All I Perceived Was a Lie

You and I, I thought were special
But then you realized you could have something better
And sent me packing
Now I see how much I meant to you
Cherished about as much as a festering wound

You make me hate myself
Cold and alone looking forward to damnation
I can’t go on like this, my only friends are my suicidal fantasies
I love your carefree attitude, don’t have to answer to anyone at all
I guess I struck out and Luke Smith was on deck

My emotions overtake me
In isolation my humanness forsakes me
No more uncertainty, no more civil war
I’m not blaming myself anymore
I’ve done all that’s in my reach
And I’ve learned to allow my scars to teach

When I look at you many images run through my mind
Many adorable quotes followed by heart-wrenching pain
Bittersweet memories dance in my stomach, pierce my heart
I fall to my knees and weep
Am I striking a nerve is there a nerve to strike
With these words I withdrawal myself from the gauntlet created by one-directional love

For so long I could not see
Blinded by my inequities
Then a month and a half after death
I decided to take another breath

Now I see who you really are
And how our relationship was just a beautiful deception
Tears flow like rivers
Fuck you and your indifference
Fuck you and your indifference
THE NEXT TIME YOU TELL SOMEONE YOU LOVE THEM, MAKE SURE YOU MEAN IT