| To All Whom It May Concern: Hey there...I just wanted to let you know a few things... I decided to leave Mission, not because I don't like the school itself, and definitely not because I don't like the people, but because I came to a point in my life where I was so stretched out in so many directions, so depressed (because of my past and my present), and so restricted in what I was able to do, that I found it best to leave. I know some of you think I'm just quitting, or just complaining, or thinking that I think I have it worse than everyone else, and that's NOT what I'm saying. I know I do not have a horrible life. I know this. But for ME it was just too much for me to handle. You have to understand that different things effect different people in very individual ways. The exact same thing may happen to two people, but they may react in completely different ways. Please understand. I was diagnosed with depression. This was caused by many things...by things which happened in my past, my reaction to 9-11 and other current events, by missing my family, and by school. I was at a point where, because of my depression, I was having a hard time concentrating on my homework even more than usual. Because I couldn't stay focused, I wouldn' finish my homework, even if I worked on it for hours. Then I would give up and either go to sleep or watch TV or chat, but I would get even more depressed when I went to school and felt like a failure because I was falling behind. I felt like people were disappointed in me. And it worsened my depression...and so it was a circle that I needed to break. Last spring I went through something somewhat like this...I was so stressed ou and depressed and over extended that I was thinking of dropping out completely, and instead I took the California High School Proficiency Exam. This isn't the Exit Exam, it's a test that they have stopped offering this year, that was given for student at any point after their first semester of 10th grade for early graduation, except that instead of "graduating" like 12th graders, you get a certificate, like the GED which in California counts as a HS diploma for colleges, work places, etc. The depression in school seems to have been happening ever since I started HS, but this fall was the worst. As you may or may not have known, I was crying a LOT, but inside and outside the classroom. I would have to leave class, either to calm down or to go see the therapist in the Wellness center, and then my breakdowns became more and more frequent to the point where I was so far behind I felt like I could never catch up. When teachers would help me out by telling me that they wouldn't count my late work against me, and would make changes in my grades so that I wouldn't have low grades, that DEEPENED my depression, because I felt horrible that 1) I was getting special treatment and couldn't seem to get the grades on my own, and 2) Other people who were having problems were failing and were'nt getting the "special treatment" even though our problems were probably equal. I needed out. When I first brought it up, so many people (at school, not necessarily outside of it) were telling me not to leave, that i had responisbilities, that I had so much potential, that I would be quitting, etc. I eventually agreed to stay the semester, and make a final decision after winter break. After I made that decision I had a new kind of lethargy. The kind that didn't care whether I did my work or not, and soon, I became even more behind than I had been before. This time, though, it made me more determined that I had to break away and start fresh. I have refused my mother's offer to move back to Minnesota to live with all of my family, and plan to stay in San Francisco. So please stay in touch. But I will be going to CCSF. Right now I am going to get a job, and just focus on enjoying my family and friends. Support is always needed, and since I won't be at school every day, definitely call or write me an e-mail because I won't get as much social interaction until after Christmas. AND I AM A SOCIAL PERSON SO STAY IN TOUCH, BIATCH! LoL...ok...I meant everything but the b**** part. Well, here it goes. Talk to you later. And HANG OUT with you too cause now I'll actually have the time *shock* Your friend always and no matter what, Morgan Elizabeth Omigaua Wordes (MEEEEEEOOOOOOOW) |
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