Tears Of Pain
Chapter 10
Justin dropped to his knees, staring at his bestfriend lying on the groud. Tears fell from his eyes, as he slowly crawled across the wet grass, moving closer and closer to him. Justin saw Joey slide away from J.C., his gaze laid on his bestfriend. He stopped, tears coming to his eyes. He shut his eyes tightly,letting the tears fall from his eyes. He took a deep breath, making that single side, sitting next to his bestfreind. He lifted his hand,running it across J.C's arm lightly. "Oh Josh" Justin cried, as he laid his head on J.C.'s chest and wept.
J.C. slowly opened his eyes slighly. He fought to speak, his voice low, and hoarse "Just" he said, looking at the younger man, crying on his chest. Justin looked up at him, his eyes wide. "Josh....I..I....I'm sorry, I...I.." Justin said, his head turned away, ashamed. J.C. fought to get the stregth, as he slowly lifted his hand, touching Justins shoulder, "J....look at me" J.C. said, his voice barly a whisper. Justin shook his head, tears falling from his eyes. "Justin, I said look at me" J.C. said, trying his hardest to keep his voice hard. Justin shut his eyes tightly, turning his head. J.C. laughed lightly, "J.... now open your eyes" he said. Justin once again shook his head back and forth, tears falling from his eyes. J.C. looked at his bestfriend with concern, "Justin, what's wrong? I don't understand? Are you up..upset I woke up? What's wrong?" Justin eyes shot open quickly, shaking his head back and forth frantically, " No...no...I.....oh Josh.....I'm....so...s..so happy your a...a...." Justin studdered. "Alive?" J.C. finished for him.
Justin nodded his head, " I...I just...I'm so sorry Josh" Justin said, as he laid his head on J.C's chest once again and sobbed. J.C. reached his hand up, as he laid his hand on Justin's back. "For what J?" he asked. "I...I....just should of done something....I...I mean.....you told me..you....you were..unhappy...I mean....I just.....I should have done something...get you he....help....it's...a....all my f...falt" Justin sobbed into J.C.'s chest. "Was it...me Josh...did I m...make you so unhappy?" Justin sobbed. J.C.'s eyes went wide, listening to the words that came out of Justin's mouth. J.C. shook his head frantically, "Justin....Justin look at me..." J.C. said, lifting Justin face to meet his. J.C. looked into Justin's eyes, "Justin.....this is not your falt. Do you understand me?" Justin looked away slightly., "Justin, look at me" J.C. said. Justin shook his head slightly. J.C. sighed, "Please Justin....please look at me" He said, tears coming to his eyes.
Justin turned his eyes, meeting J.C's eyes. "Justin, you have NOTHING to do with me being unhappy.....NOTHING....neither do the rest of the guys" J.C. said, turning his head looking at the rest of the men. He turned back to look at Justin. "Justin, you and the guys, I can't even put into words what you guys mean to me.....that's why this is so hard, I just....I don't want to hurt any of you by making the wrong choice, what if I choose to leave the group, then I would loose all of you, and I can't take that...I...I just can't" J.C. broke down, his sobs filled the air. "I..can't....l...lose you" J.C. sobbed. Everyones eyes went wide with shock. Lance, Joey, and Chris ran up to J.C. Justin spoke, "J.. Josh, you will..n..never loose us, never, I love you so much...I don't care if you leave the group, just don't leave me, your my b..bestfriend" Justin laid his head on J.C.'s shoulder, and wept. Lance, Chris, and Joey wrapped their arms around Justin and J.C as all the men wept together.