Meg: Well, I've been meaning to write but...well...I got busy. Wait a minute. this is bullshit. I'm harassing myself because I haven't kept up with something that I decided to do with no pressure from anyone?
Meg: You're the one who opted to write in interview style.
Meg: That's because I'm a dork.
Meg: Copy that. So let's get on to the important things...
Meg: You mean the guy situation?
Meg: Well, no one really cares about the rest of your life. And besides, you catch us up on the Q in your November 4th entry, so there's really no need to deal with that here.
Meg: I love it when I'm right.
Meg: Now, in the past year, all we ready about was Aaron Aaron Aaron and then we come back five months later to not a mention of the guy. For someone who seemed so gung ho over him when we last left off, something must have happened.
Meg: It was a multi-pronged happening. It wasn't just one thing. The spring semester was really rough. He kept opting to spend his weekends getting wasted instead of seeing me, so I got the job at the Street Corner so I could at least make some extra money while spending time without him. And it wasn't just that. There were lots of little things, little things he promised to change many times and he would change for like a month and it would be great and then he would degenerate back into what he was doing before, which was just really a lack of consideration for me. I thought summer would be better since we would be five minutes away instead of 2.5 hours, but I kept getting brushed aside for poker games and everything else. It was somewhere during this time that I realized that I love him, but I wasn't in love with him.
Meg: (making vomiting noises)(scarcastically) Now that's not cliche!
Meg: Cliche but true. We had problems and I had fallen out of love with him before I even got my full time job. Then I realized even more that (1) holy shit I'm a grown up (2) things are really not going to work now and (3) that he is so far from where I am in life. It worked before or at least seemed to work before because we were both in college and that sort of leveled the gap. But once I got my full time job, I sort of stepped back and just saw everything so clearly and this is not what I wanted and was not going to work. And then he sort of came into the picture as well.
Meg: Now this is getting good.
Meg: I met this guy who just turned my head. After I broke up with Aaron, we went out a few times and it was just amazing. I mean, I was pretty sure that Aaron wasn't right for me and then after spending time with " Guy" I just realized what I actually wanted in a significant other and I knew that I had made the right decision about breaking up with Aaron.
Meg: So if things are so great, why the pseudonym?
Meg: Well, he sort of was going through the same thing I was with his girlfriend, only he wasn't sure he made the right decision and is back with her trying to make it work and figure out if its really right.
Meg: And you're sitting here writing about it like an ass.
Meg: So it didn't work out for me, but if nothing else, he served the purpose of letting me realize how I want to be treated by someone I'm dating and that I really do deserve better than I thought I did.
Meg: Who are you and what have you done with our Meg?
Meg: You know, after all the crazy relationships and boy stories (many of which can be found in the archives) I am finally able to just shrug off things that don't work out and not dwell on them. I'm 22...there is plenty of time to have more guys that don't work out and stuff. I'm just happy as hell to have a job in my field that I love.
Meg: This isn't really as exciting as I had hoped it would be. Considering your boyfriends before Aaron, I expected a little bloodshed or at least a visit to the ER.
Meg: I have a wholehearted appreciation for this non-violent break up. And Aaron and I still talk and he's still a part of my life, but just not in the same way.
Meg: So now you're single?
Meg: For the first time in years. No prospects, no plans, no backburners, front burners, nada. About two years ago, Dave Weber told me that maybe I just need to be single but at the time, I think I just flung myself into a relationship with Sam, and we all know what a great idea that was. Anyway, so it's not really a bad thing. After three years off and on with Aaron, nine months with Sam and a whole bunch of miscreants sprinkled throughout all of my dating years, I think it's kind of nice to be a little selfish. No more explaining going out with my friends or god forbid I want to go to a bar with them...bars equal trouble apparently. You know, you get Sambuca down your pants twice from having people do body shots off you at the bar when you're 19 and suddenly the idea of you at the bar is a flashing red light of panic.
Meg: So your last tangent has caused us to just about max out the space on this page. Any final statements??
Meg: I kick ass and I love my friends.