sitting in my room,
dead to the world
one thing on my mind
my dark little secret
the secret I was about to let out...
with one last sigh I put my plan into action,
I couldn't believe how easy it was.
like a hot knife through butter,
the razor cut through my veins.
like torrents of water the blood flowed,
carrying the life out of my body.
my dream of death had finally come to life,
all my fears
all my anger
all my hatred had fled my body in that single stroke.

I had never felt so free
I had never felt so happy
I had never felt so powerful.
then I saw her,
my closest friend,
my friend whose very mention made me happy.
my friend to whom I had said I loved so dearly.
my friend who tried so hard to show me I had reason to live,
but I was to stupid to listen.

I didn't want her to see this.
I knew it was to late to be stopped.
I knew I would never see her again,
this thought alone could have killed me.
I could feel the last of my soul escaping.

I remember my last sight of her,
she stood at my doorway,
her lustre,
her pure spirit had all been eviscerated.
tears flowed down her face,
as she stood, staring at my lifless body.



I apologize.