| Cold hands cupped his face, gently forcing him to look back at his silent friend. As soon as he did, he wished that he hadn't. "No....." Your vanishing body once more in my arms Because I can't forget that time, that place where we met.... Kami's body was gradually fading away. Gackt shook his head violently from side to side. "NO!" He wrapped his lean arms around the disappearing waist. "You can't leave me, Kami! You're my only friend in this depressing world." He sobbed into the almost translucent shoulder. "You can't....." Arms encased in white silk wound around his back and shoulders. A comforting embrace. One he desperatly needed. Ice cold lips moved against his ear, again trying to tell him something and failing. The lips stilled. Eventually the tears slowed and Gackt was able to compose himself. That was when he noticed little vibrations rumbling against his chest. Curious, he removed his hand from around Kami's waist and let it rest on his friend's chest. Sure enough, while unable to speak with words, he still had the ability to hum. The melody was soothing at the beginning until it picked up the pace in the middle. While he hummed, he slowly rocked the two of them from side to side. The rocking and humming completely relaxed the distressed musician. In fact, it was so relaxing that he started to feel drowsy. Even his dreamself was able to feel his exhaustion from the real world. Just as he was about to fall aasleep, the arms pushed him away. Startled, Gackt stumbled back, a noise of protest escaping his throat. Dancing in the breeze, your body Was being enveloped in light A gust of wind lifted the cloud from its place in front of the sun. Bright sunlight blinded Gackt momentarily. When he could see again, hesitated to return his gaze back to his friend. He could still hear the humming. It compelled him to look at his friend, even though he knew what he was going to witness. He rubbed the spots from his eyes and looked. By now, Kami's body was almost gone. The sun's rays filtered right through his body. "You can't leave me...." Gackt whispered hoarsly. I was only watching you I was forever gazing into your eyes Gackt gazed at Kami's face, the only part of his form not translucent. They locked eyes. Even now I watch only you Without changing anything To Gackt, as soon as their eyes met, everythign disappeared from his world around him. The grass, the flowers, the hawk, all gone. Only his friend's cold, unsmiling face remained. Only the two of them were left. I strech out my hand, the smile I reached is pained If I close my eyes, I want to hold Once more Gackt reached out for his only best friend. They both watched as his hand went right through the shade's shoulder. A pained smile surfaced on Kami's face as Gackt withdrew his shaking hand. The smile faded as he watched the eyes close, allowing a single tear to slip out. Gackt's thin arms wrapped around his own waist, like a child who just lost his dream. Behind closed eyes, Gackt imagined the Kami he had known in life: whole, smiling, caring. He remembered the way his eyes lit up when they did talk on the beach late at night. He jerked when he felt arms snake around his body. A warm cheek pressed to his. One hand left his back and reappeared on his head, gently stroking his short hair. Your vanishing body once more in my dreams Because I can't forget that time, that place where we met..... When Kami broke the embrace, he did so gently this time. His warm handscradled Gackt's pale, tear-stained face. He whispered. Still Gackt could not make out the words. He watched Kami's lips, mimicing the motions as his friend faded into nothing. An image resurfaced as he watched his friend vanish from sight. For only an instant he saw the kareoke bar where he had shown Kami and Mana how well he could sing. When the memory disappeared, Kami was gone. In a panic he frantically searched the now silnced meadow. Nothing. Just like with Kami, the meadow was dissolving away. One final breeze ruffled his hair, feeling like fingers running through the locks. On that same breeze, he could hear the tune Kami had been humming. The words Kaim tried to form returned to him. He moved his mouth the same as Kami had silently, making sure that he had them right. The grass beneath his feet dissolved away....... Thunder rumbled outside his penthouse, rattling the large windows and shaking him from the dream. His lips were still moving as he jerked upright on the sofa. For my dear. That's what he'd been trying to tell him.... Becasue I can't forget With the tune playng over and over in his head, Gackt searched his coffee table for a working pen and scrap paper. Words came rushing to the fore, alining with the melody. In perfect handwriting he wrote: totsuzen no deai e no kokoro kara no yorokobi to..... In the distance, lightning danced across the sky. Underneath a broad leaf a butterfly flapped its wings once before resting for the night. Lyrics and music by: Gackt Camui Translated by: Mina P |