Log of soulseek chat with Lecitin 04/07/2002 

[Lecitin] O_o this is weird
[billybob] yes, this is a private chat window
[Lecitin] lol no no
[billybob] what then?
[Lecitin] round76
[Lecitin] hes not  ver good with english i guess
[Lecitin] so hes asking me for help
[billybob] why is that?
[Lecitin] he likes a girl
[Lecitin] and wants me to help him with "sweet words"
[billybob] umm, i can't help him with that
[Lecitin] i think its very sweet lol
[billybob] try someone else, i'm really not an expert on sweet-talking girls
[billybob] sorry
[Lecitin] oh no no 
[Lecitin] im not asking you about it lol
[Lecitin] i just find it a weird situation im in
[billybob] what, are you the one he's trying to talk?
[Lecitin] yeah
[billybob] oh
[Lecitin] yeah
[Lecitin] hes asking me to help him write her sweet words
[Lecitin] its sweet, i just hope i do a good job lol
[Lecitin] im not bad with words, but helping someone whos bad with english with them
[Lecitin] well. thats different
[billybob] maybe you could help me as well
[Lecitin] lol sure
[Lecitin] same type of problem?
[billybob] no, i'm trying to get her to bed, but she's resisting
[Lecitin] the chick?
[billybob] yes
[Lecitin] lol
[Lecitin] how old are you?
[billybob] 24
[Lecitin] well youre of age heh
[Lecitin] why are you trying to get her to bed tho?
[Lecitin] are you two dating?
[billybob] don't take me too seriously
[billybob] we're more like close friends
[Lecitin] ah
[billybob] the part about having sex with her
[Lecitin] was a joke?
[billybob] you could say that
[Lecitin] lol
[Lecitin] so what do you need help with?
* Lecitin puts up sign "the doctor is in"
[billybob] probabaly something to make her take our relationship more seriously
[Lecitin] so are you trying to make that lil leap from close friends to something more? or is that already taken?
[billybob] yeah, all my efforts have been in vain
[Lecitin] so does she want to get into something more serious? like whats your current status? are you the NOT gay, gay friend? or do you have more room than that
[billybob] maybe something to make her realise my feelings toward her?
[Lecitin] a poem?
[Lecitin] and how old is she?
[billybob] do girlfriends think of a close male friend as gay most of the time?
[billybob] about my age
[Lecitin] lo no
[Lecitin] but in some cases, theyre just to good of friends to be anything else
[Lecitin] example: 
[Lecitin] i chased my friend sarah for 3 years. were really close friends, and we get along like were married. were more or less perfect for each other, but im to much like a brother
[Lecitin] sometimes thats how the cookie crumbles. now if you can change that, by all means do it
[Lecitin] i think a good poem by you could work
[billybob] but i suck at writing poems
[Lecitin] lol but i dont
[Lecitin] i can help you write one
[billybob] ok
[Lecitin] how do you feel about her?
[Lecitin] ok
[Lecitin] lol
[Lecitin] i feel like a psychologist
[Lecitin] just go ahead and ramble about your feelings towards her
[Lecitin] whatever comes to you mind that describes her
[billybob] i think she's the light that shines through the windows in the morning when i wake up
[Lecitin] ah good good
[billybob] ok, what else
[Lecitin] keep on going
[Lecitin] get a pen and paper maybe 
[Lecitin] lol
[Lecitin] or word up or something
[billybob] maybe nir should make a log option on the chat window
[billybob] ok, here's more
[Lecitin] yeah
[Lecitin] ok
[billybob] the light makes me feel energized
[billybob] to start thye new day
[Lecitin] ah good good
[Lecitin] see your not to bad at this
[billybob] she's the fuel that lights my fire
[Lecitin] lol good
[Lecitin] *thinks*
[Lecitin] As i lay in the dark coldness of this world
[Lecitin] *thinks*
[Lecitin] damnit lol
[billybob] you are the fire that keeps me warm
[Lecitin] yes yes see
[Lecitin] thats good
[billybob] i hope we can be together
[Lecitin] damnit. i cant write today
[billybob] maybe we'll just save what we've wrote so far
[Lecitin] would you like to see some of my poetry for inspiration?
[Lecitin] yeah haha
[billybob] and continue some other time?
[Lecitin] no i mean
[Lecitin] i just have to get past this
[Lecitin] im coming off a bit of a hard break up, so writing this sort of thing is kinda rough
[Lecitin] the reasson why its hard: we both still love each other, but we have to break up because of circumstances
[Lecitin] anywho
[Lecitin] *digs through his poetry*
[billybob] breakups, i've never felt that before
[Lecitin] ah
[billybob] i bet it must be hard on both of you
[Lecitin] ive never had a bad breakup
[Lecitin] very much so
[Lecitin] but im still friends with all my ex's
[Lecitin] even the one who cheated on me lol
[Lecitin] silly girl she was
[billybob] what do you mean, "cheated"?
[Lecitin] she well... 
[Lecitin] 6 months into our relationship
[billybob] were they secretly dating other guys?
[Lecitin] nah
[Lecitin] 6 months in, she got fingered by a male friend of hers
[Lecitin] she told me right away because she felt like shit about it
[Lecitin] which she should have of course. 
[Lecitin] i tried to work through it, tried to make the relationship work
[billybob] was this male friend a jerk?
[Lecitin] but after a month... it jus deteriorated so much. i had a hard time trusting her
[Lecitin] so we broke up
[Lecitin] oh hell yes
[Lecitin] not to her
[billybob] oh, trust
[Lecitin] but i mean, he KNEW we were going out and stuff
[billybob] i bet it was she who allowed this guy to make those advances to her
[Lecitin] well yeah
[Lecitin] she told me what happened
[Lecitin] and shes just as guilty as him
[Lecitin] they started kissing, and SHE started taking off HER clothes
[Lecitin] so i mean, she screwed up too
[billybob] maybe she had a guilty concience, so she 'fessed up
[Lecitin] i just find it funny that he did more with her in 15 minutes than i ever did with her in 7 months
[Lecitin] more or less
[Lecitin] while he was fingering her, she said she thought of me and felt disgusting
[Lecitin] told him to stop and leave
[billybob] if she really cheated on you, she'd just keep quiet over it
[Lecitin] so she told me like about an hour after it happened when she saw me online
[Lecitin] yeah
[Lecitin] i know
[Lecitin] and thats why i forgave her 
[Lecitin] and i tried to work through it
[Lecitin] but she just showed me a lot of bad judgement, with other things too
[billybob] but guess it didn't turn out like you wanted it to be
[Lecitin] and it wasnt gonna work.. not anytime soon anyway
[Lecitin] yeah
[Lecitin] i thought we could get over it
[Lecitin] but it was hard to trust her again... and she wasnt giving me much reason to trust her again
[Lecitin] but anywho
[Lecitin] heres a poem i wrote
[Lecitin] maybe youll get some inspiration
[Lecitin] damnit... i cant copy paste lol
[Lecitin] oh well
[Lecitin] lets get going on this poem again
[billybob] ok, let's her it
[billybob] hear it, sorry
[Lecitin] ok
[Lecitin] its ok
[Lecitin] lol
[Lecitin] as i lay in the dark coldness of this world
[Lecitin] you are the fire that keep me warm
[Lecitin] keeps*
[Lecitin] you keep me safe, you keep me warm
[Lecitin] crap
[billybob] is this the one earlier, or your?
[Lecitin] i already said warm
[Lecitin] umm
[Lecitin] the one earlier
[Lecitin] we were working on
[Lecitin] *thinks*
[Lecitin] as i lay in the dark coldness of thsi world
[Lecitin] you are the fire that keeps me warm
[Lecitin] when im with you
[Lecitin] im free from harm
[billybob] ok, this good
[Lecitin] hmm... that flow is bothering me
[Lecitin] damnit... this is really bothering me lol
[billybob] yeah, the third stanza sounds bad
[Lecitin] ah ok
[Lecitin] yeah
[Lecitin] as i wander the dark coldness of this world
[Lecitin] you are the fire that keeps me warm
[Lecitin] when im with you i have no fears
[Lecitin] when im with you theres no harm
* billybob noting this all down
[Lecitin] lol good
* Lecitin turns off Morning Musume so he can concentrate
[Lecitin] ok fourth line
[Lecitin] change there's to there is
[Lecitin] flows better
[billybob] what about the light that shines thru my window part?
[Lecitin] oh yeah
[Lecitin] umm
[Lecitin] you chase away the darkness like the sun
[Lecitin] no scratch that
[Lecitin] you chase away the darkness
[Lecitin] you fill my life with fun
[Lecitin] you give me reason to wake up
[Lecitin] just like the morning sun?
[Lecitin] (hows that sound?)
[billybob] hey, that's even better than my line
[Lecitin] lol thanks
[Lecitin] you shine through my window
[Lecitin] beckoning me to awake
[Lecitin] the warmth you bring is special 
[Lecitin] of it theres no mistake
[Lecitin] (that good?)
[billybob] keep it coming
[Lecitin] ok
[Lecitin] when im with you my worries
[Lecitin] seem another world away 
[billybob] where do you get your ideas anyway
[billybob] you're like a dynamo
[Lecitin] lol my head
[Lecitin] haha thanks man
[Lecitin] guess my age :P
[billybob] what can you do with the words 'despair'?
[Lecitin] despair
[Lecitin] i think i can work that in
[Lecitin] (btw, im 16)
[billybob] and 'comfort' as well
[Lecitin] comfort
[Lecitin] ok
[billybob] 16? wow!
[Lecitin] lol yeah
[Lecitin] lol
[Lecitin] i just thought of something funny, but hat i wouldnt use in the poem
[Lecitin] when im with you my worries
[Lecitin] seem another world away
[Lecitin] when i look at your face
[Lecitin] im damn glad im not gay :P
[billybob] lol
[Lecitin] hmm but seriously
[billybob] a couple more stanzas, and let's wrap it up
[Lecitin] ah ok
[Lecitin] when im with you my worries
[Lecitin] seem another world away
[Lecitin] *thikns*
[Lecitin] *thinks*
[Lecitin] all there is is you
[Lecitin] i feel no dismay
[Lecitin] (hmm thats kinda blah)
[billybob] the i fell no dismay is ok, just the earlier part
[Lecitin] all there is is you?
[Lecitin] ok
[Lecitin] im gonna write it all out now so far
[Lecitin] as i wander the dark coldness of this world
[Lecitin] you are the fire that keeps me warm
[Lecitin] when im with you i have no fears
[Lecitin] when im with you there is no harm
[Lecitin] you chase away the darkness
[Lecitin] you fill my life with fun
[Lecitin] you give me reason to wake up 
[Lecitin] just like the morning sun
[Lecitin] you shine through my window
[Lecitin] beckoning me to awake
[Lecitin] the warmth you bring is special
[Lecitin] of it theres no mistake
[Lecitin] when im with you my worries 
[Lecitin] seem another world away
[billybob] i got it all
[Lecitin] ok
[Lecitin] now...
[Lecitin] i just think about you 
[Lecitin] and i feel no dismay
[Lecitin] you bring me so much comfort
[Lecitin] you keep me from despair
[billybob] wow, you are a genius
[Lecitin] you make me feel that i
[billybob] with words
[Lecitin] can live life without a care
[Lecitin] lol
[Lecitin] thanks
[Lecitin] i write a bit
[Lecitin] (whats she look like? color hair? eyes?)
[billybob] hair is dark brown, eyes are brown as well 
[billybob] asians, what do you expect?
[Lecitin] ah nice
[Lecitin] haha i didnt know
[Lecitin] asian gals are cuties ^_^
[billybob] well, not all of them
[Lecitin] ok i might not use eyes because brown is harder to work with lol
[Lecitin] whats her name?
[Lecitin] yeah
[billybob] ayesha
[Lecitin] pretty
[Lecitin] Ayesha, this is how i feel
[Lecitin] and this is from the heart
[Lecitin] do you love her?
[billybob] of course i do
[Lecitin] ah ok
[billybob] why do yu think i bothered to ask your advice?
[Lecitin] lol ok ok
[Lecitin] ok i got something good
[Lecitin] Ayesha, this is how i feel
[Lecitin] and this is from the heart
[Lecitin] but no matter how many poems i write
[Lecitin] words could never impart
[Lecitin] the way i feel for you
[Lecitin] could never be expressed
[Lecitin] the best way to tell you
[Lecitin] is simple at its best
[Lecitin] i love you
[Lecitin] (and thats how you end it)
[Lecitin] that good?
[billybob] holy shit, i'm almost in tears
[Lecitin] yay! i did a good job
[billybob] thanks a whole lot dude
[billybob] shoul i write it, or type it?
[Lecitin] lol not a problem at all
[Lecitin] just keep this in mind
[Lecitin] when you give this to her
[billybob] i guess write it is better?
[Lecitin] if she doesnt feel the same way, make sure she knows that youll always be her friend
[Lecitin] yeah
[Lecitin] if youre giving it to her on paper
[Lecitin] write it
[Lecitin] and think you could do me a favor?
[billybob] what?
[Lecitin] i need you to keep an eye out for a song for me
[billybob] note to self: always be her friend no matter what happens
[Lecitin] Triceratops w/ Lisa - Believe the Light
[Lecitin] lol good good ^_^
[Lecitin] ive been trying to get that song for a while, and its hard as hell
[billybob] ok, i'll keep a lookout for it
[Lecitin] so if you can keep your eye out for it for me, id appreciate it much
[Lecitin] thanks
[billybob] did you try win mx?
Lecitin] hey, good luck
[Lecitin] no not yet
[Lecitin] Win MX craps out on me a bit
[billybob] win mx can be a goldmine sometimes
[billybob] but the queues are longer over there
[Lecitin] lol good
[Lecitin] ill check it out
[Lecitin] if it doesnt work out, hey at least she knows where you stand now right?
[Lecitin] lol i see
[billybob] ok, thanks again dude
[Lecitin] no problem man
[Lecitin] it feels good to do some writing and help out ( i havent written an  a long time)
[Lecitin] anyway im out
[Lecitin] bai ^_^
[billybob] bye
[Lecitin] good luck
[billybob] i'll definitely need it