Dysfunction Lyrics
Suffocate
I feel nothing
Longing for something
Lie in bed to take your clothes off
Show me what you�re made of
Let the world be my drug
Just to soothe me
(All alone)
Leave me here, I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face!
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate!
I'm not gifted
Slightly twisted
Try harder try harder
To see if I can push you any further
Let the world be your drug
Just to soothe me
(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face!
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate!
Please believe you'll save me, rearrange me
I can feel your feelings, running through me
Take away my sorrow, my tomorrow
Heal me
(All alone)
Leave me here I'm dying
(All alone)
Just kicked me in my face!
(All alone)
All alone and crying
(All alone)
I suffocate!
I'm suffocating!
SUFFOCATE!!! (come suffocate)
Just Go
I'm kinda numb
It�s so distorted
You left me here with this damage that you've caused
My tortured faces
Those f**ked up places
In my memories none of them I've lost, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go....
It's kinda sick
I feel so dirty
I'm kinda tragic, kinda insecure
But I know that I'm the only
One that can fix whatever's wrong I'm sure, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go....
I feel so alone
From all I've become
I'll take you down
I'll feel so down
I'm water while you drown
You're lifted while I'm down
I'm cancer in your womb
I'm the needle in your spoon, but...
I haven't been here long enough to know
Everytime I feel this I just lose control
Such a cancer on the face of everything that's beautiful
I wish that this would just go, go....
Just, Just, Just
Just go....
Go...
Go....
All these f**king lies!!! lies!!! lies!!!
All your f**king lies!!! lies!!! lies!!!
Me
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means....
I guess my mother never loved my dad
And now I wear it on my sleeve
My sister called me just the other day
It felt so good to hear her voice
My problem is I don't have much to say
I guess she doesn't have a choice, and I'm sorry
Look at me, I'm so pathetic
I can't believe, I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself,
Save me from my...
My mothers always tried to change herself
She never learned to let things be
She doesn't know how bad she messed me up
Cuz now she seems so fake to me, but I love her
Look at me, I'm so pathetic
I can't believe, I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself,
Save me from myself
If you push me then I won't fall
I've been programmed to take it all
And shove it way down inside
Like my father, like my father...
I'm so pathetic
I can't believe, I'm just an addict
I've never needed anyone to help me (I'm failing it)
I'm begging you to please come save me from myself
I hear you talk about your family life
I wish I knew just what that means...
Raw
The pictures left with me won't fade
These images affect me every day
Cuz of you I feel I don�t deserve
The life I see in her
You�re so f**king right
RAW!!!
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
RAW!!!
I've never been someone who knows
My choices haunt me everywhere I go
Finally did something right for myself
My life to you no one else
You�re so f**king right
RAW!!!
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
I'm so cold
I feel so cold
I CAN'T TAKE THIS!!!
RAW!!!
I feel so...
Inside I'm so cold
Inside I'm so cold
RAW!!!
I feel so...
RAW!!!
Mudshovel
You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me you made in vain
I lost myself inside your tainted smile again
Cause you can't feel my anger!
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment!
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings!
They will bring you pain
You can't take away!
Make me whole again
I feel betrayed
Stuck in your ways
And you rip me apart
With the brutal things you say
I can't deal with sh*t anymore
I just look away
Cause you can't feel my anger!
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment!
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings!
They bring only pain
You can't take away!
Make me whole again
Mudshovel, Mudshovel, Mudshovel..
You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again...
Cause you can't feel my anger!
You can't feel my pain
You can't feel my torment!
Driving me insane
I can't fight these feelings!
They will bring you pain
You can't take away!
Make me whole again...
You will feel my anger!
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment!
Driving you insane
I can't fight these feelings!
They will bring you pain
You won't take away
I'll be whole again
Mudshovel, Mudshovel, Mudshovel
Home
I force myself through another day
Can�t explain the way today just fell apart like everything
Right in my face
And I try to be the one
I can't accept this all because of you
I've had to walk away
From everything....
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Another sleepless night again
Hotel rooms my only friend
And friends like that just don't add up
To anything
And I try so hard to be everything
What I should never take away from you again
Cause I heard you say...
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
I cannot forget
I live with regret
I cannot forget
I live with...
I'll live through this
I can't see through this
I can't do this anymore
I'm afraid to be alone
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I'm afraid to come back home
Afraid you'll leave me when I'm gone
I just wish I was back home
Home...
A Flat
Trust in me can�t trust
I'm the whore I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
What for who?
You can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I�ll be here, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear so loud, why can't you hear it?
I'm ok...
All my faith is gone
You think I couldn't find it
Pieces falling down shattered now get behind it
In my mind alone
Lost in here I'm separated
Crawl deeper in my hole
Safe in here from what I hated
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don�t show, can't believe it
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
Are you running? Cuz your words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me!
And I hate myself
And I hate my face
And I hate my world
And I hate my ways
And I...
And I...
And I...
I'M NOT OK!!!
I'm ok....
Trust in me can�t trust
I'm the whore I don't believe it
All my life so scarred
What for who?
You can't conceive it
Everything you fear
I�ll be here, you couldn't live it
I whisper in your ear, why can't you hear it?
All the demons in my head won't leave me
I know I can hear them
All the sacrifices made for nothing
Don�t show can't believe in
Want to show that I'm good for something
I can't you won't let me
Are you running cause your words won't heal me
Because you can't accept me
I don't believe it
I don't believe it
Crawl
I'm so lonely
You're so beautiful
Not the only
One that's pitiful
Scratched and torn I lay here in pieces
Craving all of your deadly vices
Like to think that I'm not addicted
But I guess I wear it well
And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you
Here I am now
Not a lot has changed
Nothing' better
Everything's the same
Late at night I can hear your voices
Talking sh*t about all my choices
You would think you've known me forever
Just because you know my name
And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through you
Everything falls apart
Everything... (3x)
Everything falls apart
Everything (3x)
And I crawl
While you spit
And I crawl
Through
Spleen
Can�t breathe!
Shut up, shut up!
I feel I give everything to you
Can�t breathe!
Shut up, shut up!
I think there�s nothing left to do
Can�t breathe!
Shut up, shut up!
I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say, I don't want you
Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say, I don't need you
I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm f**ked up too, I don't need you
Can�t breathe!
Shut up, shut up!
I feel you are what�s changed my soul
Can�t breathe!
Shut up, shut up!
I think I'll never lose control
Can�t breathe!
Shut up, shut up!
I don't like today, take it all away
Just like what you say, I don't want you
Kinda like the way, everything is gray
Just like what you say, I don't need you
I don't look like you, do the things you do
But I'm f**ked up too, I don't need you
You don't understand that
You�re killing this planet
The scabs on your face
It�s a f**king disgrace
I blame you, I blame you....
I blame you (five times)
Can�t breathe!
Shut up, shut up!
I'm don't like today, take it all away (shut up)
Just like what you say, I don't want you (shut up)
Kinda like the way, everything is gray (shut up)
Just like what you say, I don't need you (shut up)
I don't look like you, do the things you do (shut up)
But I'm f**ked up too, I don't need you (shut up)
Excess Baggage
(Hidden Track at the end of Spleen)
Well I know the words, but I can't really speak them
To you
And I hide all the pain that I've gained with my wisdom
From you
And I'm eaten alive, by what I hold inside
All the things that I live with I can't easily hide
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It�s not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
Until I'm not alive
When you look at my face, does it seem just as ugly?
To you?
I can't seem to erase all the scars I have lived with
From you
I'm so sick of this place
This taste in my mouth
Cause of you I can't figure what I'm all about
And I'm left here with nothing, nothing to live for
But you
It�s not easy to hide
All this damage inside
I'll carry you with me
�til I'm not alive