Twisted Like Twine 12/18/04
Twisted like twine over one boy's finger
Captivated by the look of his eyes
Yet he know not of my devotion to him
And that is how it shall remain
Until my mind has become sane once more
But I suffer now with my hidden love
but endure the pain I shall
For this star I wish never to turn away
And I shall play friend on and on
Secretly dreaming of his tender kiss
Of which the like I know not
But desire from the bottom of my heart
The flutter of my heart as I see him smile
The rush of my blood when I hear him sing
And the quickening of breath as he speaks to me
I am twine twisted 'round his finger
He was a crush during and after my time in a middle school play. We did not talk and to this day I belive he does not like me as a person. For a while he was claiming to be gay, but has had a few girlfriends since.
Backstage
A silly little wish
A mind possessed
A flip of his hair
A word
A note
A brain is wiped
Backstage
Chorus
Angery tears
Strong held fears
A pot hole in the road
But a song of old
Refreshes my mind
Care 12/20/04
I listen to the song
I should know it true
But yet I don't
And don't care in the slightest
I should know many things
But I don't
And don't care at all
Why this is so
Is something waiting for me
That I'm none the wiser of
If the is let it stay unnamed
For it is not my concern
I care for different sorts
Intoxicating dreams 12/22/04
Draw me away from sweet dreams
For they have intoxicated me
It is strange how they have suduced me
And altered my thoughts
But now they caught me
Help me come back together
Unseen but known
My mind is blank
And each of my days
I must focus on one at a time
When I walk by him
He does not see me
Something reassures me
That he knows I am there
I saw what I shouldn't
My heart flutters
Sweat rolls down my face
I have seen a forbidden site
He looks at me