12/6/00
2:00 pm I am tired�I am not sleeping through the night�I am horrible nightmares�I am too many hook-up dreams�I am trans-ient�I am unsure�I am singer/songwriters from Minneapolis�I am thinking of moving to Minneapolis, but not just for the cute musicians�I am having a hard time deciding what to do about liking someone, but not enough�I am not totally together, yet not totally apart�I am "patches" and "bingo"�I am homemade holiday gifts�I am broke and happy�I am planning a trip to NY city�I am wanting to cut off all of my hair again�I am reconsidering therapy�I am hoping that these past six months will stop overshadowing my life at some point�I am a survivor, and I'm not talking about the TV show�I am more okay on my own than I have ever been�I am the ease of purchasing CD's and books and pretty much anything else over the internet�I am scared of that reality�I am a chubby tummy and boobs that went from a C to an A to a B�I am sick of buying new bras�I am running and running and running but not getting anywhere�I am bury my heart at wounded knee�I am needing to stimulate my mind more than I'm currently doing�I am going through the motions at work�I am not having to "think" AT ALL�I am chats that last all day�I am "soft day" and "from years to hours"�I am in love with cute girls who sing and play the guitar�I am routine, and trying to break out of it a bit�I am expected to be and do and think a certain way, and trying to break out of it a bit�I am expecting others to be and do and think a certain way, and trying to break out of it a bit�I am egg rolls�I am "happy"�I am wool socks and wool sweaters and layers�I am itchy�I am trying to talk myself into it, or out of it, but not just letting it be�I am not wanting to have to force this�I am not as ready as I thought I was�I am thinking up project ideas whenever I am walking outside�I am planning on actually executing some of those ideas�I am feeling very creative�I am having few outlets�I am needing to get back in the darkroom�I am the smell that doesn't leave the room for days after I've made new prints�I am very influenced by smells�I am the smells that give my headaches, the smells that make me hungry, the smells that make me homesick, the smells that make me comfortable and the smells that make me fall in love�
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