On the 10th September 2003 i took my first pregnancy test and was surprised to find it positive. I had come off the pill 6 months before and was begining to wonder why i hadn't become pregnant so quick althought the doctor did say it might take me at least a year as i had been on the pill for 4 years. So that night i told Mark when he came home from work and he was over the moon, couldnt believe it. And me well it hadnt sunk in till i went tot he doctors for it to be confirmed. Once i got the positive result from the doctor i was so happy, over the moon, wanted to start buying things but i knew i had to wait till i was over the 12 wk mark. So as the days went on i began to get so excited, planning the nursery and the future. So the weeks went on, then on 26th September 2003 i started to spot very very lightly, but didnt worry at first as it was light it had gone the next day. So over the weekend i forgot all about it till the Monday morning 29th September 2003 so i went to the doctors who sent me for a scan the very next day and that is when we saw our beanie 6 wks and 1 day old. During the scan the nurse explained that she couldnt see the heartbeat but told me that this is normal at such an early stage so i was scheduled to go for another scan 10 days afterwards. So i went home, then on the Wednesday the pain was worse and the bleeding got worse so off i went to the doctors again and he told me it looks like i was losing the baby. When i got home after that i just cried, felt so empty and heatbroken. Then i had to tell Mark the news, when i told him i saw how scared he was of losing our baby and i cried and cried till he reassured me all was going to be ok. Then on Thursday 2nd October i miscarried our baby at 9.05pm at 6 wks and 3 days that evening i was so gutted, seeing the look of saddness in Mark eyes i will never forget, we cuddled and cried together and reassured each other that one day we will have the baby we've been dreaming of. We found out that our baby had infact died at 6 weeks but we carried him till 10wks
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