Well, this is a question I am often asked. Why did I become Pagan? And how? I�guess I'll start with why. I have always been interested in the Occult and New Age things from a very young age. I read a ton of mythology books, and spirituality books. I�had a great intrest in ghosts, spirits, magic and everything like that. I also always wanted something to believe in. I was a bit pesimistic when it came to "God" though. It seemed to far out. Yes, I went to church and prayed, but I never really believed in it. I just REALLY wanted to believe.

I was about 10 years old at that point. I wanted so much to believe in the Christian God that I almost did. It just made no sense to me. So I decided that since it seemed like bullshit, why should I�bother myself to believe in it. Who cared if I wasn't Christian? Who cared if I wasn't any religion? I'd make up my own! So I set out everthing I�believed in. Reincarnation, ghosts, magic, Gods, but not omni-present gods. It turned, years later, that everything I�believed in was Pagan. It was so strange. For two years I had gone thinking I was completly alone in my beliefs, only to find out that there are millions of people with the same beliefs. Not only millions of people, but also that this is what my ansestor belived in as well. I knew then that I was not wrong in my beliefs, and it gave me solist to know that I was not alone anymore.

One thing I have always believed is that people should do whatever makes them happy as long as it doesn't hurt anyone else. This is another reason I became Pagan. So what if it IS wrong. It's right for me. My father believes that even though I don't beleive in God, even though I have basically turned my back on the Christian God taht I will go to heaven, because I am a good person. To each his own.

This belief of my fathers is one reason that I don't knock Christianity that much (or at least I�try not to). True, in my eyes Christianity seems like complete bullshit. But it makes people happy, it gives people HOPE. And isn't that all we really need? Hope in this dismal world? It doesn't hurt anyone. It gives them somethign to believe in, something to live for. It's the same reason I turned to Paganism. It gives me hope. It gives me reason to live, reason to love and reason to create. My belief has given me life.