all of our sakes
Thank God for love
For without there�d be hate
This past bond was good
But this new bond is great.
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