Early feb 2005 Az saw me in pot revolution chat room and pmd me, i think he must be on a 12 step program to ease a troubled soul, not once did he say sorry, all he could say to justify hurting me was he was a prick. Not one to rest untill i know the truth i emailed him ( stupid sod gave me his work email address ) and here peeples is the response



> Hey Az,
>
> I think its nice ya wanna to lay bad vibes to rest  and resolving issues
> etc but i do have some questions since we on a resolving  trip ...
>
> What happened in Tassie
> Like apart from me feeling as if it was my  personality that was the
> problem or that you liking me was just a net life ya  created and froze
> when reality hit.
> That's the conclusion i came too .
>
> You would probably prefer to just forget it but I  would really like to
> know hey



Answer recieved
 > I honestly am not sure, A lot of it was because i was stressed out of my
> brain let me think about it properly and i'll give u a definitive answer,
> no excuses tho.
so i wrote back after 6 days

so hows the question going lol?

and i got this back

basically from what the medics tell me it was similar to post traumatic
stress disorder, i just found being in civvy street frustrating. i was
taken from an environment which is not normal to most people and put into
what is supposed to be a normal environment. however what was normal to me
was having a weapon in my hand at all times and constantly working on a
stress/alert level much higher than the everage person's. so when i was in
tassie i didn't have time to adjust yet ppl expected me to be what they
considered normal and their expectations were unrealistic, you can't move
from a war footing to being a normal civilian type person in a couple of
days.


So it seems he has learnt nothing pretty much, still laying the blame on other, he means me , maybe he could have just said, im sorry for fuking up  meeting you, wasnt meant to be but i think this has a lot to do with it etc... 

Well its only took almost 2 years to get an answer LOL