Disclaimer:- Not mine sadly, and tragically never will be so the
likelihood of making profit out of this is nonexistent. Tragic but true!
Notes:- This is inspired by an actual Mayan folktale I found whilst rummaging
online. The ficlet is based around an early season 2 Blair and the folktale
which you can see here:-
http://www.meta-religion.com/World_Religions/Ancient_religions/Central_america/jaguar_and_the_little.htm
Enjoy!
The Jaguar and the Little Skunk
by Peregrine
Research reading. It was something that seemed endless, random, and as
frustrating as panning for grains of gold in the sludge of some murky river of
information. All around him, books lay half open, their marked pages constantly
in danger of springing shut, journals and papers covered with yellow memos
telling him to remember to get a copy of this section, or search out a
bibliography - or even in one stray instance to pick up some milk and the dry
cleaning before meeting Jim at the office.
Blair reached over to that one and plucked it off the book with a faint smile
of amusement at the evidence of his organized chaos method of working. Yeah,
that would look good in his dissertation as a footnote. Reference 123, that
well known anthropological tract, Jim, Milk and the Drycleaned Court Suit by
E-zee Clean Drycleaners and K-mart et al. He looked at it a moment and then the
clock, before deciding he had time to fit a little more studying in before he
set off on errands. A brief hesitation later and he stuck the yellow memo to
his arm just in case it decided to leap headlong into the maelstrom of academic
mayhem he had created in the middle of the Loft.
"Better clean it up man." he chastised himself shaking his head.
"Or risk it ending up in the garbage.."
Most likely the offended Sentinel would dump the lot of it in his room. In the
middle of his bed so he'd have to put them away or take the usual option of
dumping everything off onto the floor when he crashed out for some sleep.
Sometimes he'd find his textbooks neatly stacked there in piles leaning against
each in a strange shaky looking ziggurat shape. It always made him think
frivolously that maybe Jim was responding to internal Peruvian symbolism or
something, but the one time he'd rather enthusiastically expounded this theory
- whilst waving a beer around - he'd been oon the receiving end of a artic blue
patented Ellison Look and a "Is the weather nice on whatever planet you're
on Chief?" comment.
Hastily, he piled the books up neatly, marking the pages as he went, until the
place was reasonable enough to pass a cursory glance even by a Sentinel and
then checking the time again he decided he only had time now to run through
something short.
So..the Slush Pile. He looked around for his folder of a large collection of
random folklore, myths, legends, snippets of articles trawled from all over the
place for sorting into categories from relevant all the way through to, wow
man, that theory came off of the back of a cereal box and has more holes in it
than Swiss cheese. Which reminded him, he was getting hungry - cereal and
cheese? Nah, maybe best to leave that little thought bunny well alone. Jim
would probably insist on going out for dinner anyway as it was his turn to
cook. He could wait. Back to work. Since their experiences in Peru going after
Simon, Jim might not have thought much of the fact he had told him about seeing
the black jaguar but that had been like, wow , breakthrough city man!. A direct
link to the original Sentinel mythology and to who knew what else? The problem
was the whole of that area was saturated in Jaguar related myths, folktales and
tall stories from every single era. From the Olmecs, Mayan's ,Toltecs, and
Aztecs as well as the tribal traditions of the Shuar and Jivaro. So, he had been
scouring all he could find, no matter how ridiculous and seeing if any
contained seeds of information from which Sentinel theories could be grown in
his fertile imagination.
Pushing his hair back absently into a tie, and ignoring the wisps that curled free
as he leaned forward, he picked up the next print out from the folder and gave
a little chuckle aloud as he read the title. It wasn't even a page long, but
he'd obviously printed it out because of the title. "The Jaguar and the
Little Skunk." and that fact it was meant to have a Mayan origin.
"Yeah, I know which one Jim would call me." he said to the room as he
settled back on the couch indulging in his habit of talking to himself as there
was no hyper sensed room mate to complain. Part of living with someone who
could smell as acutely as a Sentinel meant having to put up with the occasional
subtle comment such as "Sandburg you _stink_! Use the damn shower!"
if he came back from a night out in a bar at Rainer, ripe with the smell of
smoke, alcohol and people.
Hey, perhaps a streak of white in the middle of his hair might help things, or
if it turned out to be a comedy tale he could give Jim a laugh by leaving it
around and telling him he had plans to change his name to Pepe or something.
Jim needed to seriously lighten up at the moment, or he'd bust a vein or
something. One day he might get lockjaw from the way he exercised that muscle
there when he was tense, and he'd be trying to drink pureed wonderburger
through a straw or something. Anyway...
He sipped at his cold-by-now herbal tea and grimaced a little as he lifted a
pen to annotate notes in the double spaced print out. So then.. The Tale of the
Jaguar and the Little Skunk..
"Once there was a gentleman jaguar and a lady skunk. Mrs. Skunk had a
son, who was baptized by Mr. Jaguar, so Mrs. Skunk became his comadre. And as
Mr. Jaguar had baptized the little skunk, he was Mrs. Skunk's compadre. "
Blair read to himself and started jotting notes. 'Evidence of catholicised
original folktale, but Jaguar still present as authority figure and responsible
for spiritual/physical protection' he jotted down in neat handwriting and
considered the opening. Interesting, maybe it could have an element of the
Sentinel myth buried in there. Jim as a Jaguar of course, making the Jaguar a
sentinel figure - or at the very least some sort of noble warrior. But there
was no way he was identifying himself with Mrs. Skunk thank you very much.
Perhaps the son. But that would make Naomi a skunk too and she'd _love_ that. A
sage eating spiritually clean skunk of course. Amused he tapped his pen and
continued reading.
'Mr. Jaguar decided to go looking for food and came to Mrs. Skunk's house.
"Well, compadre, what are you looking for? What have you come here
for?" the skunk asked the jaguar.
"Comadre, what I have come to do is to look for some food," said Mr.
Jaguar.
"Oh," said Mrs. Skunk.'
"We've got nothing in the fridge man, order some pizza - but make sure
it's organic." Blair commented to the story even as he wrote 'Jaguar as
provider, coming in from outside but exhibiting need for contact? Skunk as
tribe? Possible. Mayan matriarchal theme as tribal continuity?'
"I want my godson to come with me so that he can learn to hunt," said
Mr. Jaguar.
"I don't think your godson ought to go; he's still very small and
something could happen to him. He better not go, compadre," said Mrs.
Skunk.
But the little skunk protested: "No, mother, I had better go. What my
godfather says is true. I need to get some practice, if I'm going to learn to
hunt," said the little skunk.
"But if you go, you'll be so far away," said Mrs. Skunk.
"I'm going, I'm going. Come on, let's go." So they set off on a long
walk.
"We're going to where there's a river. That's where we're going," Mr.
Jaguar explained to the little skunk, his godson.
That was definitely Naomi. Oh yes - 'He's still very small and something could
happen to him'? The amount of times he'd heard that as a reason why he was left
to stay with some friend or other when she went off to a distant retreat. And,
yeah that sounded like him when he had gone to Rainer so early saying, hey,
yeah I've got to grow up sometime - I can cope. Big wide world and all that
Mom, got to face it sometime...except he hadn't had a Jaguar then had he? No
Jim, just him being an overly bright kid facing college too early and too
alone.
He tapped his pen a little more and then noted down his thoughts in a slightly
more objective fashion. 'Jaguar as a mentor protector figure provider for the
tribe? Having an existence separate from the tribe. Definite Sentinel parallel.
Close connection with limited amount of others. Generalized obligations kept at
distance. Long walk, possibly Journey in a more spiritual sense?'.
It made a weird kind of sense; Jim was always somewhat distant but he did seem
to crave that connection as well. Why else would he have allowed a grad student
like him into his personal space and more to the point let him stay way past
that 'just one week'? The comparison didn't seem so different. Jim the Jaguar -
lean, capable tough and wise in the ways of the harshness of existence,
mentoring Blair the ...uh ... little Skunk.
"Yeah, just called me Pepe le Pew, Jim." Blair said with heavy
exhalation that bordered on a sigh. Man, it was depressing sometimes.
Anthropologist Blair would be in raptures about the Sentinel responding to
genetic archetypes, but underneath it wasthe Blair who had to be there
and experience whilst his observer self sat back and this Blair was all too
aware of his own inadequacies compared to the incredibly capable Jim Ellison.
Not that he didn't know his way around some things - man, if it was him versus
Jim in the realms of academia he'd whup Jim's ass and they both knew it. But
they weren't on Blair's territory, they were in Jim's and sometimes it was hard
to keep up with a bonafide everyday hero.
It came as a bit of a shock to realize that heroism was never something that
the person being heroic experienced so they never really knew or thought that
was what they were doing. Pretty much all they got was fear, adrenalin and
blind instinctive panic. Maybe that was a concept worth noting down for the
dissertation. Sentinels were very much tribal heroes and if they existed in a
constant internal fear and alert then how would that affect them? Jim didn't
seem like that on the outside but it was possible to bottle fear down so tight
it sank like a proverbial stone inside. But it was still there, and all your
other thoughts built themselves upon using it as a foundation more solid than..human
contact.
Blair raised his eyebrow at the pensive turn his thoughts had taken and
scribbled a note on another piece of paper about 'fear based responses' and
continued reading.
"When are we going to get there?" asked the little skunk.
"We're getting close. Follow me so you won't get lost," said Mr.
Jaguar.
"All right," answered the little skunk. They finally came to the
river.
"This is where we're going to eat," said Mr. Jaguar to the little
skunk.
"All right," said the little skunk.
"Come on over here. I'm going to sharpen my knife," said Mr. Jaguar.
"All right," said the little skunk, looking at his godfather. Mr.
Jaguar sharpened his claws, which he called his "knife."
'Or his police issue gun." Blair muttered, barely audible even to himself.
"Jaguars having weapons...protectors theme..yadda yadda.." . Did he
sound like that ? 'All right' said the little skunk. It might as well be
"Yes Jim" said the longhaired anthropology student police observer.
Actually Skunk was shorter and could probably be bellowed with more satisfying
fervour. Maybe he wouldn't mention this to Jim in case he acquired it as a new
nickname that might replace Chief. Chief had a much better sound to it.
"I sharpened my knife. Now you're going to be on guard, because I am
going to sleep. When you see them come, wake me up," said Mr. Jaguar.
"All right," said the little skunk, "all right, godfather."
Then Mr. Jaguar told him: "Don't shout. Just scratch my belly when
they come. Scratch my belly, so I won't alarm them. But don't wake me up if
just any little old animals without antlers come along, only when the one with
big antlers gets here. That's when you'll wake me up."
"All right," said the little skunk. Then the one with the big antlers
came, and the skunk awakened Mr. Jaguar. He scratched his belly, and pointed
out the deer to Mr. Jaguar, who attacked the animal with big antlers. He went
after him and seized him.
Blair sat up a little at that and paused thinking hard before he began
scribbling rapidly, his thoughts flying. 'Why does the Jaguar need someone to
be on guard for him? Someone not a warrior? To help him get the prey he hunts?
Discrimination of prey - only prey worthy of note to be brought to the Jaguar's
attention? Suggestion of touch to be used as a means of bringing a Jaguar to
awareness. Jaguar takes prey easily by not working completely alone but not
within the Tribe.'
He paused a moment again as idea's bounced around his head over excited in
their enthusiasm to make themselves heard. Whoa, Sentinel and partner stuff.
Had to be. The isolation with the Jaguar spirit was something marked as special
in all the South American cultures, not for the normal hunter or warrior. And
there was even a practical cue there on how to raise a sleeping Jaguar warrior.
Was that sleep as in normal sleep or a representation of a zone? Wow,
scratching the jaguars belly, not shouting or anything over stimulating to the
senses.
He mentally rehearsed a stray comment that popped into his mind. 'Hey Jim, got
another idea for a test here.. Next time you zone I'm going to try bringing you
around by scratching your belly. How about it?...what? Yeah sure Jim, I'll be
packed and out in a few minutes.."
Oh yeah. Fantastic idea Sandburg. Go to the front of the class and hand out the
pencils, if you can do that with broken arms or something. He snorted to
himself.
Mind you, if touch was so grounding to a Jaguar maybe he could be aware of that
in the field. It was true enough that Jim didn't often zone out on touch, it
was usually sight or sound.. And it was consistent with the concepts in
Burton's monograph about the back up native - the Guide, as he'd started to
refer to him or himself after that deal with Brackett. In a bizarre way it
could relate to Jim and him though. He watched out for Jim whilst he did his
work, and on the surface what a mismatch! Jaguar and Skunk and then some!.
People wouldn't believe that someone like Jim needed his help - hell, half the
time _he_ didn't believe it.. Didn't seem like it did it from the outside did it
but though they never really made a big deal about it between the two of them,
he _had_ helped. With zones, with cases, with...whatever whilst still appearing
nothing unusual next to Jim and his record. Just a longhaired student tagalong
and occasional target for the bad guys.
"All right, my godson, let's eat. We're going to eat meat," said
the jaguar.
"All right," said the little skunk.
And so they ate and ate. "Now we're going to take whatever leftovers there
are to your mother," said the jaguar. "Since we are full, we can take
something to your mother. Your mother will have meat to eat, just as we did. We
will take some to your mother," said the jaguar. When they came back to
the mother's house, he told the lady:
"Look at the food here. Look, we've brought you some food, the food that
we hunted. Eat your fill of the meat, comadre," the jaguar said to Mrs.
Skunk.
"All right," said the skunk, and ate the meat. "I'm full,"
she said.
"It's good that you're satisfied. I've seen that you are, so I'll be
leaving now," said Mr. Jaguar to Mrs. Skunk. And so he left.
Okay, that bit was easy...though an interesting inference there. The Jaguar
provided for the young Skunk first. He smiled a little to himself and looked
around the Loft. Yeah, couldn't argue with that one either, this neo-hippy
witch doctor ..Skunk was well provided for one way or another. His pen
scribbled hastily, more convinced now this doggerel folktale might be drawing
on some Sentinel roots. 'Jaguar as provider for the Tribe. Interesting that
priority could be Guide then Tribe if connection sustained. Partnership
successful. Follows the classic tribal of criteria of success of hunting enough
for more than self and enough to sustain others. Jaguar returns to patrolling
the perimeter?'.
The tale was obviously building up to the point of the whole thing which was
presumably about what? Cooperation bringing prosperity to the tribe? A Sentinel
and Guide pair leading to dominance over lesser tribes? Well, there was one way
to find out...
After the jaguar left, the little skunk stayed with his mother.
"Hey...hey...no way!" Blair found himself protesting aloud into the
quietness of the Loft and shut up, embarrassed at that emotional reaction even
if there were no-one to hear it. His pen doodled the words "Theme -
Separation" and then underlined it absently with rather harsh strokes.
That was not what he had been expecting. Not at all.
When they ran out of meat, Mrs. Skunk said to her son: "Dear, our meat
is all gone."
"Yes, the meat is all gone. I better go and get us some more food,"
said the little skunk.
"How can you, son? Do you think you're big enough? You're very small.
Don't you think you'll be killed?" asked Mrs. Skunk.
"No, mother, I already know how to hunt, my godfather taught me how,"
replied the little skunk. "I'm leaving now."
He left, and Mrs. Skunk was very worried.
Okay. So the Skunk and Jaguar were no longer an item if you wanted it to put it
like that, and the implication was that the abundance that had been with the Tribe
failed as a result. Was this a warning to the Skunk to not leave the Tribe or
not to leave the Sentinel. No, damn, not the Skunk, the Guide figure. Or that
if the Sentinel was not there then his back up would have to take his place? Or
that he shouldn't? Blair felt a distinct unease at the turn this harmless
folktale was taking. Which was ridiculous of course because it was just a
folktale, and an anglicized catholisced version distortion at that.
Her son came once more to the river, the place to which he had come with his
godfather to get the meat.
"This is how my godfather did it. Why shouldn't I be able to do the same
thing?" said the little skunk. "This is how you sharpen a
knife," said the little skunk. He sharpened his "knife."
"This is the way my godfather did it. I'm not going to hunt the little
animals; I'm just going to hunt the one with the great big antlers. I'm going
to hunt one for myself just like the one I ate with my godfather. I have my
knife here and I'm going to sleep for a little while." The little skunk
lay down to sleep, but then he awakened. He was waiting for the one with the
big antlers, and when he came, he attacked him, thinking he was as strong as
his godfather.
Blair paused again, pen poised and wrote deliberately 'Skunks cannot be
Jaguars.' slowly next to that section. Stupid really, he should have just
written, 'Guides cannot hope to be Sentinels' there and be done with it. His
reactionary side ran a brief scenario of placards waving angrily demanding
equal rights for Guides and Skunks but somehow he decided he would be a protest
group of one there. Still, the next time he was left behind, or told to stay
put, he'd entertain himself with a little mental protest rally if nothing else.
Him and a few thousand skunks picketing Major Crimes. He looked suspiciously at
his cold herbal tea just in case that idea was not a result of an over active
brain before forcing himself to settle down a little.
Why was the Jaguar not there? He couldn't help but turn back to that point - it
tugged at him, worried at him. What would lure a Jaguar away so that it would
leave the Tribe unprotected? He doodled on the side of the paper a moment in
the fine black pen before writing 'Primal instincts?". The only time he'd
seen Jim take his mind from work was during that incident with Laura. Man, Jim
got a whiff of pheromones and - bam! - attention diverted big time. So whilst
the Jaguar plays.. the Guide is left vulnerable...and through the Guide, the
Tribe. There was only one paragraph left to read and he just knew that the
little Skunk wasn't going to be bringing back any food for the Tribe no matter
how hard he tried. That was depressing really and he should know better than to
empathize too much with story characters, but he knew that he was like that
little Skunk. He'd try to help, he'd try to protect the Tribe even though that
wasn't strictly his job because of the fact he had worked with Jim and had lost
his tolerance to standing idly by. Dead bodies, kidnappings and close calls
made peril more personal somehow. He'd hunted with the Jaguar and it had
changed him for all the fact he was only an observer, and not meant to be
involved.
Still, it was just a folktale. He'd finish this paragraph and then go off and
meet Jim and maybe wind him up about skunks or something. His eyes, darkened
with thought to a stormy blue, turned to the final paragraph.
But he just hung from the neck of the one with big antlers. His claws had
dug into his skin. He was hanging from his neck and was carried far away and fell
on his back. He was left with his mouth wide open.
Since he had not come home to his mother, she wondered:
"What could have happened to my son? Why hasn't he come back yet?
Something must have happened to him. I better go and look for him."
And so Mrs. Skunk went as far as the bank of the river. She was looking
everywhere for her son, but couldn't find him. She began to cry when she found
the tracks where the one with the big antlers had come by running.
"They must have come by here," said Mrs. Skunk, and began to follow
the tracks. She came to the place where her son had been left lying on his
back. When the mother caught sight of him, she noticed that his teeth were
showing and shouted at him:
"Son, what are you laughing at? All your teeth are showing," she said
to him before she had gotten very close. When she did get close she told him:
"Give me your hand. I've come to get you, but you're just laughing in my
face." She put her hand on him, thinking that he was still alive, but when
she noticed that he was already dead, she began to cry.
The clatter on the floor told him he had dropped his pen as he finished reading
the last sentence, a ghost of a premonitionary chill having passed through him,
prickling his body with shock and unease.
Damn these Peruvian folktales. Every time he read them, their sudden brutal
twists metaphorically punched him in the gut. No way. He wasn't expecting
Disney but what sort of message was that sending? Not exactly a happy type of
moral was it? Get close to a Jaguar and they'll abandon you and you'll die? No
way. No way man, that wouldn't happen!
Or, Jaguar distracted and the Guide gets killed?
Or that there will be one day when they don't come to the rescue of the one who
watched over them and helped them and...
Or that he was just stupid taking all these risks and deluding himself that he
might just be measuring up in someway because if he was really put to the test
he would end up dying...
No. No, Jim wouldn't do that. He wouldn't - just wouldn't - leave him. He
wouldn't abandon the person who helped him, and he wasn't trying to be a
Sentinel was he? Nuh-uh, wouldn't wish that on anyone, not seeing how Jim
struggled even with his help to cope with the day-to-day torments of a society
designed to over stimulate the senses for thrills.
He stared at the story again trying to ignore the fact that he was being a big
wuss and the piece of paper was trembling ever so slightly from a miniscule
shake in his hands. Ever so tiny. Wouldn't show up on any emotional Richter
scale if anyone was there to measure it. Interpretations aside there was one
fact that hammered over and over in his head if he took this little snippet as
a Sentinel based tale despite his attempts to rationalize over the top of the
message.
The Guide dies alone.
He had two choices. Believe in the evidence and inference he had just scrawled
in black and white next to orderly type and take the warning. Run like hell.
Drop Jim, get the hell out of Dodge or whatever...and survive.
Or deny it. It's just a piece of Peruvian folk history. A doggerel tale not
about Sentinels and Guides but about knowing your own nature and not trying to
be something you are not...and stay.
The paper was suddenly and decisively screwed up into a ball, with thorough
intent, and Blair threw it in the direction of the waste bin, whilst checking
his watch. "Man, I'm going to be late! Jim is going to kill me!" he
announced breaking that thick silence that had cocooned him. In a flurry of
movement, hair escaping the loose tie as he grabbed his jacket he fled the Loft
to meet Jim at the comparative sanctuary of Major Crimes.
And in the shadows, behind the waste bin where it had fallen, the tight paper
bud of a future uncrinkled and blossomed unseen.
The End.