jesspoems8

Deception

The wind is blowing
Harsh outside
And the air is ripping through
My veins.
I'm cold as hell
And feel so confused
So alone.
I'd like to go home
And see the people
Who truly care about me
Instead of staying here
Listening to the people
Who just say they do.
I walk down the sidewalk
Half the time not really knowing
Where I'm going
But getting there all the same.
I don't feel like talking to any of you
Anymore.
For you have all hurt me
And I don't know
If I can trust you.
It's just been lie after lie
And I'm in the middle of it.
It's all a bunch of bullshit
But it continues to snow
And continues to bring me down
Into feeling nothing.
I thought I could trust you
But all it's been
Is one line after the other
Of false realities
And you've all done
Such a great job of fooling me.

I'm sorry that I hurt you
And that I made you cry.
I'm sorry that I filled your head
With all my stupid lies.
I'm sorry that I made you love
Every little thing about me;
And then I turned my back on you
When I was the one you wanted to see.
I'm sorry that I used you up
And promised to never let go,
Then lied and said I needed you
But never let you know.
I'm sorry that we kissed that night
And made you believe I felt for you;
That what you thought was in my heart
Was never even true.
I'm sorry that I left you there
And you had no one at all,
That I never ever cared
Or returned your calls.
Baby I am so sorry
I was never the girl you thought I could be
All I can say that I wish we could turn back time
When it came to you and me.

It's four o'clock in the morning
But I cannot sleep.
I am thinking, thinking about you.
I want you to hold me
All night under the stars
Just you and I
No wound will need mending,
No broken heart repaired.
We'll have no reason to worry
What anyone will think or say
No one to tell us that we cannot do
Let's make a night of it
Just me and you.
I'll hold you so right
You'll never let go
And you'll wonder where I have been
All this time.
You will whisper in my ear
Everything that is perfect
And I will cry because I am so happy
To be by your side.
Nothing will matter
The past or the future.
All I will be thinking about
Is me and you.
Your body will lay by me
You'll be right beside me
And forget the stars are there at all.

Used

Another one-just like before
It happens every time
I was used, once again
But oh, it feels just fine.
I guess I should have seen it coming
But like I could have known
That you would leave me here like this
Standing all alone.
Deep inside I feel so tired
And I can't help but be confused
I guess this is how a girl can get
When she knows shes been used.
Well, I'm sorry it had to be this way
I wish I was good enough for you,
You don't even understand
That you made my dreams come true.
You made all these promises
And even said you loved me
Well, I must be blind then
Because what happened, I don't see.
"I'm not like other guys" you said
"I belong to you"
But why did you even say that to me
If it was never true?
So many guys have come and gone
All have broke my heart
I was so nieve and stupid
To believe you from the start.
I guess you're just another name
Who took from me so much more
I gave you my everything
Because you were what I was living for.
Why did you have to be this way?
You used me and now you're though
Now I sit here, helpless and crying
All because of no one but you.