Love Story

We were probably never meant to be together...

We started off on the 14th of September. At first I only loved him for his good looks. I didn't even know what his name was when I met him. Four days after our first conversation, he became my boyfriend.

We started off unstable. I didn't know him that well, so I depended on his friends to tell me what he was like. Instead of telling me things I wanna hear, they always told me about how much of a player he was, and how much he was 'pimping' on my friends. I was jealous then, but I always held it in.

I guess we had a pretty good relationship. I loved him so much. He said he loved me too. I knew he did, but I just couldn't trust him, not after hearing what his friends were always telling me. I tried so hard to trust him, but I never succeeded.

About two months after we started, his friends told me that they saw him hugging and getting close with my best friend. I was so angry. How dare he? When he was with me he always seemed as if he didn't know me, then he goes around hugging other girls? I was furious.

I couldn't hold it in anymore. I let out all my anger. I put so many restrictions on him. I felt bad for doing so but I really didn't want to lose him - especially not to my best friend. Although he listened to me, I knew that he never understood why. I tried explaining to him, I tried telling him that girls get jealous really easily, but they only do that when they truly love someone, but he never understood. He just got mad at the idea of me being jealous of another girl.

A few months later...I had gotten over the whole "jealous of other girls" thing...although I still got jealous alot. As the months flew by, our relationship got closer. But the closer we got, the more fights we had. Maybe we were sick of each other. I don't know. But he didn't seem to understand me at all. Whenever I told him a problem he always compared it with his own problems, or made fun of it, or simply told me that he didn't care or didn't want to know. It hurt me so much. We were so different. It was as if we were so different that we couldn't stand each other's existence. Whenever I tried to be serious, he just joked around. I couldn't stand him acting like that. We fought almost everyday, and I couldn't go one day without crying. I loved him so much...but he was hurting me so bad. I didn't even know why I loved him...

One day, we were in a shop called "Just4U". It was such a cute shop...it sold the cutest gifts. I picked up a white teddy bear and showed him.

"Look Leon! Look how cute it is!!! And if you press this button, you can record a message and give it to someone as a gift!!" I exclaimed.
He gave the bear a strange look...
"What a waste of money. It's one of those stupid inventions to rip people off."
"But Leon...I want one...from you..."
"And what exactly am I supposed to record on it? It's so useless, Crystal"
"Well what are the three words I want to hear you say...?"
"If you want me to say 'I love you' then I can call you and say it and when I see you I can say it too...the stupid bear is such a waste of money!"

I was so angry, I ran out of the store. I went home and just cried as hard as I could into my pillow. Why is he so stubborn? Can't he change his ways for once just to please me? Just once. That's all I ask for. And he can't even do that. At that moment, all my love and warm feelings towards him slowly faded away...I didn't want to be with him. I didn't want to care about him. I didn't want him in my life. I knew I didn't love him anymore...

Although I didn't love him, I couldn't help feeling guilty. I couldn't break up with him. Something was stopping me, but I didn't know what. I couldn't do it myself, so I decided to just treat him coldly, hoping he would get sick of me soon and break up with me...

For the next few weeks, I just treated him as coldly as I could. Everytime he wanted to meet up with me, I told him I was busy. Everytime he rang, I said I had to go in 5 minutes. Everytime he told me he loved me, I didn't say it back. I felt so mean, but something told me that it was the right thing to do.

One Saturday morning, he called me. It wasn't a long conversation.

"Crystal...meet me at "Just4U" at 11...we need to talk."

That was all he said, and he hung up.

At 10.30 I walked to "Just4U". He was already there. Suddenly I started getting nervous. What's he gona tell me? Is he gona break up with me? Trains of thoughts started going through my mind.

"Hey Crystal..."
"Hi...so...what you gotta tell me?"
"I just wanted to ask you...do you love me?"

Silence...

"Crystal?"
"I did before...but lately I haven't been feeling that I do..."
"...Wait."

He quickly ran into "Just4U" and left me waiting there. What the hell is he doing?! I waited, in the cold windy street, for about 15 minutes. When he finally came back out, he was holding a small white box. He held it out towards me.

"This is for you, Crystal."
"...What is it?"
"Open and see"

He smiled nervously.
I opened it, to see the bear that I wanted. I closed the box again and chucked it back at him.

"I don't want it"
"Why not?"
"Did you buy it just so I'd be with you again?"
"Yeah...I guess so."
"You don't buy gifts for girls intentionally. You're supposed to buy girls gifts with all your heart. You didn't even put effort into buying this. You just thought I'd go back to you because you bought me the freaking bear. Girls aren't as shallow as they seem Leon. Why can't you ever understand girls? Why can't you ever understand me?"

I yelled. Then I ran. I didn't know where I was going, but I didn't care. I just wanted to be out of there. I cried so hard I could hardly see. I stopped running after crossing a few streets. I thought about Leon. Suddenly I felt lonely and cold...

That was when I realized...I never stopped loving Leon. Maybe I didn't feel the warmth...the love...but yet I was so used to having him around. No matter how many times he told me he didn't care what I had to say, deep down, I knew that he still cared. I just got so used to him being around that I thought I didn't need him anymore...but he was the person I needed the most. I guess...I took him for granted...

I ran back as quickly as I could back to "Just4U", hoping he'd still be there. I needed to tell him that I was sorry, and that I really did love him. I was so eager to get back to him that I didn't watch where I was going.

Suddenly I heard a car beeping. I was in the middle of a road and the car was racing towards me. It didn't look like it was ready to stop. It got closer and closer...my legs were frozen in the spot and I couldn't move. I was scared. I closed my eyes, waiting for my pathetic, selfish life to end.

BOOM

I fell backwards. Why aren't I hurt? Am I...am I already dead?. I slowly opened my eyes, to see a man staring back at me.

"Are you alright?"

It was a passerby and he saw what happened. I nodded. I looked to my left...tears began trickling down my face and falling onto the ground...

There, lied Leon, with blood surrounding his body. His eyes were still opened. The truck driver had gotten out of the truck and is now next to Leon, trying to feel his pulse. He hung his head low and sadly shook his head. It's just a dream Crystal, it's just a dream, I told myself. I closed my eyes and opened them again. He was still there, lying motionlessly on the ground. I couldn't lie to myself anymore...he was...gone.

Next to him was the small white box, now stained with blood. I picked it up and took the bear out. I realised there was a recording on it...

"Sorry Crystal, for not being the best guy in the world like you should have. I know I haven't treated you very good, but I'll keep trying my best. I promise you that I have never cheated on you. Never, since I met you, have I thought of being with anyone else but you. When I dream, I dream of our future together. When I wish, I wish to be with you forever. I'm sorry for all I've done. Crystal Tran, with all my heart, I love you."