These are the things I think of when I'm supposed to be paying attention.
And it's not even like I was thinking about anything important like a cure for AIDS, the meaning of life or what I'm going to have for lunch. At that very moment I had to have been thinking of the most unintelligent and stupidest thing out of anyone with chartable brain waves.
It was kind of like a flash back to junior year of high school when I was taking the Advanted Placement test for Biology and I started staring a a doorknob, which moments later dangerously spiraled into "Why I am here? I am really here? What if I'm taking this test but the whole concept of celluar biology is actually non-existent and I've spent the whole year studying something that isn't real? What if I'm not really real?" None of those questions were on the test, but I did pass and got four credits for it, so it's good to know that even if celluar biology is just a conspiracy, I still got an A on it.
I have not one philosophical cell in my body until I have a major test and then suddenly I exist on a deep thinking almost spirtual level. Can I find this spirtual level when I have Tai Chi? Of course not.
I can go through the motions and try become one with the wall but something is missing. Without realizing it, I must have abused my Chi. Then it got all pissed off, packed a suitcase, took my Inner Peace and the dog and it left me for someone Oriental.
But, baby, I can change!
That would explain why I don't have any Inner Peace, though.
As Seinfeld would say, it was a Break-Up By Association: When a man and woman break up and the man's friend's no longer associate with the woman.
And you know, I expected that from my Chi, but not from you, Inner Peace! I thought we really connected that day I spontaniously fell asleep in Dynamic Interpertations and for the first time, I was actually calm and sedated in that class.
I see how it is! It was just an act!! Well, you know what, fuck you Inner Peace! I don't need you or your peacefulness!! GO...Just leave!
You know, if I had inner peace, I probably wouldn't have written this entry ;-)
And this is what I did for 45 minutes instead of studying or reviewing my script for Broadcast Journalism.