Subject: two bad, bad races

new england crit: all day in the sun. nearly caused a crash, then race was
stopped because natl guardsmen who were digging a soccer field discovered
a 50-gallon drum full of something.  EPA was called, race resumed 45
minutes later, i felt bad for almost taking out some BAM girls and sat in
the back.  the BAM team kept on sending off attacks (they were 5 out of 11
in the field) but wouldn't block so they finished 4th with their best     
rider.  i was 6th.

american cup: 5 inches of rain.  soaked through.  they couldn't make a
starting line stick to the ground so everyone kept on edging up.  i was
tentative through the first corner because it was so wet so i was off the
back before we even really got started.  i stayed out there for 20
minutes, then called it a night.  i was pretty disappointed.  there were 5
girls in the field that i'd beaten before.  i felt like i should bave been
up there.  oh well.  i did have a moment there afterwards where i wallowed
in that horrible feeling of being cold and wet and alone and having just
dropped out of a bike race i should have done better in.  there's a
mistake in the results; i finished 16th, not 11th.  at least i was ahead
of 9 people.  i really hope i can do better on saturday.  this time i'll
get a good warm-up and hopefully my legs won't hurt so much.

then my night got WAY WAY better.  i missed my ride back to boston so i
hung out with my friend neilie, who's working as a soigneur with