Brynn opened the door to the suite Benji was sharing with Joel, Paul, and Billy,
using the key the clerk at the desk had given her. She slowly closed it behind
her so Benji wouldn�t hear her coming in. After setting her purse and suitcase on
a chair by the door, she walked into the living room of the suite. A smiled
quickly appeared on her lips when she heard noises coming from the bedroom.
"Good. He's still awake watching t.v." she thought to herself.
She quietly walked through the main room back to where she heard the t.v. The
door was closed all but two inches. She put her hand on the metal door knob and
began to slowly open the door. Then she heard something that made her stop in
her tracks. It was a woman�s voice moaning softly. Brynn held her breath.
"Benji is a very horny guy. He's probably just watching a porno to releive some
tension. Its completely normal," she said to herself trying to justify the noises
emanating from the room.
She continued to open that door and walked in. She stopped abruptly as she was
in full view of the bed. What she saw made her heart drop and her throat tighten.
She stood there with clenched fists at her sides and tears welling up in her
eyes as she watched her boyfriend, the love of her life, having sex with another
girl. She couldn't move, couldn't speak. She wanted to run, but yet at the same
time stay and kill them both.
The girl in the bed let out a loud moan and raked her nails across Benji's back.
With a few more thrusts Benji let out a moan of his own, and the dead was done.
He laid on top of the girl for a few moments and then rolled over on his back.
Thats when he saw Brynn standing in the room. Benji quickly jumped up and wraped
the sheet around his waist. Following his lead the girl got up and started putting
her clothes on.
"I only slept with her because I love you." Benji spat out frantically.
Brynn took a deep breath trying to compose herself. She didn't want to cry, not
in front of him...not this time.
Her attention turned to the girl, who was struggling to get dressed. "You had
your fun, now get the hell out before I have to throw you out," she said, her
voice quivering.
"Brynn...I'm sor..." Benji tried to appologize.
"NO!..." she held up her hand to stop him. She didn't want to here anything he
had to say to her. "You made me a promise that you would never hurt me again,
but yet here you are fucking some cheap ass ho...some skanky, dirty groupie. And
you tell me that you screwed her because you love me?" The anger in her voice
increased with every word and a few tears escaped from her eyes.
Benji walked over to her and took her hand in his, hoping to comfort her. Instead
Brynn snapped and began hitting him. He never tried to stop her. He knew he
deserved it.
She hit him until his chest was bright red and she had no more strength left in
her body. Then she collapsed on the floor sobbing into her hands. Benji lowered
himself to the floor besides her and wrapped his arms around her. She turned
and buried her face in his chest. Tears rolled down her cheek onto his bare skin.
Neither of them said a word. Being in Benji's arms some how always made things
better. 10 minutes later she had cried herself to sleep. Benji carefully layed
her all the way down on the floor, took a quick shower and got dressed. Then he
went downstairs to get Brynn a room.
Benji carried her up to her room and placed her on the bed. He closed all the
curtains, turned out all the lights, and lit a few candles around the room.
Then he layed down next to her on the bed. He couldn't let her wake up alone, not
after what he had done to her. He spent the rest of the night (actually by this
time it was early morning) staring at Brynn's body, watching her breathe.
Brynn finally awoke around 4 in the morning. She opened her eyes and noticed that
HE was laying beside her. "Why is he here? Why is he watching me? He doesn't
care about me." A million thoughts flew through her head.
"Why?" she finally asked him. Her voice just at a whisper.
Benji didn't say a word. He just layed there. It was like he was a doll, lying
lifeless next to her...just watching her every move. Brynn couldn't take the
silence, and a few tears ran down her cheek. She closed her eyes trying to hold
back the rest of them. Then she felt Benji's warm hand wipe the tears from her
face. She opened her eyes and he pulled her closer.
"I'm sorry," he began. "I know that doesn't make up for what I did, but I do
love you and I never ment to hurt you."
Brynn shook her head. "If you never ment to hurt me you wouldn't have done what
you did. You don't love me Benji. You just used me."
Those words were like a dager through his heart, and she knew it. For a moment
she almost felt guilty for saying them.
A singled tear rolled down Benji's cheek. He sat up on the edge of the bed with
his back to Brynn. He ran his hand through his un-gelled hair.
"I've been beating myself up for the past couple of hours about what I did. And
there are a million reasons I could give you for why I did what I did. But
all of them are stupid and none of them will take it back."
Brynn crawled over and sat beside him. She knew the last time he had cried was
when his father had left. She wanted to hug him and tell him everything would
be alright, but she knew it wouldn't. She wrapped her arms around him and pulled
him into a hug.
"I love you Benji, and a part of me always will, despite this. I know you love
me too. If I were anyone else I could forgive you, but it just hurts too much.
And I know that if we pretend none of this happened it would only make things
worse in the long run."
Brynn gave him one last kiss. Then gathered her belongings and left. Benji just
sat on the bed in silence...in shock. In pain.
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