metraboy online: july 19, 2000

I'm really being selfish today, though. Like, christine had some music on in the lab and it was getting to me so we snapped at each other. then i put my simpsons CD on and it cheered me up. Then my boss put some french singer's CD on (she's called "the little sparrow" and apparently all of france wept when she died) and i got pissy again so now i'm taking a break. i have a real problem with not being able to appreciate art (as in music with words or theatre)unless it is in english. i had to watch a polish play (by grotowski, a really famous avant-garde theatre guy) for my last integrated arts calss and i wrote my response paper about how i couldn't get past the language barrier. i think that maybe this comes from being in a family where my mom would annually remind us how much she hated "sound of music" (i know, that's in english, but it relates, i promise) and a family where people don't really go to the symphony, or opera, or any such "cultured" thing.

I think that i have grown up seeing such things as stuffy and pretentious and such, and so rejecting those things is much like when the person who was raised extreme right-wing republican tends to stick to that. my mom would never even tell me what party she identified with, but she would tell me how much she hated the fucking von trapps.

I'm working on it, but still, listening to a french singer is enough to drive me out of the lab. which, of course, benefits all of you. well, i guess that's debatable (sp?), too.

I started most of my paragraphs with "I". ah well

Have a great day. i'll be attempting to have a better one.

love,
metraboy

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