Date: Thu, 08 Mar 2001 11:02:28 EST
From: "Brian"
To: "Julie"
Subject: "...The smell of your skin..."

Hey beautiful,

How are you? I'm good as long as you don't have a bitchy sub again! :-) I'm actually in a great mood! I just hope we are in the library in calc today, should be it seems like every few Thursdays we are. If I by chance am I'll email you again! :-)

I love you so much kid, I really can't wait to hear your voice later today and see you tomorrow! Although we wasted last night, I still had a great evening, thx! Just think 2 weeks from now I'll be preparing myself to say good-bye... :-/

Don't seem possible that it's getting so close...don't seem like it's a reality either...*sighs* I don't really know what to say...I better abandon the topic before I upset myself.

Umm...I was thinking maybe you should find a dress before I find a tux. For a few reasons...one, that way if you find a dress you like alot that's not purple or even the same purple we aren't screwed...two, that way we won't accidentally see a dress we both love and disappoint mom when you don't feel like running all over the state in search of a dress...three, saves me the pain of you finding a dress you like better than the one we potentially could fall in love with. I don't know I guess we could discuss things if you want.

So, have you heard from Erik? I', really interested in what he has to say. And did you say it was cheaper if you got tickets from Amanda? If yes, is it too late to get them? If it's not would you do that for me and I'll pay you when I see you? Thanks babe!

I don't know what else I wanted to mention so I guess it's time to be me! LOL I love you babydoll, you are awesome! I don't know what I did right or where you came from but I do know that as far as I can see you are a heavenly body. There is no way possible you are human you have to be an angel. I've never in all my years found someone as perfect as you, and probably never will! I still struggle through each day trying to figure out if this is real or if I'm just dreaming. never imagined it would be so hard to come to accept the fact that I have a girlfriend who is so absolutely wonderful! You honestly are the greatest gift God has bestowed on me! I wish there was a video camera that could record every single moment we spend together because I would love to be able to watch your every movement of each and every day. I can't get enough of you, like our song says "every little thing you do, baby I'm amazed by you"

I should get going and maybe actually get something done for once! LOL I'll talk to you really soon and email you even sooner! I love you babe and never forget that! You are a wonderful person and a real sweetheart. I'm have been given the absolute greatest honor by being blessed with your love and presence in my life!

Love,
Brian

PS I attached my newest english paper, mind reading it sometime?

Date: Mon, 12 Mar 2001 10:18:56 EST
From: "Brian"
To: "Julie"
Subject: "...the taste of your kiss..."

Hi beautiful,

How's my sleeping beauty? I'm getting better as the day goes on. Did you sleep well last night? I sure hope so, you needed it, you was REALLY tired! I was tired to...I went to bed at 11:30! But couldn't sleep come 3:30. Don't you wish you could sleep for 5 hours and be ready to go all day? I miss you babe, I've seen you so much this weekend yet I still wish I could have spent more time with you. I sure hope it's a good sign when no matter how much time I spend with you it's never enough. Last night and yesterday were awesome, so totally awesome. I don't know what could have made it any better...we watched the race together, ate together, did homework together, played together, cuddled together and you fell asleep in my arms. I wish yesterday could be everyday...doing homework together was pretty cool...putting you to bed was cool, you are so beautiful when you sleep and it was kind of cool to think I put you to sleep rubbing your back. I'm amused and satisfied by little things sometimes.

You going to kill me I recorded over the first 30 seconds of David Duchovny on Who Wants to be a Millionaire (Yes I actually it a few months ago) I'm really sorry, I didn't know it was on this tape. LMAO Don't ask...I don't know why I'm apologizing, it's not like you really care. Anyway...*pauses to regain sanity*...I love you angel! You are so beautiful, so sweet, so caring, so intelligent, and so wonderful. Well babe, if today goes smoothly come tomorrow you will have a brand new house to look over! I got some stuff to do but not much so I should have time enough to really sit down and draw up a house. Although we should sit down and discuss our future home together, I'm sure there are features you'd like and features I'd like. Maybe I'll postpone that till tomorrow and work on my projects I planned for tomorrow....hmmm now I'm confused on what the heck to do. I better stick to what I know...I love you, cherish you, want to marry you, and spend every day of my life with you! I was thinking...if we got engaged now, would it be wrong to hide it from those who would say we're crazy?

I best get cracking on doing something other than sitting on my butt. Between talking to you and other required activities I only have a few free hours to work on stuff. Anyway sweet heart I love you...you are a vision of extravagance in beauty, personality, and spirituality...thus making you an image of idealistic perfection. Your radiance is more than enough to stoke the fire under me to engage you as my future bride. I've never been so emotionally propelled by a person to drive fast down the road of love and life. For me the vision that prance through my mind all involve us hand-in-hand forever more with the bond of engagement and marriage as a vital component of happiness, coping, and success. That you for blessing me with your love, you have created feeling within my soul, heart, and body that no other person can ever create within me again. I hope you never destroy my bliss by left me and abandoning my heart leaving it collapsed and broken.

Julie, you are so wonderful, I want to spend the rest of my life with you! I love you so much, that there is no way for me to ever describe how incredibly overwhelming and strong my love for you is. Works nor actions nor anything can create for you an understanding of my love for you; my love is far to great to ever be described or convey. I hope you have a wonderful day and will grace my life with an email to say hello. Getting email from you is as special to me as meeting the president would be. You are truly a very special and intricate part of my life and always will be even trough the tough times we will face together. Your presence in my life is the strongest influence and strengthener of my ability to deal with life and continue trough each challenge life shoves in my face. You are so very special and important to me, I don't think I can ever repay you for all the great things you do for me each and every day. Thank you my love, you are the greatest and truly perfect in my eyes.

You ever loving and dedicated boyfriend,

Brian